Are there any hanging out here???

Ever since I saw my baby's heartbeat, I seem to be MORE PARANOID about something happening... I wouldn't say that I'm "stressed" about it, I just keep thinking about it constantly....

I'm anxious for my next appt. on Tuesday, but then again, I know we still have such a long road ahead of us and ANYTHING can happen. It's a scary thought. I know that whatever's meant to be, will be---regardless of how much or how little I stress about it, but I just WISH there was a way to KNOW that everything was going to be OK.

I'm trying desperately to ENJOY this pregnancy, but I'm terrified of getting my heart broken (AGAIN!)

Tell me I'm not the only one.....

[Soape]

I'm not newly pregnant anymore and I still worry. I think once you've experienced losing a child or children that you never truly quit worrying. It does seem to get a little easier though. That first trimester is just brutal when it comes to worrying. I'm praying for your little one and hoping that this time you get to hold your healthy baby after a long healthy pregnancy

[fromustobaby]

I was completely paranoid during the first trimester, completely...mainly because there were so so many girls who were newly PG with me who were losing their babies - it was so heartbreaking and scary...and I havent been through anything like what you have been through...

Got better for me when I was able to hear baby on the doppler which I bought (at 12 weeks)...now, feeling him kick every day is even better, and I still listen to the doppler if he is having a lazy day...

[xanada101]

I'm not even pregnant anymore... but I remember having that same exact feeling. It was AGONY (sp?) when I had to go from 10 weeks and wait for the anatomy u/s

Thank you girls

I know there is absolutely no benefit to worrying, as it doesn't change what God already has planned for me....but I just love this little bean already and am already making plans for her arriving.....to lose her would mean losing yet another piece of my heart that can never be replaced

I just have to keep praying for the best.....less than a week until my next U/S

[Cheryl_W]

You're not alone hunnie... I know I've never gone through anything like what you have, but this first trimester has been just horrible for worry! I finally got to calm down when I saw baby at 11 weeks with a HB, and passed the 12 week mark... Heard the perfect HB again today, 150BPM.

It was hard because I was part of a "batch" of TTC#1 vets who got BFPs - and by 6 weeks, I was the only one left in the grads. It was heartbreaking. I kept asking, why am I so special? Why do all of these girls lose their little beans, and mine is still here? I was almost *waiting* for something to go wrong.

It might not get easier for you until baby is here - but just know that lots of other ladies out there have experienced "the fear", and many, many of us know that deep down - this will be your sticky bean!

Just try and relax as much as possible. They say nothing can affect the outcome, but positive thinking never hurt!

[amonstersmomma]

You're definitely not alone! Ever since I had some bleeding at 6wks I've been worried. We even had an ultrasound the same day as the bleeding and they said everything was fine. But we didn't get to actually see the ultrasound or a picture or anything. So I have this irrational fear that when we go to the appointment tomorrow we're going to get bad news =/ But I do force myself to think positive! And hopefully after tomorrow I'll stop worrying!

[::MummyToTwo::]

definately not alone!! and I hate to tell you but that paranoia never goes away!! I guess its part of being a mother

I know everything is going to be just fine! and I can't wait to meet "her"

[Celry]

I was paranoid the whole pregnancy and I was having an u/s almost every week from 20w on. At first I was paranoid about miscarrying, then I was paranoid about twin to twin sydrome, delivering early and even stillbirth since I barely ever felt E moving. I think it's totally normal, especially after a loss, to be a bit paranoid.

[MarinaAndCharlie'sMommy]

I was extremely worried the entire 1st tri because I had hardly any symptoms at all and I had a lot of bleeding. The fear and worry has never went completely away and I don't think it will until I have my LO safe in my arms. Since I've been diagnosed with GD I the worry has been a little stronger since I have read about things like preterm labor, and still birth (even though the doctor told me that is mainly for uncontrolled diabetes). I will continue to pray for your sticky bean Brandi. You deserve this so, so much. Hope you kind find some peace soon.

[BabyBird]

Welcome to pregnancy after loss! It is completely normal. I almost asked my OB for anti-anxiety meds because I was soooo freaked out at every little thing, especially the first tri. Take it one day at a time and try some relaxation exercises. That helped me to relax some. That fear doesn't go away but it does get easier as time goes on. Take one day at a time and also take it one Dr appt at a time. I found it easier when I stopped looking toward my due date that seemed soooo far away and focused on each dr appt or a certain weekly milestone.

[LuvMyToriBug]

I was going to say the same thing that Tam said. I suppose it comes with being a mommy!! Just the normal motherly/parental worries about your children added together with your losses and even those moms who have had huge troubles with getting pregnant. You have been through them all, so yeah, it is natural to worry!! I definitely worried throughout my entire pregnancy, I checked the toilet paper when I wiped until I was probably past 30 weeks, I was extremely nervous every time I went to the doctor thinking that maybe something was wrong. Anyway, needless to say, TRY hard not to worry even though I know that it is inevitable that you will!! Hugs Brandi, I just feel that this pregnancy is going to be great for you!!

[Jeb-O]

I agree with Tam too.

Try not to stress yourself out!!

[Lyz]

I worried my whole pregnancy, especially after the loss of one of my twins. I had monthly U/S and the night before each one, I would be so anxious until I was able to see her heartbeat, then I could breathe.

It's absolutely scary but you have the right attitude that what is meant to be will be. I am praying your little one is a sticky one and you can enjoy your pregnancy! Looking forward to your u/s update

[Oreobaby]

I am not newly prego...but honestly, I constantlly fretted and worried until about two weeks ago when I started to feel my june bug more consistantly. there are still time when I fret about one thing or another, but I honestly believe that once you have experienced a loss, that the worrying doesn't completely stop until that baby is in your arms...I know that doesn't help, but just know that worrying is normal...but it is good to try not to worry. Try to keep yourself occupied, and busy...easier said than done I know.

[ca_dawson]

I think its only natural to worry! I worried the entire first trimester, then now I still worry that something could go wrong. I'm pretty sure you'll worry about your children for the rest of your life and becoming a mother begins at conception! Whenever I start to worry I start to pray. Works amazingly every time! I hope you have a very healthy 9 months with as little worry as possible!

[lissy8]

I would say I was paranoid from start to finish. I had an ultra sound every week from 6 weeks till 10 weeks. Then I had one about every other week. And even still I was paranoid that there would be something wrong every time. I was even paranoid when the boys started to move and I didnt feel one or the other move for a few hours. Needless to say I did not enjoy my pregnancy as much as I would have lied to, but I did however get two beautiful little boys. So I guess what I am trying to say is that your feelings are completly normal. You may or may not make it to the point in this pregnancy when it gets to be enjoyable. Try and think of how beautiful it will be when you get to the finish line and you get to hold that beautiful baby for the first time.

[amazing_love]

I was the most worried in the first trimester because of my loss. After I heard my baby's heartbeat and was in the 2nd trimester i was definitely able to enjoy my pregnancy more. Now i still worry about something happening to him (mostly because i keep hearing stories about stillbirth ) but i try to not be too paranoid and to just keep an eye on his movements.

It's completely normal to worry though! And the worrying won't stop once they're born from what i hear. We're their mommies so that's our job

[KDD]

I agree. It's perfectly normal to worry - especially with your history. I'm already paranoid about my next pregnancy and I'm not pg yet! I know that I will be a wreck until I can see the HB.

Hang in there Brandi!

[lttle_one]

I was horribly worried the whole pregnancy. I would get myself so worried and convinced that something was wrong that by the end of the 4 week wait between appointments, I would be shaking and nauseous, terrified that something was wrong. It got a little better after I could feel her move, but then if I didn't feel her for 3o minutes, I would get scared all over again. It didn't help that 2 good friends of mine had later losses (17 & 35 wks) while I was pregnant.
I agree w/ Tam, though, it never ends. It's just a whole new worry once the baby gets here.