[Cheryl_W]

I've been putting off starting my grad journal... I don't know why, every time I see the grad journal section I think I should start my journal but I never do. I don't even know what to say in it, IDK I can't seem to get up the "umph" to start it.

Same with my DDC - I feel like I don't know ANY of the girls in there, I've built up so many friendships on here I don't feel like I want to start a whole bunch of new ones.

Am I just being silly? I don't know... Its almost like, now that I'm a grad, I kind of feel lost. TTC was a battle for me - something to take on. This pregnancy... I'm out of control - I have absolutely no control over what happens and its scary and its making me procrastinate. I haven't done any of the normal early preggo things like planning the nursery or anything that everyone gets so excited about... The first day I went out and bought a couple of books, read them, and that was it.

Is this normal? Shouldn't I be all excited and want to start my journal and get involved in my DDC and start planning the nursery? I feel like some sort of freak for feeling this way

[Sam914]

I felt the same way - i dont think i started my grad journal until i was over 6 weeks and i didnt introduce myself in my ddc until about then also. I dont post a ton in my ddc, i prefer to just ask my questions here instead But i think it will be fun to be part of my ddc when the babies start popping out.

[I<3HelloKitty]

I don't think its silly. You should post wherever you are comfortable. I've been finding myself posting in my ddc more than here, I admit, but that's because I'm so new here, I find myself a little shy with this group of people that have known each other longer. It's been easier for me to kind of just jump in with a group of people that are all mostly new to each other there.

[Oreobaby]

I don't think you are being silly at all...I waited a bit before I started my journal...and just as I got closer to the second trimester did I start posting more in my DDC...I think you are normal...and just being cautious. But you should enjoy your pregnancy Cheryl...I think you are going to be a.o.k. and SSSSSSSSOOOOOOO excited you are here!!!

[snsgirl336]

I can understand where you're coming from Cheryl. I'm really only jumping into things one at a time. I'm nervous and all like you, but DH and I decided that we're going to try to enjoy every minute of this pregnancy since we worked so long and hard to get here.

I'm sure you'll feel more comfortable as time passes. You should stop by our DDC a bit. The girls there are very reassuring!!! When you're ready, come on over... I need my DD buddy!

[Tammyms]

Stalking you over here buddy! I don't think it's silly at all, ttc is all you've known for months! Once it sinks in, I mean really sinks in you can start your journal. Think of when you started ttc, you and dh probably weren't so open about talking about, sharing your OPK's with him, having him look at your spitscope talking about everything else, and same with what you shared on the ttc boards... and after you got used to everything, look out! You shared all, with him and with us. There was never a use for saying "sorry TMI" because it was just normal for us to share! Give it a bit of time and you'll start your journal and be active in your DDC and you'll find a home there just like you did in ttc#1

[pthree]

I am relatively new, but I still haven't started my grads journal either because I am so nervous that if I jump whole-heartedly into everything that I'm going to jinx myself!!

I've been posting a lot on our DDC and the ladies there are great! I am glad you finally checked in and hope you visit often. I find myself posting there more than here just because all of the ladies there are on the same timetable as me! It's comforting.

[MommaLee]

No, it is not silly at all. I often feel like an outsider on the boards and that is a big reason for my lack of posting. But the oddest thing is, that I feel like I don't need help with the pregnancy part....it was trying to get pregnant that was the real stressor. I find that I'm extremely content with everything in life right now.....

the main reason I really still come onto the boards is that I've developed a connection with many of you ladies and I don't just want to drop off the face of the earth!

[CandaceDianne]

I definitly dont think its silly. Like you said, you battled to get pregnant, so now you are....its like, ok, now what!? Plus, I am sure you have the normal fears of the worst happening (which is normal!!). Just take a deep breath and take it at your own pace. You still have 9 months to enjoy the pregnancy!