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November 2nd, 2009, 07:30 PM
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Please tell me I am not the only one who looks at their baby and cries every single day out of love for this child.

I don't know if it's because of the fact that we lost another baby after Matthew was born but I just can't help but thank God for my gift I was given. I have been having a really hard time lately. I just look at him and can't believe he is mine. I hope these feelings are normal and I am not the only one? I want another baby soooo bad but can't help but feel totally blessed to have this one in my arms. How could I ask for more.

It is going to be so hard over the years to let go of him so he can grow and become independent. I just want to put him in a bubble
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November 2nd, 2009, 08:09 PM
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I don't cry, really, but I do squeeze them every day and just stare at them in awe. I can't believe either of them are mine. Maybe it's because I'm so active on the PL and stillbirth boards but I am so acutely aware of how much a miracle it is to get a baby here and healthy.

I am hoping and praying for you honey! Lots of to you!
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November 2nd, 2009, 09:40 PM
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I still cry on occasion....like when she looks at me and says "hugs"..."mommy"...love you... I melt!
sometimes I watch her sleep and thank God for my precious miracle, and yes I cry more!

I am too afraid to ttc...so she is all I have, and ever will have...she is growing so fast...

Bobbie, I send you hugs and some good ol ttc sticky dust.....
and IF by chance it doesn't work out, remember your life is filled with beautiful blessings, Beautiful, happy healthy children that are so very lucky to have you for their mom, to show them all of the love and understanding that is humanly possible...
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November 3rd, 2009, 08:11 AM
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I don't cry either but I do stare at him and wonder how I became this blessed. I can not believe half of the time that he is here, that I have a baby, it's still all so new and amazing. Sometimes like Dee I watch him sleep, I'll just seat there and watch how peaceful he is and how innocent he looks (while I keep in mind that he is planning his next move ) and every time it amazes me that I have him here in my arms and that he is healthy. You are not alone Bobbie.
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November 3rd, 2009, 11:40 AM
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I'm weepy on some days, but definitely in awe EVERY day. Last night we took our chances and took her to a nice restaurant with us. She is smiles most of the time, but sometimes (even when she is happy) she shreiks (with delight). Of course, last night, she was either shreiking or wimpering from teething pain. I spent a lot of the evening outside with her. Even so, I just talked with her outside and told her how much joy she brings to me and how much I was enjoying the opportunity to just hang out with her. (I had offers for baby-sitters so we could enjoy the evening out together, but I decided I'd rather not go than leave her with a sitter).

I am so BLESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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November 4th, 2009, 08:00 PM
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There are certainly days that I cry because I feel so blessed and like I don't deserve this miracle. And also because he is growing up so fast and I just want it to slow down. I am grateful for him every day. (Though I still want to bang my head against the wall when he wakes for the 5th time in one night. )
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November 5th, 2009, 02:56 AM
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yep i do too!
i just want to squeeze them all so tight but kara is too small for that lol
i swear i fall in love with them all more each day
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November 5th, 2009, 10:03 AM
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I cry sometimes. I look at each one of my children and think how lucky I am to have each of them.I made a promise to GOD when I had Nick that my children would not only be told "I love you" everyday but I would show them everyday and I have not broke that promise no matter how much the boys get on my last nerve.
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November 8th, 2009, 07:41 AM
Sabina's Avatar Mega Super Mommy
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OMG I was a mess for about the first six months. I cried all the time, mostly when he fell asleep at night in my arms in the rocking chair and I would just stare at him and cry.
Being pg again and so very, very scared makes me greatful again that he made it and reminds me how lucky we are to have him.
I think it's totally normal how you are feeling, especially after all you have been through.
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