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  #1  
November 8th, 2012, 04:37 PM
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Hi ladies, I'm joining you today from the June ddc. I saw beans hb almost 4 weeks ago at 6 weeks and started spotting this morning. Went for us today and there was no heartbeat and no growth since last us. I am destroyed. A little history, lost two early, then had a successful pregnancy with my dd1 then lost another at 16 weeks for no obvious reason, them had dd2, now have lost this one in first tri. Still have been having all preg symptoms for last month and thought I was being silly that it would follow my pattern of losses. But no, that silly little intuition voice was right no matter how hard I told it to go away. I was to share my birthday with this baby and I am back in the world of disbelief, extreme anger and complete heartbreak. I truly want one more little baby but I don't know if my heart can handle this all again. I'm so lost. I know that there is a bigger plan and a bigger picture I just am devistated. I'm hanging onto my little girls as my lifeline right now but I just don't know how to deal with this again. I'm thankful to have somewhere to hurt where others are feeling the same and I am so sorry that there are any of us on this board. Sigh.....
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November 8th, 2012, 05:45 PM
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So sorry for you loss!! I'm also here from the June DDC (Just had my second loss in 3 months) HUGS!! Thinking of you!
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November 8th, 2012, 06:04 PM
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Sorry to see you hear. I'm from the June DDC as well. I'm here after a chemical pregnancy and then my 7.5 week loss. I saw the heartbeat with my last loss, too. It's been a little over two weeks and I'm feeling better, but it still hurts, especially with the holidays coming up and thinking I would be announcing it around then. Big hugs to you, I know how much it sucks.
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November 8th, 2012, 07:43 PM
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Thanks ladies. Our ddc was hit so hard. I've never seen so many losses in one club. I've been here in this emotional state before, but I just don't remember it hurting so bad. Amy your so right, with Christmas coming up it really stinks, we were going to take a cute expecting picture with our dd's and use that as our card but can't now and I am just feeling broken. Are you girls going to try again?? I truly don't know if my heart can take this again.
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November 8th, 2012, 08:15 PM
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It was always our plan to have more than one child so we will be trying again. I'm probably going to be a bundle of nerves the whole time. Not to mention it took almost 9 months to conceive my last pregnancy, so I REALLY hope it doesn't take that long again, or I probably will lose my mind.
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November 9th, 2012, 12:03 PM
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I would try again in a year I think, But DH says no more. I'm finding that is making me feel worse, even if he said we would talk about it again in a year I'd be happy. I've always pictured us having 3 kids, and my heart still aches for another baby. So at this point I'm going to try and not talk about it and hope that we can try again in a year or so fingers crossed!
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November 9th, 2012, 11:18 PM
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I am here from the june ddc as well....i am fairly certain i am losing this baby. I lost what looked like my mucus plug earlier this evening and then heavy bleeding and severe cramping followed....its 2a. Right now and i feel lost and devastated. I have low back pain, abdominal cramping and i am so so scared. :-(
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November 10th, 2012, 03:52 AM
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So so sorry!! Hope you go to get checked out! HUGS!
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November 11th, 2012, 10:25 AM
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Another here from the June DDC My heart is breaking for all the women who lost babies in that DDC. I'm so sorry you're going through this again. I can't imagine how devastated you must be

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November 11th, 2012, 10:21 PM
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overlinmommy I am so so sorry hun. I was praying for you after reading your posts in the ddc, and I am so sorry to see you joing us in here. It has been devestating to hear so many from our ddc go through this one by one. I hope that you recover soon. When can you get in to see your dr to see what is happening??
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November 12th, 2012, 02:31 PM
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Can't believe how many of us are here from the June ddc!
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November 14th, 2012, 01:21 AM
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I am here from the May DDC... I lost my babies at 9w3. One was measuring 8 weeks (and I got to see the heartbeat at 7w3!) and the other we didn't know about until the m/c was in full swing. Based on size and the look, baby was about 5 weeks along. I am so sorry that so many June mamas are here, I was June 11, so you guys hold a special place with me immediately.

While I am so sorry and HATE that any of you are here, I find a little glimmer of light in that we get to go through this together instead of alone... This board was basically dead when I lost my babies and I felt weird posting in here. Thank you for stepping up.
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November 15th, 2012, 08:47 PM
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There are lots of us here, maybe just not too many posting but here. I am so sorry for your loss too. I find lots of comfort in knowing there are others who are hurting the same that I can come here and lean on and help support too..this stinks
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November 15th, 2012, 10:42 PM
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Quite a lot of losses happened in the June DDC. Almost felt like more than average. It's awful.
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