[Admin-pattyandthemoos]

I am having an emotional day. I decided to cancel my appointment. I have to sort out my feelings on some things. I think we are going to stop ttc. I have been having mixed feelings about having another baby for a while. When we first started ttc I was only 34 and it hadn't been that long since I had Lyndsey. The last year has given me time to think. When I scheduled my appt for the specialist it was motivated by the fact that I am tired of trying month after month. I wanted to be done with that rollercoaster. I think I am starting to come to terms with the fact that I may just be ready to move on to another phase of my life.

I don't want to make any permanent decisions just yet because I may just be feeling emotional today. I don't know what I want right now and until I sort through that I don't want to do anything drastic.

I am still not sure what I want to do long term. I just need a mental break from ttc to sort out my emotions.

Patty

[Vicki...]

I totally understand, I have my days that I question whether I want to continue ttc'ing, there are times I get so frustrated at Caleb that I think to myself do I really want two.

I hope that a little mental break will help you be able to make the right decision for you and your family

[JCT2005]

There are days I'm frustrated too that TTC isn't happening and that maybe all I'm meant to have is Teddy. I hope the break helps you figure what you want to do next.

[~InHisHands~]

I so understand how you feel. I'm almost at my breaking point now myself. I just hope & pray that this is the cycle before I lose my sanity. I really don't know how much more TTC I can take before having a nervous breakdown. The rollercoaster is rough!

[MountainMomma]

I too am nearing that point where enough is enough and it's time to just move on to the next stage of my life. I'm really starting to feel like it's NEVER going to happen for us, and I don't know why. It's so frustrating. I hope you find peace in whatever decision you make.

[MarieJ]

((HUGS)) Take the break, it'll give you more time to think about it and do what's right for yourself and your family. I found the hardest part about TTC was the not knowing, why month after month we would do everything right and nothing would happen; after 28 months I know the problem-I have DOR, which is a bad dx, but I am so relieved that something is wrong, not that we weren't trying hard enough-kwim? Sorry to hijack this thread, but perhaps you might be better able to make an informed decision if you saw a specialist who might be able to give you some real answers? IDK, I've wanted to give up many, many times too over 28 months, but now that I have a real dx, I'm more motivated to try harder with things that might really work for us-I'll be 36 in July. I don't want to wake up one day at 45 and kick myself for not hanging in there when I really had a chance at this working. ((HUGS))