Hello 3rd Trimester!!!!!!!

BabyBird · #1 May 25th, 2009, 09:07 AM

Sorry this is long...I copied from my blog.

I know I say this all the time but after all I have been through with losses I never thought I would actually ever be in the 3rd trimester!!!!! I am so amazed by my body right now. Before this pregnancy I really wondered if my body knew what to do or if it was even capable of carrying a baby to term. I wondered if I would ever be out of the first trimester let alone into the 3rd! When I made it to the second trimester I couldn't believe it and then we had the scare at 24 weeks with my cervix dilating and luckily that hasn't progressed but at the time I thought well at least I made it to viability and we will have to take care of her on the outside if my body can't do it anymore. BUT now that I am officially in the 3rd trimester I can't believe that my baby has a chance at making it to term!!! I am actually going to be delivering and bringing my baby home in 10-12 weeks!!!!!! It still doesn't feel real! Almost 3 years after beginning TTC I will finally have a healthy baby in my arms. I have to pinch myself sometimes to actually believe that it will happen. These last weeks are going to go so slowly because I just can't wait to see her. I can't wait to hear her first cry and I can't wait to hold her and tell her that I am her mommy. BUT I still want to enjoy the rest of this pregnancy because I know I will miss it when it is over but at the same time I just want it to be August already because I want proof that she will make it to term and through delivery with no complications. I hate the unknown. I hate not knowing the future and even though I have made it this far there is still so much that can go wrong. I can't shake that feeling because after being pregnant 4 times now I don't know what it is like to actually have a successful pregnancy. Yes, we made it past what caused me to miscarry the first three times but I guess I know too much and have seen too much to be naive about the rest of my pregnancy. I was talking to my sister the other day about my fears that something could still happen and she was surprised because both times she was pregnant those fears never entered her mind. She had no reason to believe that something could go wrong because it had never happened to her or anyone she knew at the time. I don't know if it is because I have seen too much or because I have never experienced a pregnancy without loss. Probably a combination of both. Some people have the luxury of going through their pregnancies with blissful ignorance and I wish I had that. I still freak out if I notice Haylea isn't as active one day and wonder if something is wrong in there. I wish I could just KNOW that she is resting and not worry about the what ifs.

But for the most part I really am enjoying this pregnancy. I do complain that I ache or that I am uncomfortable. I still get nauseous on occasion and I still have my fears but I really can't complain. I feel pretty good and I am happier than I have been in 2 years. I am tired and anxious but isn't that part of the excitement? If I felt totally normal then what would be the big deal about the pregnancy experience? I am loving all the changes going on in my body. I am loving seeing my belly grow and again, I am amazed that my body is actually doing what it is supposed to do! Who knew!?

bhonea · #2 May 25th, 2009, 09:26 AM

Congratulations April! You're on the home stretch now!

downunderchick · #3 May 25th, 2009, 09:28 AM

Yay April!!! Congrats on the third Tri. Isnt it just the most amazing and wierdest feeling. In some ways its taken so long...in some ways I think wow already.I totally hear you on worrying about something happening. We wont gt any more scans so when I feel her move I know shes OK. Its when i dont feel her move I worry. I said to DF yesterday the maximum amount of time I will be pregnant now is 12 weeks

I still study my belly every day in the mirror thinking is this really what I look like pregnant. LOL i dont look that different, then I look at a pre preg shot and woah!! Im sure it will def go quick when they arrive. So many who have had theirs already, i cant believe how big their little ones are.

BabyBird · #4 May 25th, 2009, 09:36 AM

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Originally Posted by emcooper

Yay April!!! Congrats on the third Tri. Isnt it just the most amazing and wierdest feeling. In some ways its taken so long...in some ways I think wow already.I totally hear you on worrying about something happening. We wont gt any more scans so when I feel her move I know shes OK. Its when i dont feel her move I worry. I said to DF yesterday the maximum amount of time I will be pregnant now is 12 weeks

I still study my belly every day in the mirror thinking is this really what I look like pregnant. LOL i dont look that different, then I look at a pre preg shot and woah!! Im sure it will def go quick when they arrive. So many who have had theirs already, i cant believe how big their little ones are.

I know...I totally stare at my belly in the mirror and think the same thing! It is weird because I want time to go fast now but once she comes I want time to sloooow down so I can have her as a baby forever!

Micksbabe · #5 May 25th, 2009, 09:38 AM

Yah for the THIRD TRIMESTER!!!!! I am so happy for you April

I can`t believe you only have 12 weeks to go!!

#6 May 25th, 2009, 09:42 AM

YAY April

I am so happy for you

You have been through so much and I can't wait to see pics of your little girl and share in the excitement of her safe arrival! God bless you hun!!

polarbearmama · #7 May 25th, 2009, 10:41 AM

Congrats for entering the 3rd trimester April!!!!

Em2528 · #8 May 25th, 2009, 10:54 AM

Amazing. I am so beyond thrilled for you and cant wait to meet your little girl. HUGS!!

NortheastWifey · #9 May 25th, 2009, 11:12 AM

Yay, April!!!! I am so excited for you!!!

After having gone through so much you deserve this big time. I can't wait until the day we're seeing pics of your little one!

~April04~ · #10 May 25th, 2009, 11:15 AM

Congrats April!!

Celry · #11 May 25th, 2009, 11:19 AM

I love your posts like this since i'm only a few weeks behind. They are great reminders of the milestones I'll be reaching soon.

I'm like you in that I think about what could happen. I think I'd be much better if I wasn't having a few issues and was only pregnant with one. Just know that there is at least one other slightly neurotic person out here

Congrats to you on your third trimester milestone. I hope everything continues to go well and that you can enjoy your last 10-12 weeks of pregnancy.

Boo · #12 May 25th, 2009, 01:05 PM

Yay! Congrats April! You're almost there!!

LisaD · #13 May 25th, 2009, 02:54 PM

Congratulations April! I'm so excited for you. Enjoy your prengnat belly while you can, you will miss it! I miss being pregnant already and it's not even been 2 weeks

*Mommy2Camden* · #14 May 25th, 2009, 03:27 PM

What a HUGE milestone!!! I couldn't be happier for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

stlgirl · #15 May 25th, 2009, 04:04 PM

Congrats, April! I remember your BFP as if it was yesterday...we all were hoping so much for you, and it is soooooo great to see that you've gotten so far, healthy and safe! Enjoy these final months (if you can - the anxiety is understandable) and try to focus on the beautiful bond you already have with this tiny perfect angel inside you.

Lauren S · #16 May 25th, 2009, 05:00 PM

Yay for making it to the third trimester!

Isn't it an amazing feeling knowing that your little one is growing like she should be in there?

Christine-MA · #17 May 26th, 2009, 06:18 AM

I am sooooo excited for you

I know exactly what you mean about blissful ignorance. So many women get pregnant and don't have a single concern. I'm so jealous of that and know it will never be me. But for the time being, I'll just enjoy being pregnant!

I sooo can't wait to meet your daughter!