[Mommy2Dakota]

12dpo today and CD30! Pretty amazing considering I usually only have an LP of 8 and a cycle length between 23 days and 27. The progesterone HAS worked so I should feel happy.

Tested this morning but

My boobs stopped feeling sore and I got some sort of cramping last night. More like a squeezing-ache? But my mood has dropped too (and my temp
1ed85b Ovulation Charts
). Not sure whats going on. I feel sick and headachey today, like ill, but I think its because I have totally obsessed and wound myself up waiting and hoping yesterday. I have been on the computer way too much looking up stuff. Looking at charts of women on progesterone, looking up BFP's-with-no-symptoms, etc. Think thats why my head is spinning today.
Was praying to God and Angels last night asking for a BFP today just so my wait is over.
Oh dear, I'm even getting teary! I feel a mess! Even though I know these things can be a preggo sign I don't know how much the progesterone is effecting me and also I have had nausea before AF before.
I think its the lack of sore boobs effecting me most although I don't remember sore boobs when pregs with Dakota? And I never had morning sickness or anything then. Last cycle AF came the same day my boobs stopped feeling sore..
.....God, I feel REALLY sick right NOW as I am writing this ...but if I were having symptoms I would surely have had a BFP today?

Its probably a good thing I am at work later today (so no more computer browsing!) but I almost feel like calling in sick.

Well, guess thats all for now. I'm testing again Saturday (14dpo) but I just hope IF I am to be pregs this cycle I am not a late-tester cos I'm stopping the progesterone if its negative.

[MountainMomma]

I don't have the time (because I have to get ready for work) to type out the reply I want to type, so I just wanted to let you know that I did read this and that I will be replying when I get home tonight.

[~InHisHands~]

I know the pain & hurt you are going through but it is really really great that you made it to 12 dpo!!!

[Mommy2Dakota]

Well felt a few things today at work as well as being nausea's up until this afternoon. Was super thirsty and wanted water (I usually hate water plain) and the more I drank the drier and thirstier my mouth. Also sooo tired. I'm gonna have an early night. AND weird indigestion/burping thing going on when I never get indigestion really. No cramping or anything. I don't 'feel' like AF is coming and my boobs are still not sore.
Interestingly I looked at the info on my preg tests more closely and it said about when to test 'Test the first day AFTER your missed period' so by average woman-calculation that would actually be 15dpo?
I just ordered some 10mIU tests though as mine are 25mIU.....

I'm still praying I am not out and I will get a BFP this cycle! Also be interesting if my temp goes up or not tomorrow?

And lastly TMI warning - but I noticed that when I put my progesterone in it seems to hit a 'blockage' inside...maybe its my cervix down low or something? I have to kinda wiggle to get around it. But anyhoo....DH and I just bedded tonight (I didn't particulary want to but felt we should incase AF shows as we've only done it once since ovulation!) Anyhoo, even he felt some 'blockage'....wonder if that means anything? I joked that it was 'baby' telling him to get the hell out lol....

[amber1]

Good luck, I hope you get your BFP! You are not out yest so dont give up hope already!!!!

[Mommy2Dakota]

thanks Amber. I just one really faint pink line so I can say hoorah and stop guessing! Was BFN today again - even though I said I wouldn't test til tomorrow!

[MountainMomma]

I just wanted to tell you that I completely understand how difficult this can be. The progesterone alone can make it insane, even if you weren't already struggling. Progesterone can mimic pregnancy symptoms and leave you wondering if you are imagining things, or if you are just insane. lol

While it's been a trying journey, don't get to upset (or try not to anyway) if this isn't your cycle yet. The fact that the progesterone has gotten you to 12 dpo is awesome! With your body having 'normal' cycles, I'm sure you will have your BFP in no time! And hopefully this is it!

I had a lot more planned to say, but I got distracted at work last night and then I came home and went straight to bed (at like 7pm.....how sad is that! lol) so I've forgotten whatever it was.

[Mommy2Dakota]

Thats OK. I just appreciate the feedback.

My moods up and down. Today is not only 13dpo but CD32 which is longer than my pre-LP-problem cycle (my natural cycles used to be about 30 days). I kinda feel fed up now because if I am NOT pregs I just want to get this cycle over with so I can start again. I know I will feel excited to know that we can put in even more effort next cycle and have a chance of implantation now! Which is super. But with this cycle dragging on and no idea whether it is purely because of the progesterone I am feeling drained.

And ok, ok, I know this will sound pathetic but I asked for a sign from the Angels yesterday to confirm if I was pregnant and I asked, quite randomly, to see the numbers 1212 if I was.....and within about 3 mins the customer I was serving at my job's shopping total came up 12.12 (the only time it did all day). I was gobsmacked...but with keep getting BFN's its hard to still have faith. I also tried runes at home and got the fertilty rune....I keep thinking surely all these signs mean something? But then I feel a fool trying to believe in these things and scared of being let down when it turns out I am not pregs....:?

OH btw.....just brought the clearblue digital (with conception timer, ie 1-2wks pregs) to try tomorrow as I won't get my 10mIU ones until after I have gone to work. I'm a bit scared of seeing those words 'Not Pregnant' but it says it looks for TWO preg signs not just HCG like other tests? Never know eh? Tomorrow is 14dpo for me!