[MountainMomma]

Sometimes we get really down during this journey and other times we feel like we are walking around on cloud 9. Many times, no matter what we are feeling, we put on a happy face for the outside world and try to pretend everything is just fine. Now I want to know....How are you? Really....how are you?

[MamaAnna]

I don't know. I'm thrilled that we have Elizabeth, but now that she's here I'm back to feeling broken. I absolutely adore her, but it feels like our family isn't complete yet and the clock is ticking really fast.

[BornAgainRenee]

Im hopeful, but with that nagging feeling that I don't work anymore, and honestly it makes me feel like an android instead of a woman. It also kinda makes me mad. I have been heavy my whole life, I am smaller now then I was when I got pregnant at 19 with my first child, but at 120lbs smaller then I was when I lost Gracie, Im broken. Doesn't make much sense to me. The one thing that I don't like about ttc is after a while I start feeling like a brood mare and my dh like the doner stud. LOL Yeah Im using horse mating.
Other then that Im happy that we are trying, and that my dh was able to move on from this last loss and say lets try again for the first time. After every other loss he has been closed to trying again. So its a step in the right direction.

[Admin-pattyandthemoos]

I am feeling decent today. I did a whole lot of crying a few days ago but now that I have accepted that this is not my month I am doing okay. I am just ready for AF to get here.

[MountainMomma]

Originally Posted by MamaAnna

I don't know. I'm thrilled that we have Elizabeth, but now that she's here I'm back to feeling broken. I absolutely adore her, but it feels like our family isn't complete yet and the clock is ticking really fast.

I completely understand that. Matt thinks I am crazy when I say something like that, but I do feel like I am broken and running out of time. I want at least 3 more kids, and I had originally said I didn't want to have any more after my 30th birthday (yeah, that isn't going to happen). Now I am just hoping and praying I can get pregnant soon and maybe get a couple more in before my 35th birthday. My family definitely doesn't feel complete yet either, so I do understand that feeling.

Originally Posted by BornAgainRenee

Im hopeful, but with that nagging feeling that I don't work anymore, and honestly it makes me feel like an android instead of a woman. The one thing that I don't like about ttc is after a while I start feeling like a brood mare and my dh like the doner stud. LOL Yeah Im using horse mating.
Other then that Im happy that we are trying, and that my dh was able to move on from this last loss and say lets try again for the first time. After every other loss he has been closed to trying again. So its a step in the right direction.

I hate that you are feeling this way, but I totally understand. DH and I decided we needed to BD last night to cover our bases (I noticed some EWCM and wondered if maybe FF is wrong on my dates) and I told him that I really can't wait until I get pregnant and can just enjoy having sex with my husband. Right now it feels like we only ever do anything to make a baby and I do feel like a brood mare!

Originally Posted by pattyandthemoos

I am feeling decent today. I did a whole lot of crying a few days ago but now that I have accepted that this is not my month I am doing okay. I am just ready for AF to get here.

I'm glad that you are feeling better today. I really do have a good feeling about you though Patty. I do believe that you are going to be sharing a BFP with us soon!


As for me....I am back and forth on how I am feeling. Today I am feeling better. I had some cramping yesterday and thought AF was knocking on my door already. The cramping is not as strong today though and my temp went up again, so I am feeling a little better now.

[MotherFrog]

I feel....... lost.

I really don't know what to do anymore. I'm taking my meds (Dostinex for high prolactin) and I think it's working. We have a better sex life now but I didn't really see any signs of O this month. What bothers me about this cycle is..... it didn't really bother me. I was more irritated with some one not putting out than anything else. I just really wanted my hubby but he had to go to work. Bad timing on my part.

I just don't know anymore.

Do I want another baby? YES!
Would it bother me if I wasn't pregnant this cycle? I'm saying no.

I think I'm getting a little depressed lately. I dunno. I think we are on cycle 29 or 30 now and when AF shows, I just move on I guess. I'm going to continue to take my meds but at this point if we don't get pregnant, I'm not sure if I really care anymore. I'm broken and I don't know how to 'fix' me.

Maybe I need to start a journal on here.

[~InHisHands~]

Right now I'm wonderful & very hopeful b/c I JUST KNOW I'm pg... ask me again Thursday, it might change!

[MarieJ]

I'm glad that both DH and I agree that if we happen to get pg in the next three years on our own, it would be great-I'd love to have another bio child. Chances of that are very slim, since I've never gotten pg on my own without Clomid. But I'm also really scared about being pg again in the next three years, the twins are just so exhausting! I've been TTC since April 04 except for the 10 months I was pg with Nolan, its nice to have a break, but I can't help but still feel a bit sad when AF shows, but also kind of glad right now, does this make any sense??? Neither of us are ready to burn, snip or clip anything, but could I handle another child or two???