Welcome here. Glad to see you stop by.
I am going through something similar. My FIL is the pastor at my church and I have been going since Daniel was a baby. I want to stay there because I love it but at the same time I want more for my children. See, our church is spanish and my kids do not understand much spanish so its hard to continue being in a church that cant teach my kids anything. I want so much more and I cant seem to find it. I have church hop but never found the right one. I always seem to go back to my FIL's. This time I am determined to give up because I need God right now. I have been slipping away and I need to find his prescense and worship him. Its also getting harder to do in my FIL's church because I have to care for Jocelyn and mostly to other girls in a room in the temple where they have audio and window to see the service. But to tell you the truth its hard because I dont pay attention and I cant worship anymore. This is week after week and I guess know I have no doubt why I am slipping. I am not getting enough from the service.
Ok I am so sorry, I start rambling this was supposed to be about you. lol But my biggest advice would be start finding church now before its getting harder.