[erika182]

7w4d today, i feel like I'm already showing! I was good and went to the gym, it actually felt really good. I feel like everyone at work is looking at me and knows (but I don't want anyone to know yet.) This is really hard not telling my mom. My husband want to wait until the end of March and have some big surprise birthday party for our moms and spring it on them then. It is a fun great idea, but I'll be 15w by then and it will be very hard to hide it. Well, i guess i better figure out what i'm going to wear to work tomorrow. I'm so glad that my sickness has stopped. Now if I wasn't so constipated it would be great!

[erika182]

One of my students today asked me if I stopped working out. I said, no, why? They just gave me a little sideways glance and walked away. Great, my students think I'm getting fat!
I am constantly hungery, but I always told myself that I wouldn't be one of those people who ate for two duing the pregnancy and gain 60 plus pounds. I think I am going alright. I eat an extra meal each day, about 300 calories, sometimes more if I know that I am going to go to the gym.

I keep speaking to soon, I tell my husband that the sickness is gone, but then I find myself turning green and having to sit down and rest. The strangest things make me really ill....taking a shower! I can't explain it, I get in and I'm fine, but when I get out I feel like I want to hurl.

Today makes 8 weeks!!! My tummy is starting to look swollen, but not like just fat, sold and round in bump form. I think tonight my husband and I are going to start taking pictures to track my bump growth.

It is so hard not telling anyone yet. I had a meeting for the school talent show today. The actual show isn't until May (I'll be 5 months along by then), but we start planning end of the year events early. So, one of the other girls asked if I was going to be in the teacher dance routine again.....I didn't know what to say. If I said no too fast she would wonder why, since I ove doing the dance routine. So I just said, "Have I ever not done the dance routine?"
I've been doing that a lot lately. That is, not really answering questions, but making statements that are still true.

The hardest is my mom! When I don't feel well when she is around she is always telling me to take medicine or go to the doctor. She currently thinks I have a UTI and need a new contact perscription due to the symptoms she has witnessed (contantly having to go to the bathroom and becoming easily ill). She doesn't think pregnant, because we had been trying for so long, with complications.
The other night at the gym she got off the treadmill before I got off the elliptical and came over and asked me how much longer I was going to stay on. I told her 15 minutes, she said, that'll help lose that extra weight you put on. I could barely hold back my smile.

Well, I wish I had more decorations like everyone else, but I don't know how they do it.
I think I'll call it a day.

[erika182]

[erika182]

Went house hunting today with the husband. Had a lot of fun, but boy, can't get a lot for your money right now in the OC. The realtors were so nice, and at each place they had out snacks. I usually would have been like, no, don't take any, but today I was like, oh a cookie thanks, candy, great! It doesn't help that my husband can go like 6 to 7 hours without eatting, s I have to grab it while I can.

I feel like this journal is all about food and being nauseous. Well I guess that is all I really have to talk about right now (and sore breasts). My tummy was growling all day yesturday! I ate a whole bag of potato chips I bought at the gas station when I filled up my car, on the way home. It's like I eat and within an hour or so I'm hungery again.

I've been avoiding my mom a little. Tomorrow I'm going to take a chance and go wit her to visit my grandma. I'm just so worried I'm going to get sick when I'm with her and I won't know how to explain it.

I can't wait until my next dr. visit. It isn't until the 26th of Feb. but I want another picture of my jelly bean. Plus, the dr. didn't tell us our due date. We have one in mind based of computer calculation, but it still would be nice to hear it from the dr. (Or should I say midwife?)

Well, definately don't have morning sickness, I like to call it night time sickness. As soon as he sun goes down, so do I! I get tired, nauseous, and feel like my head is swimming like a hang over.

Maybe some ice cream will help.....I go tell the husbnd.

[erika182]

Trying not to get to excited, but there is a condo for sale in my mom's complex! It is a little out of our price range, but it would be great. It is a three bedroom, two and a half bath, so it could be a place that we could stay in for quite a long time.
We found out that it has some weird seller/lease problem though. Now I'm worried, because we could make an offer, and they could just make us wait while they hold out for more.
But, we got approved today and got a realtor, so that should help. Jayme (husband) won't be spending hours and hours on the computer any more searching for places, now the realtor can do the job for us.
Yep, I definately have night time sickness! Last night I took a nap at six just to use sleep to avoid the pain and nausea.
I want to be truly showing already! That way I can wear whatever I want. Rather than now while I'm trying to wear things that hide the fact that I am and don't make me look bloated and fat.
We went grocery shopping tonight, that was an experience. Jayme kept laughing because I picked up things I would never even touch before. He'd be continuing up the aisle and look back and see me holding a package of Twinkies (I put them back of course). I did give in and bought: Eggos, strawberry smoothy juice, ice cream sandwiches, granola bars, pancakes, frosted shredded wheat, and pudding cups. All of which are never in the cart on a normal shopping spree. Jayme was good, and on the other hand he put in chicken breasts, ground turkey, and things to make healthy dinners.
Speaking of...time for dinner!

[erika182]

Not a good day today. Today is all day morning sickness! I felt ill when I got up, and I still feel ill now. I keep swallowing to keep myself from throwing up.
I don't know how I'm supposed to still go to the gym and make love to my husband when I feel like this?
I feel guilty, and just pray that because I feel "yuck" that it means everything is doing what it is supposed to be doing in there.

Well, I'm going to go eat some toast!

[Shannyjean]

7w4d today, i feel like I'm already showing! I was good and went to the gym, it actually felt really good. I feel like everyone at work is looking at me and knows (but I don't want anyone to know yet.) This is really hard not telling my mom. My husband want to wait until the end of March and have some big surprise birthday party for our moms and spring it on them then. It is a fun great idea, but I'll be 15w by then and it will be very hard to hide it. Well, i guess i better figure out what i'm going to wear to work tomorrow. I'm so glad that my sickness has stopped. Now if I wasn't so constipated it would be great![/b]

I am 8 weeks along, I feel like I am showing already....or really bloated. My boobs are so big people at work have asked if I had them done. It's all so strange, but I love it!!
Is there anything you can do for the constipation?

[erika182]

Well, just came home from Valentine's dinner with my mom. Husband has class until 10 tonight. I ate so much at dinner feel like I could burst! That hasn't happened in awhile. Lately no matter how much I eat I'm still hungry. Well, when you eat a full rack of ribs and share a huge ice cream cookie sundae yur bond to be full!
I had such a nice day today. We had said no gifts, but when I got up this morning I founda Tiffany's Co. box on thebathroom counter. I was so surprised! He got me a beautiful necklace with a lock that has my first initial, I love it!
My studnts were great today. We did fun Valentine activities and passed out Valentines.

I figured out though today, I'm trying to pay attention to my body more, tha I'm still having morning sickness, but the extreme sort of pain I was having yesterday and today(I had trouble standing for lonf periods of time today) is probably my insides stretcing and growing. It feels a little like cramps, swirling an gas all rolled into one. But maybe it is just really bad gas and contipation. This is our first, so everything is new for me. And I never was one to experience constipation before this. O, and heartburn too, that is new.

My boobs still hurt sooooo very bad. But, it makes me feel very womanly. I'm still able to wear my bras, but I now don't wear them on the tightest clasp. I think I've gone from a small "D" to a very large "D." I definately need better bras for the gym, that is if I ever feel well enough to go again.

Oh, my mom asked tonight if I was going to get my period soon, because I look bloated. I just kind of rolled my eyes at her, like I didn't want to talk about it (and it is a sore subject.) She let it go. With us trying for so long she knows it is/was a bad subject, so she dropped it, thank goodness. So, I really didn't have to lie to her. I can't wait until I can tell her. But I promised the husband we would wait until the first trimester is done. By the party though I'll be 15 weeks along!

Well, the bathroom calls.....again!

[erika182]

[My Babies]

I am 8 weeks along, I feel like I am showing already....or really bloated. My boobs are so big people at work have asked if I had them done. It's all so strange, but I love it!!
Is there anything you can do for the constipation?
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I sweetie I am 10 weeks pregnant and I have really bad constipation too? I eat my vegies & stuff but I do eat the naughty stuff too. I have no idea what to do either. Oh yeah and my boobs are getting really big too!!

[erika182]

Well, it was a long week! I feel so bad, I usually play games with my students at PE, but I'm to afraid that I might hurt something. I did shoot some baskets with some of them, that was fun.

I haven't been sleeping well. I feel so tired and like I am going to fall asleep on the way home from work and on the couch, but then when we go to bed I just lay there. Or, spend half the night in the bathroom. I now keep a book in there. I have finished 2 books in the last 2 weeks!

Friday I had a complete emotional break down! I had the worst headache, still hadn't gotten enough sleep, and then my husband started asking me innocent questions about work, and I lost it. I started telling him to leave me alone. We were supposed to be going to Best Buy to get him his new ipod (a late Valentine's present from me), so I told him let's just go already. But in the car the conversation about work continued and I just started balling while I was driving. Ranting and raving about nobody liking or respecting me at work, my clothes don't fit, my head hurts and I'm soooo tired. We ended up having to switch places, turned around and he drove us home from the Best Buy parking lot (without the ipod). I came home and it felt like my face was broken! I didn't want to cry, but I kept crying, hysterically! I finally just gave in and went to the bedroom and cried until I passed out. Husband says I went to sleep around 7:30 and then I got up at about 11, because I was so hungry. Had a bowl of cereal and went back to bed. Slept until about 9 the next morning. I needed that! (But my husband thinks I am nuts and is scared of me now I think.)

Everything seems better now. I'm really not getting moring sickness. But, then it starts to worry me that I hope everything is alright with the baby. I know they say that moring sickness ends towards the end of the first trimester, and I'm about 10 weeks, so maybe this is normal. But, I am starting to think too that there really is no true normal, everyone has different pregnancies, just some of the symptoms are the same. Time, duration, and all those other factors I guess just depend on the person. Still, I'll feel better after my next dr. visit on Feb. 26th. I want another picture : )

Cleaned the whole house today and did 3 loads of laundry, and now I'm going to iron. I know it is best if I pick out my clothes for the whole week now, it will just make the mornings less stressful.

Well, back to work. No more three day weekends and holidays. March is going to be a long month!

[erika182]

Well, those tickers are a little off, I believe today makes 10 weeks.
My question for today is:
I wish I knew how much or how many calories I should be eatting in a day?!
I have always struggled with my weight. If I don't watch what I eat I get huge really easy. And I always need to go to the gym 3 to 4 times a week just to have a splurge here and there for my sweet tooth. And I usually tried to eat 1300 to 1500 calories a day. But now.....................................

I don't know how much I should be eatting!? I said at first I would just eat when I was hungry, and not eat for two. Well, I'm not eatting for two, but I feel like I'm hungry all the time! I think I'm eatting close to, or over some days 2,000 calories!!! Plus, it is very hard to get motivated to go to the gym. I'm only going about once a week.

And it doesn't help that I think my belly is swelling a little fast for someone who is pregnant for the first time. I just want to be healthy about this pregnancy and not gain too much weight, or too fast. I wish there was a little draw string window that I could look inside and make sure that the baby is growing and doing well in there. I'll just cross my fingers for now.

Sometimes I think that my uterus is expanding more than a normal first time pregnancy because of the fibroid masses I have (4). The doctor did say when he told me that I had them (along with the fact that it could hinder me getting pregnant) that my uterus is enlarged. So if it was already enlarged, and getting bigger now to accommodate the baby, maybe that is why I feel bigger than I should be?

I know, I'm just trying to rationalize to myself now and jabbering on.

Well, husband has class until 10 tonight. I should take advantage and go to the gym, but I'm going to grade papers and watch American Idol instead!

[erika182]

Okay, second entry in one day! I haven't left the computer since my last posting. I have just been sitting her reading and goofing around. But I think I found more of those ticker/blinkie things. Let's see if this works!










Okay, not I MUST leave the computer and go grade those papers!!!

[erika182]

I am so excited!!! I just had my second doctors appointment today. We heard the heart beat, it was strong. I teared up a little bit. The doctor had trouble getting a good picture though. When she finally had one that looked really cute, the baby was at a side view and you could see head to toe....she didn't have the machine loaded to take a picture. When she finally did she couldn't get a good shot. But, I didn't really care that much, because she said everything is going great and we heard the heart beat.

She logged me in at 11 weeks. A couple more days than we had thought. And gave us the official due date of September18th. That is my husband's niece's birthday.

I don't know what I'm going to do about work yet, but I just don't care right now.

The doctor said that, yes, I really shouldn't be showing, but everyone is different, and she isn't to worried bacause the baby looks good in size and I only have gained two pounds. Which is not bad for someone who got/gets nausea, but doesn't usuallt throw up.

I'm floated on a cloud right now, I am so happy!!!!

[erika182]

Well, because I want to be accurate, and look back at this and all that we went through during the pregnancy, I guess I should back track a little and talk about what happened this weekend......and late last night.

This weekend I went to get dressed to go out with the husband, but when I put on my jeans I couldn't move and I was in severe pain! In just the span of a week, I can't wear the three pairs of jeans that I had left to wear. I began to cry. It is just so difficult, because I really shouldn't be showing this early, but if you know me, and you saw me now, you can totally tell the difference. And to add to it.....we still aren't telling anyone yet! So the husband said we should go out and get me some new jeans, but I really didn't want to spend money on clothes I will just wear for a month or so. He told me that I can't go naked and spend the whole weekend in Pjs (sounds good though), and that I will probably still be quite big after the baby is born so I should get some bigger clothes. My heart sank, and I began to cry more.
(Side note) As a girl who is 5'2" and has a small waste, but big hips and booty, I already had trouble finding pants that fit, and had to always get them hemmed. So, looking for more pants, and ones to fit over my new pooch in the front, I knew this was not going to be a fun adventure.

When I finally stopped crying I just had to suck it up, put on my husband's jeans (yes you heard me right) because none of mine fit, and we drove to Old Navy. So, now just my student in North Carloina and the girl at Old Navy know that I'm pregnant. It was too hard to hid it when I'm trying on clothes that are too big and she is telling me to go down a size and my husband says we want them to last because she is going to get bigger.. You pretty much have to explain that your pregnant, or your husband looks like some crazy guy that thinks his wife is destine to gain weight. In the end I got three pairs of jeans, and a really good laugh. They actually have a maternity section there, and I tried on some stuff, it was quite funny.

Unfortunately, I thought that my work clothes were still good, because I just wore some of the pants last week, and the material is different from jeans they stretch more, but last night I tried them on and.......water works again! I couldn't believe it, in the fraction of a week my body changed that much. The husband looked at me all helpless, like not again with the tears. And told me to go to the mall tomorrow. I also found these things on the computer called Bella Bands and I ordered one. They supposedly help you wear your clothes longer because you can unbutton your pants and they cover that area. I'll have to see if it works when it arrives.

I think the men should get to be pregnant too so they can experience all that we do!

[erika182]

Had a great day at work today!!! My class won the Read Across America donation challenge so I won $25 in free books!

The kids were all well behaved and my body was feeling good. No accidents like yesterday. (I sneezed yesterday and wet myself a little, and then later in the day I coughed and had the same thing happen.)

Went to the mall after work and got three pairs of work pants, even though they are petite I still will have to get them hemmed, but there is a lot of stretch room so they should last awhile. I got a pair of sweat pants and a couple shirts that are long and cover my tummy for work. One is sort of fancy that I'm hoping I can wear it with slacks to my mom's 60th b-day party on the 24th and people won't be able to tell. Even though that would be a great time to announce it because my whole family will be there, but husband's family won't. So we'll wait until the 30th, if we can. The husband has given me the green light that I can say uncle whenever I want, if I can't keep it hidden any longer.

I'm glad the weather is cold and rainy here, because it is easy to hide and cover up.

Next doctors appointment is March 26th.

My birthday is this Monday, March 5th. I will be turning 33, wow I feel old!

[erika182]

Yeah, it's Friday!!!!
I am sooo very tired. We are supposed to go out tomorrow with the realtor to look at houses. I'm not really looking forward to it for some reason.

Funny story, the two other fifth grade teachers were out today, and today was the boys and girls health films (remember those?). So, I had to be in the room with the boys! I felt so weird, I just kept doodling on a piece of paper during the video, because I felt like I shouldn't be looking at the cartoon penis on the screen. Like they would look at me watching the video like, she shouldn't be looking at that.

The best was when it was over and the nurse came back and they asked her questions. Here are some of them:

1. What color is spem?
2. Does it hurt when it comes out?
3. How do you know you had a wet dream and not you just peed the bed?
4. If I don't want the sperm can I get rid of them?
5. What was that string hanging off the sperm "tablet" in the video? (tail)
6. Do girls have sperm?
7. How do I make it get bigger faster?
8. How do I have the sex, but not the baby? (mind you, only 5th grade)
9. If I get kicked in the nuts can I still have a baby? Will my sperm be bruised?
10. How do you know if you have sperm?
And here is a 5th grader's definition of "Puberty"
~ When your little stuff gets bigger! (hand gestures included)

I had my laugh for the day! Make that the weekend!

Anyway, baby news:
I'm doing well. I went to the gym last night for a lttle bit. Then I went to visit my mom. She asked if I was pregnant and not telling her. That was hard, I just kind of changed the subject. I feel sort of bad, but I promised the husband we'd wait. But, if she knows, or thinks it and the 31st isn't much of a surprise I can't do anything about it.

I was looking at some of the belly pictures today that people have posted though....I see that everyone really seems to be popping big time at 13 weeks. I think everyone is going to know I'm pregnant whether I tell them or not. (I'll be 15 weeks by the announcement date.)

I wore my new size bigger jeans today at work, with a belt. It was soooo much more comfortable! I'm going to have to make a box or section in my closet of the few clothes that I can wear right now. That way in the morning I won't waste time looking through clothes that are a size of the past.

[erika182]

I'm soooo excited!!! After looking at your belly pictures too, I got my husband to agree that we won't be able to make it to the March 31st date. I told him that I love his idea for announcing it to our parents, but by then I think people will know anyway, that we won't really be announcing it, and it will be taken away from us by default. I just know I wouldn't make it through my mom's 60th party, with tons of family members, lying to all of them (and I'd look so big by then they wouldn't believe me anyway.)

So, we are going over to his family's house tomorrow for my birthday and we'll tell them then. And then my mom is taking us out to dinner for my birthday on Monday and we'll tell her then. We're still trying to think of some cute and creative way to tell them, but husband doesn't like any of my ideas.

Like:
Opening a gift from him and them wanting to see what he got me for my birthday, and it being a framed picture of our ultra sound. Or, the same premise, but what I open is a baby blanket or something. (People reading this feel free to tell me what you think, or if you have any other ideas. You've got to act fast though, I need to have it planned by late Sunday afternoon.)

Anyway, looked at places today. None of them really wowed us. There was one we sort of liked, I mean more than sort of, but we had some concerns. The main thing we noticed is that the floor slopped down in the master bedroom. We wanted to know what was up with that, what was under the carpet (because some rooms had wood floors.) But, they called us back and said that the owners never noticed anything wrong with their floors. We were baffled? I want to see more places, but the agent makes it sound like that's it. I don't want to settle though.

Well, I think we are going to head out to walk to Carter's and buy some baby stuff, we have a coupon for 15% off our purchase. Then, I'm going to talk the husband into walking a little farther to get ice cream! Yum!

[mom2maddie]

I'm soooo excited!!! After looking at your belly pictures too, I got my husband to agree that we won't be able to make it to the March 31st date. I told him that I love his idea for announcing it to our parents, but by then I think people will know anyway, that we won't really be announcing it, and it will be taken away from us by default. I just know I wouldn't make it through my mom's 60th party, with tons of family members, lying to all of them (and I'd look so big by then they wouldn't believe me anyway.)

So, we are going over to his family's house tomorrow for my birthday and we'll tell them then. And then my mom is taking us out to dinner for my birthday on Monday and we'll tell her then. We're still trying to think of some cute and creative way to tell them, but husband doesn't like any of my ideas.

Like:
Opening a gift from him and them wanting to see what he got me for my birthday, and it being a framed picture of our ultra sound. Or, the same premise, but what I open is a baby blanket or something. (People reading this feel free to tell me what you think, or if you have any other ideas. You've got to act fast though, I need to have it planned by late Sunday afternoon.)

Anyway, looked at places today. None of them really wowed us. There was one we sort of liked, I mean more than sort of, but we had some concerns. The main thing we noticed is that the floor slopped down in the master bedroom. We wanted to know what was up with that, what was under the carpet (because some rooms had wood floors.) But, they called us back and said that the owners never noticed anything wrong with their floors. We were baffled? I want to see more places, but the agent makes it sound like that's it. I don't want to settle though.

Well, I think we are going to head out to walk to Carter's and buy some baby stuff, we have a coupon for 15% off our purchase. Then, I'm going to talk the husband into walking a little farther to get ice cream! Yum! [/b]

What was the reaction from your families?

[erika182]

We told our parents!!! It was wonderful! We wrapped up the baby blanket and the picture frame with the ultra sound picture in it and I opened it in front of them as my birthday gift from my husband.
Both moms cried. It was so exciting. I feel a weight has been lifted. No more hiding. The next day I told my principal and the other teachers at work. My best friend said he knew. He said that my breasts looked huge and he could tell I didn't look as thin as before, and I was always eatting breakfast and snacks, when I normally really watch what I eat. I had a great birthday!

Sad news though, we heard on my birthday that a relative passed away the night before. The funeral was today. He is in a better place now. My mom said she had trouble not telling people that she is going to be a grandma. (Because she is going to wait until March 24th and tell everyone at her 60th party). I told her, now you know how I felt. It is such a wonderful thing, and your sooo very excited, but your cautious too.

I heard my students, who were so wonderful for me the last two day, threw erasers at the sub and were using bad language in the classroom. Tomorrow some heads are going to roll! Detentions will be given.

I told my students that I am pregnant. One who doesn't speak much English got a confussed look on his face and said, "There's a baby in your belly?" One asked if they could see my baby. So I smoothed my shirt along my stomach so they could see the little bump. She said, "no, I want to see it, take it out." I explained to her that the baby will not be here until September. Talk about a niave 5th grader. Most of them began to better understand why I wasn't actively doing PE with them as much. Maybe they will behave even better because I'm pregnant. One can hope!