[BornAgainRenee]

find yourself constantly thinking about being pg?

I know I do, and sometimes I hate it. I mean I do have a life other then trying to have a baby. Its amazing how much it seems to take over! I guess there have been periods in my life when I was hoping to get pg and it was on my mind a lot, but not like now. I will say that its nice having a supportive spouse who is waiting and wanting just like I am. He has been such a rock and through all my mood swings and time of depression after losses, he is right there for me. Of course IM sure you all can relate to time when IM not so nice. Im just so happy that he is so awesome. I don't ever have to wonder if Im loved.

Anyway just had that on my mind.

[Mommy2Dakota]

Thats why this board is so special! Cos we understand eachother in how hard it is to wait and wait. I feel like my life is on hold until I have another baby. I know it shouldn't be and I try to focus on other things but it is impossible. I even feel pregs at times. I feel a belly 'pop' like a baby moving, feel like my belly is turning preggo-shaped and wonder if perhaps I am one of the rare women who get pregs but don't get a BFP (and have AF)....but I know its not! I know I am just putting on weight cos I am unhappy over ttc and can't focus on dieting cos I keep thinking 'what if' and that I'll be getting big anyways when I DO get pregs and I can worry about slimming after.
I think thats why I have decided not to actively try for a third. My life has been on hold since 2004 when I was ttc my daughter (who was born 2006) and I can't continue this way. I can't give up trying for a second but a third? Well, we'll see.

In regards to my husband I think we are getting further and further apart and so, after no2, I want to make my focus more about 'us' again too.

[~InHisHands~]

Oh, I do... I have even started going into the baby sections recently b/c I just feel like my BFP is right around the corner. I'm kinda trying to plan things in my head b/c if I don't I just think I'll get depressed!

[MountainMomma]

I do. I constantly think about it. And then, when I do get a BFP, I am terrified that I am just going to miscarry again. I can't think about anything else!

I even feel pregs at times. I feel a belly 'pop' like a baby moving, feel like my belly is turning preggo-shaped and wonder if perhaps I am one of the rare women who get pregs but don't get a BFP (and have AF)....but I know its not! I know I am just putting on weight cos I am unhappy over ttc and can't focus on dieting cos I keep thinking 'what if' and that I'll be getting big anyways when I DO get pregs and I can worry about slimming after.

I am so glad that you said this Jo. I honestly have been doing the same thing but then was sure I was the only one and that no one would understand!

[Mommy2Dakota]

I told a friend once and she said her mother said that she still felt that baby-moving sensation for a few years after her last child. Its weird but I guess normal. Sometimes its quite nice, bringing back nostagic memories and joy at thinking I will feel it for real again.

Also I know once I get a BFP I will fear miscarrying for a while too but right now I don't think about it. Just getting that BFP is proving hard enough for now! We must take small steps and worry as we go! lol