[Mommy2Dakota]

Half an hour before my docs appointment today I got phone call. My doc was off sick so they rescheduled me with another doc.

She was really nice but didn't give me more progesterone. I was worried about that, but I have to admit I wasn't sure if my original doc would have either. basically the reasoning is that they want me to have 'natural' unmedicated cycles between now and a referral to a fertility clinic. The reasoning is sound but easy to say when your not the one ttc. Now I KNOW 100% that I haven't a chance of a bfp over Christmas.
She said to come back in Feb and do another progesterone test. (I'm gonna get the test on Jan's cycle and go back Feb for result I think)
It all stems from breastfeeding as they discount all the cycles before that that I was ttc. So from June really is when I was ttc without bf.
I asked how long a referral would take (cos I'm thinking feb referred, March get seen if not longer, that means like Apr+ before starting Clomid. I will have been ttc 3yrs by then )

I don't know how I am going to hold out mentally that long!

I was all eager to DTD with hubby today but now don't even feel like I want to bother at all...like ever! I know thats just a backlash emotion from my sorrow today. I'll be OK tomorrow. Gonna try to focus my energy into weight loss (though the urge to comfort eat is now stronger!)

I will probably try not to participate to much in ttc topics on this board, just the general life stuff cos - on doctors orders - I'm supposed to try not to think about it all too much (haha).

[BornAgainRenee]

Awww Jo, that stinks. I am glad to hear that they have a plan going though. It nice to know that they are on board and aren't just making you wait until march before anything happens at all!

I understand about not posting on the ttc topics. Just don't leave us....

[MountainMomma]

I'm sorry that they wouldn't give you more meds. Maybe you will end up with a surprise miracle for Christmas. I'll definitely be praying for you!

[Mommy2Dakota]

lol, I'm too addicted to leave Renee!

And thanks Stef. Its hard to think like that - though the hope is always at the back of the mind. Had a chat to hub...it always goes in circles and almost becomes and argument...but I've been persuaded not to give up just yet. I never know, maybe the progesterone kick started something? So I'll be very interested in what my cycle does this month.
I know I said I wouldn't chart...but I feel I have to now cos I really need to know what my LP is without the progesterone. If it falls short again then yeah..I'll be more upset for the next cycles.

But at the same time I am going to throw myself into dieting and exercising to help keep my mind off it too much!

[~InHisHands~]

Concentrate on the Lord, grow your relationship, it'll make you a lot more patient... trust me. Though I know how bad this hurts though!