Can't catch a break :0( - Long.

~April04~ · #1 December 29th, 2009, 03:57 PM

As some of you may know - I was diagnosed with GD and chronic high blood pressure about a month ago - I've been going to twice weekly NSTs since then and everything has been going pretty good.

Well.. last week my blood pressure was high - so they wanted me to do the 24 hour urine again.. I turned that in today and then had my regular OB appt.

Savannah is measuring perfectly - everything is going great with her - thank god. We talked about how I won't be allowed to go over my "due date" because of the GD and high BP - wasn't happy about that - but I already knew they were going to do that so I wasn't completely bummed.

At the end of my appt - the results from my 24 hour urine came back - yup - I'm spilling protein as well.

I went up for my regular NST - where my BP was once again high.. afterwards I went back down to the OB department to talk with my Doctor.

I've officially been diagnosed with "Chronic hypertension superimposed with Pre-Eclampsia" along with my Gestational Diabetes.

Apparently when Pre-E is combined with preexisting chronic hypertension it acts like severe pre-e . So now I'm extremely high risk. The only reason I wasn't induced today was because my BP went back to normal and I wasn't dilated at all (I am starting to efface though).

I now have to go to weekly OB appts -- my twice weekly NSTs and I have to get a complete blood panel done twice a week as well. I'm also on modified bed rest. I've been informed that Savannah will be here within the next 2 weeks. So basically, I have to pack my hospital bag and bring it with me to every appt because I could get induced that day

I'm so incredibly bummed - I had been planning on having a natural birth - I've been doing the hypnobabies courses and was just really excited about it all. I don't understand why everything was fine up until a month ago and now everything is just going wrong.

I was completely healthy pre pregnancy - I just feel like a complete failure right now.

Hoosier Kitty · #2 December 29th, 2009, 04:36 PM

Oh no! Im sorry to see that happening!
My sil just gave birth via csection on dec 28 and she had GD ..she had complication so cs was required. Her due date was Dec 30...her doc decided to induce on dec 28.

At least Savannah will be here soon! Are u gonna have cs or natural?

And u r NOT failure. Things happen and we cannot control our bodies. Hang in there.

~April04~ · #3 December 29th, 2009, 04:42 PM

Thanks Aaron.. I'm not sure what will happen.. I think they'll try to induce me and see if my body will cooperate - otherwise it'll be a c-section

It could be any day now.. I'm hoping to make it at least another week - I want to dilate some on my own so an induction will be easier.

KCMomma · #4 December 29th, 2009, 04:45 PM

OH NO! April, you are not a failure at all. Pregnancy is so hard on our bodies and you have zero control. I'm so sorry you have to go through this, but just think in 2 weeks you will be holding your precious little girl in your arms! Hang in there hun!

Celry · #5 December 29th, 2009, 05:07 PM

I felt like such a failure too when I got diagnosed with GD and was having so many contractions. It's so hard when our bodies do not cooperate how we think they should. I'm so sorry you're going through this. I hope you're able to wait the 2 weeks. Maybe you'll go into labor on your own. I don't know anything about pre-e, but walking is great for the GD and the weight on your cervix could help dilate you. If you can, you should try doing a little walking.

tiffanys · #6 December 29th, 2009, 05:08 PM

I'm sorry you are going thru this hun and that you are so upset! My thoughts and prayers are with you and Savannah and I pray that God will protect you and your little girl through this!

On the bright side, you will get to meet your little girl very soon!

SassyMama · #7 December 29th, 2009, 05:13 PM

Awww you are definitely NOT a failure! I'm sorry that your pregnancy isn't turning out to be the kind you wanted. Just remember that little Miss Savannah will be here soon!

courtneytcu98 · #8 December 29th, 2009, 05:33 PM

What a bummer, April. I kept thinking much the same things when I was diagnosed with pre-e. I agree that it is so frustrating that our bodies don't always cooperate. When I lamented this to my doctor, he kept telling me that he had only one goal: "healthy baby and healthy mom." I actually got tired of hearing it, but it is true.

On a completely different note, one of my friends is pg and is also planning on a natural birth with a mid-wife at a birthing center. The mid-wife told her that people "spill proteins" because often they aren't eating enough protein causing the protein to be pulled out of their muscles and 'spilled.' I had never heard this before, but it's an interesting thought.

~April04~ · #9 December 29th, 2009, 06:29 PM

Thanks everyone - I appreciate the support.. I'm sure I'll get over it eventually - I'm just depressed right now..

Courtney - hm.. I haven't ever heard that - very interesting... I'll have to look into it.. they diagnosed it so quick because I'm now spilling protein and the high bp.. *sigh*

fromustobaby · #10 December 29th, 2009, 07:27 PM

Sorry you got bad news April, but hooray for Savannah being perfectly healthy, and extra special big yea for getting to meet your little girl so soon

MommaLee · #11 December 29th, 2009, 08:01 PM

Sorry for the news

but I tend to see alot of women not experiencing the pregnancy they wanted...but you have a healthy baby girl and I think that is the best part of it all.

Lauren S · #12 December 30th, 2009, 06:30 AM

I'm so sorry, April! The good news is that Savannah is healthy and thriving right now. That's all that matters in the end.

lttle_one · #13 December 30th, 2009, 07:25 AM

I'm so sorry you're having such a tough time! You are not a failure! No matter what we do, we can't always control the way our body reacts to pregnancy.

I understand the feeling, but I hope you can come to terms with knowing you're not a failure.

Doesn't Hypnobabies have a track to try to get the baby to come? Can you start listening to that? I would keep doing the Hypnobabies. Even if you have to be induced, you may be able to start with something like Cervadil, you can always ask to have the Pitocin turned off after your body starts contracting regularly to see if it will take over and still use the Hypnobabies. Of course, you just want Savannah here and healthy, but maybe some of these things could help you have the least intervention filled birth possible. I can only imagine how hard it must be to hear all this.

Do you visit the Natural Childbirth Board? The girls there are great and I bet they would have some ideas on getting things going naturally to try and avoid induction.

ca_dawson · #14 December 30th, 2009, 07:48 AM

I'm sorry for the news.

You are definitely not a failure. You have no control over this. I hope your body cooperates and you can get the least amount of interventions as possible.

stlgirl · #15 December 30th, 2009, 08:40 AM

Oh April, I'm so so sorry to hear this. Since I also very much want a natural birth, I can understand how devastating it must be to see your hopes appear to slide away. But as a few other ladies have said, this is not the end! Induction does not necessarily mean you can't go without an epi or avoid a C-section. It will be harder, yes, but you have been doing your Hypnobabies and that is a huge step in the right direction. I hope hope hope that for your sake you go into labor on your own, but if not, don't just resign yourself to letting the whole process get taken over by doctors. Obviously, if they determine a C-section is necessary, then so be it, but if you can fight to at least try for a vaginal birth even with your medical issues, I hope you will and I will send you positive thoughts for success!!

LaLaRose3 · #16 December 30th, 2009, 08:41 AM

I am sorry you are having a hard time April.

I hope you go into labor naturally and on your own!

About NCB... I was induced because of PIH (pg-induced hypertension) and spilling protein, along with a handful of other things. And I still had a natural childbirth, even though I was induced with pit! It is totally possible, I promise! It is hard and painful, lol, but it is way possible! You can read my birth story if you want on the NCB board in the birth stories section! I know there are a few others that were induced and went natural too!

http://www.justmommies.com/forums/f9...ons-birth.html

GL!!!

amazing_love · #17 December 30th, 2009, 08:52 AM

I'm sorry April

It's definitely not your fault. At least your baby girl is healthy and will be here soon!

Jodi0804 · #18 December 30th, 2009, 08:53 AM

I'm sorry things aren't going the way you want, it has to be hard. Are you effaced at all? I know when I went into labor I was only 1cm but 100% so that helped. I think someone else mentioned walking. We were walking 2-3miles a day and I think that helped too. Hang in there.

~April04~ · #19 December 30th, 2009, 11:54 AM

Thank you everyone..

I've had time to process everything and I'm just going to hope for the best. It's nice to know that what I'm feeling is normal - I just feel like I have to grieve the fact that I'm not having the pregnancy/birth that I was hoping for.

Hopefully I go into labor on my own and don't have to be induced... I'm just nervous that at any appt they could send me up to L&D.. I kind of wish they would just tell me a date kwim? I definitely plan on still attempting to go w/o medication - I just know that they're really not going to let me move around a lot and are going to keep a very close eye on me - so it'll be harder but still possible.

I am starting to efface - no dilation at all.. unfortunately I can't walk around to get things moving.. I'm not really supposed to move very much from the couch/bed.