[Braysmomma03]

I hope you don't mind me posting this, but I need to get it out. After my miscarriage in January 2011, I came to the Lord. I always believed in God, but never tried to have that relationship with him. I felt so free, so light when I started that relationship with the Lord. Fast forward a few months and job loss, infertility, court battles over DSD, health problems, troubles with my sons school and the list goes on and on, I started slipping, i am not praying or reading the bible as much as I should. I started smoking again/more, my health is slipping from making horrible choices, foul language is back in my house, we are missing church more and more, not giving to the church like we should. The 700 club was on this morning and as I was working I was half listening, I got a HUGE pain my heart, I just know its the Lord talking to me, trying to draw me back...I am giving up smoking, I am going to have a heart to heart with DH tonight, and let him know we need to make serious changes, I feel completely empty right now, and I need the Lord to be the center of our family again...I need to walk the walk I try to say I do. sorry for the rambling....just had to get it out

[2Corinthians10:4]

The good thing is that you know your situation, and you want to go back to the Lord. You have taken that first step, and often times it is the hardest. I will be praying for you and your family!

[Countrymom4]

That is great that you stopped to hear the message for you. Praying for great changes for your family.

[Mattiez]

Thanks for stopping by and please feel free to post some more.

You have certainly made a step in the right direction. It is one thing to just decide you are going to do something, it takes it to a whole nother level you put it out there. There is a lot of power in the spoken ,and written, word.
I know what you are talking about the "pain in your heart" God often uses that to direct me and pull me back to him too.
I hope all goes well with you talk with DH

Keep us updated on how everything is going.
Mattiez

[mamma_anna]

It sounds like you've already taken the hardest step just admitting that you need to change things. Do you have Christian friends or mentors in your church that can help keep you accountable? Maybe a small bible study or prayer group?

I'll be praying for you and your family.

And of course we don't mind that you posted here! Post more. We'd like to get to know you.

[Mami]

Hi and please post here more often. We dont mind that post here at all. These ladies are sure a great support system. I know first hand the situation you are on and quite frankly passing through it right now. I am very glad you have admitted because that is the first step. God talks to us in mysterious ways and he wants you back in his side. I will praying for you!