I've jsut got so much going on right now and just feel like my head is going to explode any minute.
First - we were going to buy our house. We're not grandpa is putting it on the market so we're moving asap [can't have a showing with a bunch of kids in the house and I have nowhere to take 3-4 kids for a few hours]. So we got approved for an apartment complex I know its right for us - been praying about it and feel at peace with it. But I am still freaking out. I've lived in 8 places since I was 14 years old [now 22]. This is the longest I have lived in one location [3 years] since I was 14. This is the only place Hailey has ever lived and known as home. How can I prepare her for that?! I keep telling her we are going to live in a new house like grandma's. She'll have a new big girl room, and a playground. She doesn't understand at all. And she is very sensitive to change so she's having a really hard time right now. She's 2. So DH has two girls freaking out! HE said he has it all under control and I'm looking at a little HOnda Civic wondering how we're going to fit a couch in there and move it
He wont talk to me about his "plan". And I have a woman's bible study here, and need to let them know asap too.
Second - I babysit full time (sneaking online now). So I am turning away 2 kids. So I will only have 4 kids total. I tend to talk to me. I could keep them but it would not be easy. Not enough space and the age differences are there. I'm just getting really frustarted about that because it has to be done by tuesday [off monday). So here i am its thursday nothing is packed. I mean nothing! I just want to cry right now.
Third - I am a full time student. I haven't had any time to do school work let alone house work. So DH is angry because I haven't cooked dinner. And is upset because I spend all evening working on schoool work. WELL, what can I do! I can't do it during nap time because I have an infant who doesn't nap when the 2 year olds nap, and a 4 yr old who doesn't nap. So in other words I just can't do it. I do laundry as best I can, but I hardly have time to fold it. Rotating it is the easy part. I'm just freaking out about school since its the peak of the semester and have zero time and an unsupportive husband. who can't cook dinner or fold laundry - but can whine because we're never romatic or spend time together. Well, I wonder why! When do I have a chance to if I'm working on HW until 9pm and then have to be up by 6am and half the time I am up late so I don't even get to take a shower. I'm just getting so annoyed. He said to me "what do you want me to do about it." I said "cook dinner, stop ######ing over laundry not being folded." But he just slammed the door. He wants to come home to a perfectly clean house, and just watch football or whatever tv show. I want to disconnect the darn cable because of him. I was so stressed yesterday I wanted to do HW then he started a rant about me not cooking which just was a downward spiral of events that ended up with me passed out at 900 or 930 with a migraine.
