[MountainMomma]

Well, I feel like I've just been slapped in the face. I've never said a word to him, but I've been so angry at DH because of TTC all this time. He was so sure he was the problem, and I had two kids so why would we think it was me. The doctors just called and said DH had GREAT swimmers.

They wanted equal or greater than :
count ~ 20 million
motility ~ 50%
morphology ~ 4%

DH's results:
count ~ 100 million
motility ~ 67.9%
morphology ~ 7%

The problem is all me! I seriously can't stop crying. I never expected this. We knew that TTC was going to be a struggle because we *thought* he had low counts, but now.... WOW. I feel like such a failure!

[tay'smama]

ohhh Steph I am so sorry! You are not a failure!!! You have not done anything wrong we cannot control these ###### fertility issues. You have 2 beautiful children I'm sure it will happen for you again! My T&P's are with you. I know it's so hard...all of the different emotions all of the time.

[MountainMomma]

After a good cry and a hot shower I'm feeling much better. It still sucks, but the RE really believes that this upcoming surgery paired with Clomid or Femara will help us, so instead of IUI we are sitting the next cycle out (for the surgery) and then will be trying on our own again for a few month.

[Vicki...]

Steph, (((((HUGS))))))) I am so sorry, I know how you feel though, when they tested my dh his were great too, and I was devastated, it hurts like crazy to feel so inadequate. I know it is hard right now, but here is the good news, at least both of you don't have issues cause then it would make it more difficult, and need more medical advances, but since his are fine, that improves your chances, I will be praying for you girly.

[mjtamjj]

Steph I am so sorry you were having a rough time. We have all felt like that at one time we just want to know why and there are no answers. I am glad that dh doesn't have any issues so that you can get your bfp after the surgery. Take it one day at a time, it's hard I know. You are not a failure and don't think that for one moment.

[MarieJ]

((HUGS))

[MountainMomma]

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