Posted in AIP, but needed to vent here too!

#1 July 4th, 2011, 01:41 PM

AH. I felt so certain that I was pregnant this month, that it finally had happened. Well, Aunt Flo isn't here yet, but I am definitely cramping and spotting and it feels just like every month in which my period ends up coming. I tried talking to DH about it and got nowhere. "It will happen when its supposed to. Cheer up." I know he is trying to be supportive but I hate being told it will happen when its supposed to or it'll happen when it happens. Obviously I know that, but in the moment of feeling like it never is going to (we've been off birth control for four years) it sucks. I have an appt next Monday at a fertility specialist, but I am so scared of being told there is something horribly wrong with me and chances are i will never get pregnant. None of my friends have had a hard time getting pregnant except one and she has since adopted 2 kids and seems to have forgotten all about the frustration of month after month feeling like your body has failed you. DH wants kids too, but I think its different because its not his body telling him this month is another miss, ya know what I mean? Sorry for the long vent, its just a frustrating time for me!