Update on me Back from doc - LONG update

bliss · #1 July 5th, 2010, 06:49 AM

Wanted to post a little update on me, ladies. Today, DH and I are going in for our 6w4d u/s to *hopefully* see a little heart beat flickering away. I've been waiting for this day forever, and now that it's here I feel so blessed that I made it this far and also scared of course

I'm hoping I'll be updating you with good news later today.

***UPDATE***
I'm going to try to keep this as coherent as I can, because I'm just overflowing with all kinds of emotions right now. And let me just say, you guys, I wasn't expecting this.

DH was by my side the entire time and was holding my hand. First, the doc moved the wand inside for a while and we couldn't see anything on the screen! I was starting to get nervous actually. He usually finds everything very quickly, but this time he couldn't find anything. He takes out the wand and says let's do the pelvic one instead, and something about the uterus is tilted too much back.. Needless to say, I'm pretty much freaking out that the baby is gone.

Well, he puts the probe on my stomach and first thing I see is two sacs. The thoughts are rushing through my head: no, I know it can't be twins, I must be misinterpreting this, I know nothing on how to read the ultrasound, etc. Meanwhile, the doc is quiet and is looking at the screen. I know that my betas were extremely high, and I spent a few days reading up all kinds of stuff on multiples forums and almost had myself convinced that I'm having twins, but then I had an u/s at about 5 weeks, and there was only one sac, so the idea of twins completely vanished from my mind. Like, I've never thought back on it once, I completely forgot everything about my high betas.

Anyway, the doc turns to us and says, well do you want the good news or the bad news? OMG. NO. I'm instantly a wreck, my insides just drop. I just say, just tell me what's happening, tell me everything! He says it's twins, however he can't see anything inside the second sac. In the first, there's a heartbeat, and I see it right as he's saying it. Everything looks so tiny, I think it's because he did it through pelvic, not vaginally? He said one bean measures 5w6d. But I know I'm 6w4d, I know the day I O'd and there can be no mistaking that. So the bean is very much behind, but the doc didn't seem too concerned... I am though. I'm freaking out. And the fact that there's nothing in the other sac, but the doc says it's still very early, next time you come there could be two heart beats. Or not.

Oh, the limbo!!!! How good did our mothers and grandmothers have it when there was no ultrasound, you just come to deliver your baby and find out everything then? LOL. I know, I'm sounding pathetic, but now I'm in complete shock and feel so... I don't know what to feel! I'm going back in 2.5 weeks to see what happens, but meanwhile, what do I do? I don't know what to do. I'm happy about the fact that there is a heart beat. But I'm overwhelmed about all these other not so good news. So I don't know what to to do. Oh dear.

Oh, speaking of dear. DH is brimming ear to ear. I never saw him this happy in my life.