[ShannonMVT]

I feel like I am walking around with a huge hole in my stomach not knowing if my baby is going to make it. I'm just so nervous and sad and I can't stop thinking about it. My appetite is not here anymore and I have to force myself to eat.

I found out my progesterone is low and so I convinced my dr to give me progesterone supplements even though she thinks it is too late.

I should find out my 2nd set of hcg numbers tomorrow and I'm praying that they doubled this time. (Last numbers that I ran myself at the lab I work in only went up 33% over 48 hours.)

I'm afraid to go get an ultrasound again next week because if I don't see the baby or a heartbeat I know that is pretty much it and I will miscarry. I feel like putting it off as long as possible hoping that if I give the baby more time, then maybe we will see something. But on the other hand I want to go right now because I can't stand not knowing.

I thought some of you here might understand...and I hate to keep posting about it on my DDC. Even though all the girls there are wonderful and keep telling me to think positive. I am, but I am also afraid of getting my hopes up, KWIM?

I want this baby so much and I wish I could know if I am going to have to say goodbye or not.

[dee68]

Shannon,

I am so sorry you are going through this. I had a similar experience last year. I too kept hoping that each passing day & week something would change on the next u/s. I started having u/s @ 5 weeks. ( which is sometimes to early to see anything ) we saw some development at 7.5, but I m/c'd @ 11.5. I truly hope this is not the case for you.

how far along are you if I may ask??
I know it is difficult when there is so much uncertainty,but try to stay positive & know that we are here for you , no matter what. I truly hope the best for you. if you need to talk more, please feel free to pm me.



Dee

[ShannonMVT]

Well last Thursday when we did the ultrasound I was about 7 weeks from LMP. But going by ovulation, I was actually only 6 weeks and 1 day or 6 weeks and 4 days. And all they saw the was the gestational sac and yolk sac. I asked the dr how far along I looked and she said 5-6 wekes. So that give me some hope because I might have only been a little past 6 weeks, so maybe it was just too early.

But I think that combined with the slow rising HCG is what really made the dr think I would miscarry.

[Astrid]

I wish there was a way I could comfort you & tell you everything is going to be ok but I can't. Only time will tell. I had a similar situation as you. My HCG didn't quite double in the amount of time that it should have. I was so frustrated & on top of that, I was just barely spotting. We thought everything was going to be ok b/c we saw our baby the same day we lost him. I know there isn't anything I can tell you that will help w/ the worry BUT I have to tell you that positivity plays a big part in these situations. You have to think + in order to get + results. Please know you are in my prayers!

[SheilaRN]

You can post here as much as you want. I know it's hard to express your fears and anxieties to your DDC b/c at times it seems like they might not fully understand.
I hope and pray that you have a better outcome than the ladies here. That being said you are always welcome on our board. Many ladies have made there first visits here not knowing if they are or aren't really m/c. Unfortunately, it's just a matter of waiting.

Much love,
Shiela

[..Jessica..]

I hope your levels double!!! Sending you beta doubling vibes!!! Good luck hun!!!!

[Poncho06]

I jus twanted to say I know how hard the wait can be to find out what is going on...... you will be in my t&p..... please keep us updated on how you are doing

[ShannonMVT]

They did a second set of HCG levels.

First one was 7485. 48 hours later it was 9500. So still going up slightly but nowhere close to doubling.
I have to call and get an appointment next week (probably Thurs if I can) and if they do not see a heartbeat on the u/s she will consider it a miscarriage. And then I have to figure out natural vs. D&C which I don't even want to think about now.

I was hoping and praying that my levels would either increase by a lot or else go down, so at least I would know what was going on. But now I still don't know. The dr was not very hopeful but I guess it is still possible I could be the 15% of normal pregnancies that don't have the HCG double the way it is supposed to.

[tabitwhe]

I am so sorry that you are going through this. I wish there was something I could do to make you feel better. I will be thinking about you and hoping you are in that 15% you where talking about.

[VegasMom]

So sorry you are going through this. Please remember we are here for you.

[..Jessica..]

We are definitely here for you Shannon! I'm praying that you are that 15% that you talked about!!!!

[ShannonMVT]

Just thought I would update to say that we saw the heartbeat today!

The dr is keeping a close watch on me because she said she is still a little concerned because of the HCG and progesterone levels, plus my gestational sac was a little small today in relation to the yolk sac and baby. I go back again in 2 weeks.

Oh and I will keep taking the progesterone.

But we did see the little flicker of the heartbeat and that is great news!

[MrsPoe]

Congrats on seeing the hb, that is the greatest thing to see on every u/s. Just wanted to let you know that when your numbers get up that high, they don't double every 2 days, but every 3 days, so you are not that far off! I hope you are one of the 15%. Will be thinking of you and your little one.

[dee68]

Shannon,

that is wonderful news !!!
and yes, what Rhonda said about the numbers is true !

keeping you & your bean in my thoughts !!

Dee

[Astrid]

I'm so happy that you got a h/b sweetie! Hopefully all will go well. I'm sending you my prayers!

[Brittanie]

Oh lots of sticky dust! Heartbeats are good news!!!