[JessMitch]

for the last week which is why i have been MIA around here. Last Tuesday (1/25) i had an OB appt to get my incision checked and get my boobs checked again because i was put on an antibiotic for mastitis the week before. Well as soon as i showed him my boobs he sent me downstairs for an ultrasound and then eventually to the ER where i was admitted. We tried some hardcore antibiotics, turns out I got MRSA (a staph of some sort) from Mackenzie, she had the bacteria in her eye. Anyway, it infected my breasts. So the antibiotics and every 2 hour pumping milk didn't work so i had two surgerys to have the infected tissue removed. I now have a wound-vac and was sent home finally after a week. I will be having a nurse come every monday wednesday friday to change the dressings, which is painful as hell!!! They put me under just to change the first dressing because its so painful! Anyway, now i have to carry this stupid thing around with me because its attached! And the worst part is, i have to dump all my milk while i'm on this new antibiotic so mackenzie has to have formula for like 3 weeks. I feel like i'm disappointing myself and her by having to do this. I know it's ridiculous because its nothing i can help but still I feel like i can't give her what she needs. I guess looking on the bright side at least i had enough frozen milk to cover the whole time i was in the hospital and still have enough for the next 2 days or so. I'll get over it, I have to!

Anyway, that's whats been going on with me for the last week. I'm hoping the month of February is a lot nicer to me than January was. The only positive of Jan was having Mackenzie! The rest stunk, i spent 24 out of 31 days in the hospital glad to be out!!!!!!

[jensma]

glad you're out!! i can't believe mack is almost 4 weeks old!!!

[fromustobaby]

Oh my gosh! What a month for you, glad ou are ok...and hope that February with MacKenzie is much better!

[Lyz]

wow! I'm so sorry you have to go through that!!! I hope Feb is a MUCH better month for you and you have a speedy recovery!!!

[Hopingfor1soon]

OMG Jess!! You poor thing!! So horribly sorry you had to go through all of that! Glad you are out now though!

[Mrs.Paradise]

to everything that has been said... HUGE SUPER DUPER FREAKING BIG FAT GIANT MONSTER HOOKER FANGBANGER I REALLY hope that the rest of the year will be pain free easy peasy for you!!! youve been through enough already

[KDD]

Glad you're finally home.

[JustLiz]

I'm so sorry that happened to you! Ugh! Don't worry. Formula is a wonderful thing when it is truly needed. Mackenzie is getting just what she needs. hope you have a speedy recovery!

[MarinaAndCharlie'sMommy]

I'm so sorry you have to go through this! I really hope you heal quickly and that the rest of the year is much better for you. Glad you are home.

[LoLo'sMama]

Oh man! I'm so sorry to hear about all that. Makes me feel guilty for only being tired. I'm so sorry but glad you are home now and things will be downhill from here on out!

[MommaLee]

oh, wow. that sounds horrible. things will work out, even if they are not how we planned.