We have talked MY DAD on several occasions, and he just gets worse. We are actually to the point that he isn't allowed to see Alyssa anymore. We live in a small town (Less than 1500 people!!!!!!) so it is hard to escape from. It wouldn't bother me if we lived in the city, but EVERYBODY here knows us, and everybady else for that matter. Ever since he and my mom got divorced, he has tried to control me, since he doesn't have my mom to control anymore, and b/c I won't let him, he makes up these lies and rumors about why he doesn't have a relationship with me or my daughter. He tells people it is b/c I feel guilty about "taking advantage of him". He doesn't tell people that it is b/c he is a big drunk and a pervert, and THAT is why he isn't allowed to see my daughter. But it seems pointless to tell people that theses rumors about us are untrue, b/c then they will want to pry into why I don't have a relationship with my dad, and I am not going to trash him to everyone here, b/c that would feel like I am doing exactly what he did, KWIM? But, I am not going to let him get me down anymore today, b/c Matt and I have had a GREAT day! We have had two really great pieces of news today. (See Jan. due date club for one, and the mommy lounge for the other.) I am tired of letting him bring me down. I just get sad sometimes b/c it is hard to not consider him as my father, even though biologically he is. Oh well. Doing much better now ladies, thanks for the support!