[rmtd11]

Hello,

My name is Carolina. I am going through the miscarriage of our 3rd baby. This is my first miscarriage. I was 9 weeks along but on this past wednesday I noticed some brown tinged, mucus like discharge. Now that I look back on it, it was exactly like losing my mucus plug during my two other pregnancies.. (I have a beautiful 6 year old daughter and 4 year old son). The spotting continue on and off and on friday, I went to the bathroom and when I wiped the spotting had turned more into the beginning of a period. I hadn't had my first appt yet, so a friend of mine who is a ob advice me to go to the hospital to make sure that I wasn't bleeding because of an ecptopic pregnancy. At the hospital had an ultrasound and pelvic exam. The ultrasound confirmed my worst fear. The baby had no heartbeat. Now I find myself in this odd place, where I try to continue to be go on with the normal routine of the day, getting ready for the kid's school day tomorrow and everytime I feel a little bit of pain or I go to the bathroom, I'm reminded that this little baby who as it grew became even more part of our family, is now leaving me. We told the kiddos since they knew that we were pregnant. Our daughter cried but found some comfort in the fact that I told her we could do something nice, like plant some flowers in memory of the baby. Our son is still to little and knew that I said that the baby wasn't coming anymore but he hasn't mentioned it anymore but I think he can sense something is going on because he just pretty clingly. I find myself not wanting to put a bummer on my family, especially since my younger sister's wedding is on saturday and I just hate that this is happening. I actually missed her bachelorette get-together last night. I find myself in a very weird space, one is full of sadness, confusion and loneliness. The other is full of my children's laughter, the love of my friends, who by the way came over last night and made dinner and brought flowers and made us laugh tons. I don't know how much I should talk about it, make it present or how much I should keep it to myself. I'm sad but I find comfort in the fact that they told me that my body is healthy, that my body knew that this baby would be better off an angel.

Sorry so long but I seem to have lots of thoughts swimming in my head. I'm truly sorry for the loss that all of you in this forum are suffering or have suffered.

[Schofield06]

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I recently lost my first and only pregnancy. The baby measured about 9 weeks on the u/s that confirmed it's heart had stopped. I know it's hard to figure out how to tell people. I hope you can find someone you can talk to about it though. For me, when I can talk about my miscarriage it helps me to sort through what I'm feeling.
It's okay to feel sad and upset even if your sister's wedding is this weekend. I think everyone would understand.

[sweety_pie]

So sorry for your loss! I just had my first m/c over a month ago now, was our 3rd baby, I felt a lot of the same things your feeling.

[Brittanie]

It must be so hard to tell other children. My loss was my first pregnancy, so I didn't to explain it to anyone. I'm sorry that you have to go through this.

Please add your information to the Baby Memorial List and I'll add you on there.

[Banned-SerenitysMom]

I am sorry for your loss, and your fine with your post we don't mind reading it. That's what we are here for. It is hard telling other children. Though mine where really young and when we visited the grave we would say your sister is in heaven but this is her bed. Really didn't know what to tell her, but she just goes I want a bed with sissy!

Its been almost 4 years since I gave birth to my sleeping angel at 33 weeks. She was pronounced walking with the lord at 32 weeks.

[manda0710]

i understand completely with the wedding coming up i loss my lil one at 9w4d and im in my younger sisters wedding where everyone was expecting there to be a nice round bridesmaid(with the first grandbaby) but unfortunately its not going to be that way and ever since we told our family she hasn't even mentioned any condolences or a sign of sadness only about going dress shopping. makes you feel like if you say anything itll ruin the wedding

[Banned-evaclark51]

I am so sorry for all of you It is really hard to lose your baby when you are wanting for him to come on earth. Dreaming a lots of dreams for her and suddenly everything just changed and don't know what to do?