[tay'smama]

Hi...I feel like a mess...let me explain. We have been ttc #2 for 14 months with no luck, DD is almost 20 months old and we really wanted our babies to be closer in age, so we decided we needed help. I looked forward all summer to my appt with my obgyn to get started on fertility drugs. My appt was Aug 25 and she put us right on provera (to induce af) then on CD11 I start Clomid. I was so excited but now I am having second thoughts and worries. I think I am just nervous that it won't work at least before I had another option but this is our last option. (My ins doesn't cover anything to do with infertility so we have to pay cash and I am a SAHM so this is all we can afford.) We decided before hand that we only want to try 3 months of medication. I just can't believe i feel like this cause I was so beyond excited, but in my head I just assumed it would automatically work the first time and now it's more of a reality that it won't be that easy. I guess the whole thing is more of a reality now that I'm taking med's everyday. I just don't want my last hope to be gone, yet. Thanks for listening.

[Vicki...]

I understand why you are stressed about this, but so many women has sucess from clomid, I don't usually ovulate at all, and the second cycle on it, I ovulated(they just had to increase my dose). Clomid really is great stuff, I don't have infertility coverage either, so we will have to pay for our treatment and I will choose clomid. I beleive it will happen for you try to relax (i know that's hard to do) and let clomid work it's magic. I am sorry I could not be allot of help. Keeping me fingers crossed that it happens soon for you.

[tay'smama]

Thanks, that actually helps so much. Did you have alot of S/e's?

[MarieJ]

You sound exactly like I did---I was really hoping we could get pg on our own TTC#1 and #2(still waiting for #2), but I ended up pg with DS and another pg after just starting Clomid both cycles. Of course I was worried about multiples, but now that I'm looking at IVF, multiples aren't so scary now Good luck and try not to stress too much.

[MountainMomma]

I can understand your feelings. I've been trying to convince DH for over a year that we needed medical assistance. Now my appointment is a week away and I am so nervous about it that I feel physically ill! I know that the plan is to do IUI, and it should be successful, but I'm so stressed out about it.......excited, but stressed!

I hope Clomid works for you. We'll be using Clomid with the IUI, and it will be my first cycle of Clomid as well. KUP!

[tay'smama]

Thanks...DH won't do the SA cause we didn't have a prob getting DD, but I think it's his ego and not wanting to hear that anything is wrong with his "men". lol. The dr wanted to do it just to see about the risk of multiples, I told her he wouldn't and she didn't think it was necessary(sp?). I just wish I could be more relaxed like him. He would love to have another but he says maybe we are just meant to have 1 and we are lucky we have her. I think he might say that cause sometimes I blame myself, even though I know it's not my fault as a woman I just can't help it.
I am so grateful for for DD. To be honest the biggest reason I want another is for DD. I love having a sister and want it so bad for her too. DH doesn't have a good relationship with my SIL though, but I think it's mostly the way they were raised. I also think he's worried cause of the pre e I had the first time it really scared him and the c-section too. And I have been on the fence about trying for a vbac the 2nd time. My sil just had a baby and was going to have a vbac but mil told her right in front of us how dangerous it was and what could happen, so even though I have been telling him what I read and how it's pretty safe he believes her cause she is an OR tech and has seen some. I told him lets just hope we can get to that point, then we will worry about that. DD was born at 37 weeks but I was admitted at 36 weeks to be on bedrest.

I can understand your feelings. I've been trying to convince DH for over a year that we needed medical assistance. Now my appointment is a week away and I am so nervous about it that I feel physically ill! I know that the plan is to do IUI, and it should be successful, but I'm so stressed out about it.......excited, but stressed!

I hope Clomid works for you. We'll be using Clomid with the IUI, and it will be my first cycle of Clomid as well. KUP![/b]

It's weird how you can feel so many diff ways about something. Good Luck!

[Vicki...]

Lisa,

No actually I had very little side effects from the clomid, just some nausea, and sore bb's, but nothing I could not handle. I also want to have another baby partly because I don't want ds to be raised alone, I have two sisters, and dh has one sister however, she is 20 years older than him, so he kinda grew up an only child, and he says it was lonley, and I also worry that if something happens to us ds with not really have anyone to turn to, as I am not close to my family(long story), and dh's parents are older(his mom and dad are 70). I hope it happens for you soon.

[tay'smama]

Lisa,

No actually I had very little side effects from the clomid, just some nausea, and sore bb's, but nothing I could not handle. I also want to have another baby partly because I don't want ds to be raised alone, I have two sisters, and dh has one sister however, she is 20 years older than him, so he kinda grew up an only child, and he says it was lonley, and I also worry that if something happens to us ds with not really have anyone to turn to, as I am not close to my family(long story), and dh's parents are older(his mom and dad are 70). I hope it happens for you soon.[/b]

Omg I was so upset about that one day I really just couldn't get over it, I am petrified of leaving DD all alone. We are really close with my family but you never know what will happen people grow up and get busy. I really want them to have that sibling bond.

[Vicki...]

I think it's normal, and great to think of what's best for our children, even years down the road, it sounds like you are a great mom, I'm sure you will be blessed with another little darling very soon, by the way your little girl is so cute, I am hoping to have a little girl next time around, but if it's a boy that's great also.

[MamaAnna]

My cousin was actually TTC for over a year with her first before getting pregnant and it wasn't until they started lining up infertility assistance that she actually got pregnant. We're fast approaching the 1 year mark (my last two were conceived while TTA), but can't get any fertility assistance at all. I'm hoping my OB can do something when I go in for my next annual just to give us some kind of hope. It can be such a stressful journey! As much as we want a large family I know that my daughter really wants more younger siblings. She's constantly talking about babies and how we need more of them. Right now we're planning to have 3 more (if we can) and I'm not sure she'd even be satisfied with that! Things will happen when they are meant to happen in the way they are meant to happen. Perhaps, for some reason, you're not meant to have them too closely together. You just may not see why for some time.

[tay'smama]

I think it's normal, and great to think of what's best for our children, even years down the road, it sounds like you are a great mom, I'm sure you will be blessed with another little darling very soon, by the way your little girl is so cute, I am hoping to have a little girl next time around, but if it's a boy that's great also.[/b]

Thank you...I wanted a girl so bad... I just love girly things, she does too she already wants to put makeup on and she loves looking in her closet at all her cloths. When she was a baby I used to show her cloths when we went shopping and she would hold onto them if she liked them and throw them on the floor if she didn't. too funny. DH spoils her so much she is such a daddy's girl. I know he would love a boy he's so into sports and fishing. I already have my lil girl so whatever we get next I'm happy with. Although I would love to see my lil girls playing barbies together one day! Your son is too cute, is he momma's boy or does he try to be like daddy?

[tay'smama]

My cousin was actually TTC for over a year with her first before getting pregnant and it wasn't until they started lining up infertility assistance that she actually got pregnant. We're fast approaching the 1 year mark (my last two were conceived while TTA), but can't get any fertility assistance at all. I'm hoping my OB can do something when I go in for my next annual just to give us some kind of hope. It can be such a stressful journey! As much as we want a large family I know that my daughter really wants more younger siblings. She's constantly talking about babies and how we need more of them. Right now we're planning to have 3 more (if we can) and I'm not sure she'd even be satisfied with that! Things will happen when they are meant to happen in the way they are meant to happen. Perhaps, for some reason, you're not meant to have them too closely together. You just may not see why for some time.[/b]

I used to want alot of kids but after my first preg I said I wouldn't do it again cause I was so sick (besides the preeclampsia I threw up everyday for the first 16 weeks and had to do the hospital twice for dehydration). I changed my mind pretty quick and we started trying for #2 when DD was 5 months old. I really really want to make her a sibling. She has a cousin that's almost 4 months old and she absolutely loves her. It's adorable. She wants to hold her all the time and if the baby spits up or drools tayla will lift her bib up and wipe her chin. She loves babies she has been playing with dolls since she was 10 months old, feeding them, burping them, she rocks them and says awwww. Omg I could talk about her forever. I told DH I was worried about lovin the new baby as much as I love tayla, I know I will but it doesn't feel humanly possible!

[MamaAnna]

She sounds so cute! I was hospitilized from morning sickness during my first pregnancy as well. It persisted the whole pregnancy though. I never got the break they promised me! Dehydration wasn't really a problem since I kept a bottle of water with me pretty much at all times. I'd just take a sip every now and then. Almost everything I ate made me sick though so I really relied on those vitamins. I could reliably eat canned fruit, Burger King's original chicken sandwich, and blocks of cheese. That was about it!

[MountainMomma]

With DS I lost weight for the first 6 or 7 months of the pregnancy! I was miserably ill, and couldn't even hold down water! They gave me pills to take to relieve the sickness, but when you can't even hold down water, keeping that down was impossible.I had to go to the hospital multiple times to be re-hydrated with him. I was so sick (especially during the 4th month) that I honestly wondered at times if the pregnancy was going to kill me! Once the sick feeling went away though.....LOOK OUT! I was a hungry pregnant woman who hadn't eaten in months! I packed on nearly 30 pounds in just over 2 months!!

[MountainMomma]

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[Vicki...]

Lisa,

My little boy used to be mamma's boy, and he is daddy's boy now, daddy is more fun I guess, digging in the dirt and such.

[tay'smama]

Daddy is more fun here too, I always have to be the bad guy. I think if we had a boy he would be sooo different, but she's his lil princess. I have to admit I love watching them play together!

[MountainMomma]

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