[Blue Bow]

Hi all, my husband and I have been ttc for 14 months now. We have been maarried for 2 years this month and if we conceive, it will be our first. We are both in our early 30's. The constant dissapointment has been almost debilitating for me, and as much as I know my husband wants a baby just as badly, I don't think he fully understands how I'm feeling. I dont express/talk/share my feelings often, even with my husband. But recently it has become harder and harder to keep things inside and I've had a few (what I would consider) break downs. My husband has tried his best to keep me positive but I'm losing hope. No one in my family has ever had issues conceiving - most were unexpected pregnancies. And Most of my friends have young children or are pregnant. I've noticed the longer we try with no success the harder it is being around my friends and family who have young kids or are pregnant. Am I alone with this feeling? Don't get me wrong - I love their kids and think they are adorable and am very excited for the friends that are expecting but after visiting with everyone I'm more depressed then before! Not only that but i feel left out and that I don't relate to them like before. As much as I would never what anyone to feel like I have been feeling - it was a comfort to find This board and know I'm not alone.

[Coley54]

Good morning Blue Bow. I'm sorry for all your troubles...but please know that you are most definitely not alone. My husband and I have been TTC for 3 years and we've finally stopped. We have decided on adoption. And I probably don't belong here anymore but I just love these ladies so much. You are in good company. While we were trying to conceive, it was very hard to be around our friends kids...I wouldn't hold their babies...I would try to not go to birthday parties. It was awful. And has only just now become easier. But I think thats because I've moved on. I hope you find the answers you are seeking...and the support. Welcome to the board.

[captbabs]

Welcome and you are SOOO not alone! This is our 15month TTC our second child. It's been super hard, and I totally understand avoiding activities. You ARE happy for them it just makes it so much harder to deal with your own situation. Have you been to see a dr yet? We haven't, but my DH just said the other day we just need to suck it up and spend the money. We are pretty broke around this time of the year. Hugs and I look forward to getting to know you better. BTW my name is Anna.

[Blue Bow]

Thank you for the warm welcome and for sharing your stories. It means a lot! It's comforting to know I wasn't the only one having a rough time around other's little one's. It's like your already depressed about your own situation and then you get down on yourself about avoiding those situations - an emotional roller coster.
Coley54, I'm sorry to hear of the struggles over the past 3 years. I wish you all the best with the adoption.
Anna, I've seen the dr. and have had some blood work done. As far as they can tell I'm ovulating. My husband can't get into see a dr. until December they're so backed up. My name is Krissy.

[Coley54]

Hello Krissy. I'm Nikki.

[captbabs]

Hello I'm Anna! At least you're ovulating that's a start! Did they do hormonal levels or anything? My DH and I've been talking more about the dr and getting seen. He's up for it and says just suck it up and spend the money. So we shall see. I'm so scared something is wrong, or nothing is wrong and I'm just stuck not knowing why we aren't pregnant! lol scared of both possibilities!

[Blue Bow]

I know that feeling.....not knowing why it hasn'thaapened. That's why I decided to call my dr. My initial call to the dr.'s office was for my yearly but my sole intention was to talk to the dr. About our struggles with conceiving. My dr did a blood test that for hormones that showed I was ovulating and that my hormones where normal. I had to get blood taken 3-5 days into my cycle and again at 23-25 days. After that test come back normal my dr. Won't do any more testing on me until my DH has his sperm tested - so now I'm stuck waiting until December. I would call your dr and make an appointment like I did bc if you're experience turns out to be anything like mine you're DH will be put on a very long waiting list. so far my insurance has covered my visits but I don't know if they will cover my DH's in dec.