[~InHisHands~]

What's the status of you? Have you done any of your fertility testing yet? When is AF due?

[Mommy2Dakota]

lol, only just managed to see this post from looking at the other one (about buying things)! Sorry...wasn't being rude, just now my daughter is 3yrs old and computer-knowledgable I only get a quick go before she says its her turn and pesters so its hard to concentrate!!

Anyhoo, thanks for asking!

Today I am on 8dpo and waiting to see if AF shows - usually today or tomorrow unless my stopping nursing will help correct my luteal phase defect. I've had a sore tummy with stabby pains all day yesterday - although I've had similar before so not getting hopes up BUT I did do a test today (BFN of course) stupid-stupid I know. Thats the prob with cheapie tests lying around!
I get some horrid spots before AF too but had just one minor one so far - hopefully a sign of my hormones balancing? And my chart - 1ed85b Ovulation Charts - has been looking more level with my temps so fingers crossed! I am trying sooo hard not to be bfp-focused so its more about fixing my cycle that I am waiting on.

And when AF shows? Well, I have a FSH test to do myself at home on CD3 and I will have to phone the docs to get my blood test done (needs to be between CD1 and CD5). After that will need to wait and use OPK's to pinpoint ovulation so I can have the next test on 7dpo.

If I get a 'normal' LP then probably wouldn't have to go back to docs though, just yet, as it would mean that it WAS nursing holding my fertility back.....?

Sooo...enough about me! Where are you at, in your head/plan/body? You have to wait one more cycle don't you before the doc will give you Clomid? Is that right? How do you feel about ttc again? I know after my MC I had a mixture of eagerness ('If I get pregs again quick it will make it all OK') and fear ('How will I relax now I know this can happen?').

[~InHisHands~]

LOL! Yep reading them inthe wrong order again!

By my calculations we'll be trying (with Clomid) early Oct. I'm not quite sure how I feel... I'm excited but I know I'll be somewhat anxious too. I think my biggest concern is going to be buying things & having a baby shower... I'm always going to have in the back of my head "what if..." which may ruin any shopping trips/baby showers. I know one mommie on the pregnancy loss board that had her baby shower then went in that week to find out her baby had died. She was just a few weeks away from her due date too! It's just scary now... I will feel much better when the baby is here in my arms with me. This is what I imagine I'll feel but I do trust the Lord so I do have a certain peace about whatever outcome happens & I'm just giving it all to Him.

[Mommy2Dakota]

You know as well as I that the fear and worry doesn't stop at birth! But at least we have a level of control compared to pregnancy where it is more out of our hands. I remember so well worrying and fearing miscarriage whilst pregs with Dakota yet I think deep down I never expected it WOULD ever happen to me.....but of course now I have MC'd once my next pregnancy is not going to be easy to relax through!

I guess thats why you have to break it down into stages. First step GETTING pregnant and not worry about the next stage yet!

It'd be nice if we got pregnant close together so as to be supportive through a time that is going to be both thrilling and scary.

Actually my heads doing me in today as I am finding it impossible to distract myself from hope and symptom-spotting, which I vowed not to do! I have been weepy and snappy for no reason and thinking 'could it be?' when I should KNOW that that is also an AF sign!