[Mommy2Dakota]

Well, you know I wasn't gonna chart/test etc but then with the doc making me 'go natural' I changed my mind. I want to see if my LP falls back to too short without progesterone or if maybe it gave it the kickstart it needed (or maybe the docs were right and it took a few months for not breastfeeding to change my cycles) Anyhoo...basically I want to know

So I took a temp yesterday and today http://www.fertilityfriend.com/ttc/index.php

And then an OPK today! As I ov'd CD13 last cycle I was curious if I would O early again..anyhoo..it is a defintie plus! I had quite a low temp/dip this morn (compared to my norm temps) so I am thinking I have O'd already? I had pains across my whole lower tummy last night at work but I did get a 'stitch' from rushing to work (after agreeing to start earlier) so put it down to that.

We DTD yesterday, despite not feeling like it cos of my doc appointment (sorry tmi but I was feeling very horny that morn...another O sign perhaps?) But before that was Wednesday so I think our chances, even without my LP troubles, are very slim....but not impossible I guess.

I'll get so upset with the docs though if I DO catch but lose it cos of my progesterone!

Anyhoo, dying to tell hubby (about + opk) but daren't as he doesn't want me charting etc and I really AM going to try not to day and symptom-count in the 2WW...honestly!

Plus, if it turns into only a 1WW cos of no prog that would give me a crazy 19-20 day cycle? My body can't do that to me surely! Shortest cycle I've had is 23...which would be an 11 day LP with a CD12 ov date?

[BornAgainRenee]

Jo thats awesome!! I hope that it works out and that it was because of breastfeeding!! That would be great huh!

[trying41more]

[Mommy2Dakota]

I know I must seem so negative all the time but its really hard to think positive! Once O is confirmed through my temps I'm just gonna try to count myself out already and wait. If I did get a bfp, well, it would certainly be a surprise!

[BornAgainRenee]

You know Jo Im not a big supporter of being negative, actually its one thing I dislike the most, but I don't feel like your being negative all the time. Your in a group of women who are dealing with something that we know there is going to be more of the not positive then there is of the positive. If you can't share these feelings with those of us that understand, who can you? I mean I know my dh is right there with me, but he doesn't relate at all to the feelings of me not being whole anymore, he is like any other guy, if it happens great, if not well thats sad but ok too. See for me, and I think most of us, that is not ok. It has to work, and until it does we will do whatever it takes. I mean for me, Im set on Im going to keep doing this until I have a healthy baby, or until 3 or more Dr.s tell me I simply can not have a baby. Of course that will have to be backed up with proof.
I don't want to try another 4 years, but I will if it means success in the end, and Im almost 10 years older then you. LOL yeah I guess Im the old lady in the room!! HA HA
Don't feel like your dumping negativity here, because we all understand and we are all here to support each other!!

[Mommy2Dakota]

Thanks Renee! This IS the only place I really put my full feelings down. With people I see face to face (collegues/family) its just a basic 'no, still not happening' or put on a smiley face and pretend everythings fine.
With hubby it gets stressful trying to talk. He doesn't 'get it'. Your spot on with the general man's attitude! We just talk in circles because there really is no 'solution' other than getting that healthy baby...and no amount of talking can bring that about! lol

[~InHisHands~]

GL!

[Mommy2Dakota]

Decided to move this post to The Hiding place. Thanks for your support

[MountainMomma]

My reply is in the private forum as well.

[~InHisHands~]

[Mommy2Dakota]

OK, so temp is more my usual post-ov today. Yesterdays temp was iffy cos I woke up too early and it was low then I laid stressing etc and so although the next temp was higher I don't think I can trust either. But if I 'discard' I don't get my ov data on FF. However, using BOTH temps still makes FF put my ov for CD12.

I'm not sure though...I still reckon CD14. Think I am just gonna have to say ov was 'between CD12-14'.

[BornAgainRenee]

Sounds good, FF could still change the date with more temps. Its done that to me a few times.

[Mommy2Dakota]

Well, I'm confident my temps will now be in the 36.70+ range so unlikely to change now. Plus I am not going to temp now. Chances are my AF will come next week if it goes back to short anyways...but if not, well, I can hope but I don't want to sit here waiting! Which, as you know is hard not to do...but I am going to at least not count my days to the exact CD. I've set my alarm on my cell phone so if I get to two weeks today I will test...if not? Well, at least I wouldn't have wasted tests like I have been, testing from 9dpo onwards!

I'm not making too many promises to myself though. ....