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May 11th, 2009, 05:20 PM
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its over, no HB on the second scan, taken off progestrone, and I am sick from crying so hard. I dont want to walk out of a dark room. I feel like my body has betrayed me. I need help. I feel so sstupid being scared to M/C I never have, and i am terrified. I dont want to go through this, I want to skip this part, I hate this, I hate this day, I hate my body, I feel sick when I think about bleedig and whats going to come out, I dont care if it is not "noticable", I just want to thow up thinking about what is happening, throwing out my baby, I feel so awful, just want a dark box to crawl in. I dont want to think,move, eat, sleep,walk, I just hate this, i just keep thinking that over and over, I hate this ,I hate this.I feel like a failure, I am scared to ever get pregnant again, I dont know what to do,I have to tell the wic office, my caseworker becasue of insurance. Doc wants to see me two weeks after I quite "bleeding". I dont want to walk in his office with all those pregnant women, I dont want to smile I dont want to be happy,I hate this.what color hair would she had? eyes? would she look like me?? I dont care what others think, i know in my heart it was a girl, I just know it. I hate this all. I want this over!Isnt there a way to make it happen quicker??? I hate this!!!!!! I HATE THIS!!!!
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May 11th, 2009, 05:27 PM
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I was in the Dec. DDC too and I just lost ours at 11 weeks! I feel your pain! I am so sorry you are going through this. It will get better for us!
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May 11th, 2009, 06:57 PM
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I am so sorry for both of your losses. I am glad you found this board. No one ever want to join here and I hate welcoming people here but you are welcome. Feel free to scream, cry, vent, or ramble. We all understand and have been there.
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May 11th, 2009, 07:19 PM
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Your feelings and ramblings just took me back about two months. I am in tears because I don't want anyone to ever have to feel what you or I are feeling. It is a horrible group to have to welcome you to but you will never find a better group of women that can completely understand how you are feeling.
It may not feel like it right now but it does get better- there are good days and bad days. Most importantly remember that you are strong and that you will get through this. Take care of yourself. We are all here when you need us...


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May 11th, 2009, 09:12 PM
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I can relate to all of your emotions right now. We all can. The pain is so real, so devestating, so hard.. You will wake up tomorrow and the next day, and every day that go's by, you will come to grips with this pain. My heart breaks for you, I know how much you wanted this baby, how much you prayed and hoped. We are here for you, when you feel like no one else understands your silence, your tears and your grief, WE DO. I am so sorry for you, please just let it all out when you are ready. We will all heal with you and when your ready, you will help other women with their grieving. God bless you tonight and I pray you feel his presense around you.
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May 11th, 2009, 09:57 PM
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I am so, so sorry for your losses. We here have all been there. The emotional pain is almost physical it hurts so much. It will get easier over time, I promise. But for right now... it's just aweful. *hugs*
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May 12th, 2009, 09:06 AM
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Oh Lacey. I was really hoping for a better outcome for you, ever since you jumped into chat a couple weeks back. What a rollercoaster.

Please feel free to add your info to the angel memorial list sticky and I'll get you on there.
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May 12th, 2009, 10:57 AM
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I felt the same way after I lost my baby...but the pain will ease eventually...big hugs to you and try to get some rest.
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May 12th, 2009, 12:10 PM
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I'm so sorry, hun! We are here for whatever you need
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May 12th, 2009, 01:44 PM
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I'm so sorry You and your DH are in my T&P. *HUGS*
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