[Servilia]

So to make a long story short I had my u/s.

My sac measured 7weeks 3 days and they saw no sign of an embryo or yolk sac so they diagnosed me with a blighted ovum.
On Saturday it measured 6.5 weeks so it's actually growing faster than it should

The actual u/s was pretty traumatic too - there was an experienced tech girl but she also called in a resident to participate. I guess he was learning. I asked him if he's ever done this before because he looked pretty nervous. Anyways, he started doing his thing and all was going fine but then I noticed he was asking the tech all kinds of questions like "would you measure that?" and "do I colour that?" and it was becoming obvious he was doing more than what was necessary for my diagnosis.
Then I heard the tech girl say "go back and forth again so that you're sure there's nothing in there" and more teaching stuff until I finally started bawling and told them, word for word, that I'm there to find out if I'm having a baby and not to be used as a teaching lesson. They were sorry and the girl took over and finished the scan. Afterwards I looked at the pics on the screen and sure enough it was empty.

Then I had to go and talk to the nurse about the results. She very nicely says "they found the same thing there that they found last time - nothing" Wow thanks for being sensitive!! ps this nurse works in a special early pregnancy clinic and basically talks to women who might m/c or are m/c... So after she so nicely told me that there is nothing there, told me my options: 1) wait it out until I m/c naturally, 2) take those pills that will expell everything, 3) book a DnC.
I also got a blood draw and a requisition for another u/s next week.

I've given up hope but I'm not ready to take any drastic steps. If the beta comes back lower today, then I'll know I'm getting ready to m/c naturally. If it goes up I'll go back for another u/s next week. If there is still nothing I will reweigh my options. I have the pills with me and also a prescription for tylenol 3.

An interesting tidbit is that apparently I have a mobile uterus - which means it likes to flop around. On Saturday it was retroverted and today it was anteverted. weird.

Oh and the nurse is making me and DH an appt with a specialist so they can do some testing and see what might be causing my miscarriages.

Thanks for all your support ladies. It was fun to be with you while it lasted and I wish you happy and healthy pregnancies!


EDITED: ooops I guess it wasn't that short, sorry!

[ndsai05]

Judy I am so so sorry. All I can do is offer you some hugs, I cannot imagine what you're going through right now and I wish you didn't have to.

[Tammyms]

Oh Judy, I'm so sorry for everything! I mean, I know they have to train people, I get that, but they need to be sensitive for what you're going through! I was really hoping for good news from you! I'm glad they're going to start testing with you about your m/c rather than waiting for another. I'm praying for you, and do what you need to do in your own time, don't listen to those nurses with their options! How can they work in a clinic like that and be so cold? The only thing I can think of is that in a way they have to be, I know I couldn't imagine having to give people bad news all day, if I was emotional about it I'd go home from work everyday crying. Ug, anyway, I'm rambling because I wish there was something I could say, but I know there isn't

[Hockey247]

Oh no I think you are doing the right thing in waiting it out. I am so freaking sorry you are going through this. I wish I can do or say something to make this better

[Servilia]

Thanks ladies.
Tammy yeah I know they need to train people.. only thing is the tech had already let it slip that there was nothing in there so I felt weird just lying there on the table with this guy taking his sweet time so I can be his guinea pig

[JessMitch]

Oh Judy i am so sorry!!!!! it just doesn't seem fair for this to happen again If its any help, i took the pills and the tylenol 3. If you choose to do that, wait until the weekend so you don't have to deal with anything and can just concentrate on making yourself feel better, both physically and emotionally.

[Pebblesbuddy]

OH no no no!! This is not fair I am so sorry. I hope they can give you some insight in the future of what is going on. I you Judy and sorry you have to go through this

[Banned-a brand new laura]

Judy, I'm very very sorry. Nothing I can say or anyone will make it better, and for that I'm even more sorry. We all love you, and we're all praying for your family.

But I do want to say something. I hate to give you hope or to cause more pain by saying this. A girl I went to school with was told there was no heartbeat and that she should schedule a D&C. When she didn't m/c for 4 weeks, they did another ultrasound and there was a heartbeat... I guess you need to do what is best for you and I completely respect your opinions... if for healing you want a D&C do what's best for you.

But maybe you should wait it out. Emotionally, it'll be tough. But you'd be giving the possibility of a baby a chance...

I'm praying for you, Judy.

[jensma]

oh honey i'm so sorry!! I can't believe they can't be more sensitive at a time like now...

[CandaceDianne]

Im so sorry the entire experience was just terrible on top of the already not good news!! {{{{HUGS}}}}

[mlyster]

Judy I am so sorry to hear this.

I would think they could have screened the appointments a little so they would know which are appropriate to use as teaching appointments. This one would definitley have been filed under "sensitive". I am sorry you had to go through this along with finding out such sad news.

[Servilia]

Thanks girls.

I got my beta back from today - 82,600. Monday it was 51,900.
If this is not viable I wish it would just go down.

Laura, I'm not going to get a DnC or take the pills yet. I have to make sure for my own sanity that it's really over first. I will assume it is over, just because it's easier mentally, rather than keep hope alive, but I will not do anything drastic to end it myself yet.

[LuvsPecanPie]

Oh Judy... I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could jump through the computer and give you a big old hug!

[Coley]

I'm so so sorry.

I'm sorry that everyone was so insensitive. I'm sure they deal with this sort of thing every day, but they really need to understand that it's a big deal for the patients.

Please know you're in my T&P's.

[~*Jackie*~]

Big big I am still praying for a miracle for you. You completely deserve a miracle!

[Sota]

Oh Judy, I'm so sorry. And to have them be so insensitive on top of it all.

[stephjp]

Oh Judy, I am so very, very sorry. I can't believe the way they acted towards you...even if they do "deal" with this everyday they should still have better etiquette... And I am sorry if our messages made this harder, I know you were really hoping. I totally agree with you for not taking any drastic steps...I think you have plenty of time to wait it out for your sanity...Take all the time you need and I hope if it is over you get some answers soon. You will be in my T&P's missy...

[*MJ*]

Wow that sounds awful. What a bunch of insensitive jerks. Sorry for your loss & that you had to go through that

[Dóchas]

Oh sweety I'm so so sorry. I wish there was something I could say or do I just wanted to give you You & DH are in my T&P.

[Hoosier Kitty]

Oh Judy.. I definitely would get 2nd opinion.