[~InHisHands~]

So I had a follow up RE appt today & guess what... I actually Oed last cycle (according to my progesterone (16.4))! Huh?!? Are you serious??? So as you can imagine... I'm thoroughly confused.

For those that don't already know, a quick recap (according to my OB successful O is when the progesterone is above 12)...

1. Unmedicated, progesterone on day 23 - 6.5.
2. 50 mg Clomid, progesterone on day 22 - 13.5
3. 50 mg Clomid, progesterone on day 24 - 4.6
4. 100 mg Clomid, progesterone on day 23 - 17: Got pg but m/c-ed!
5. 100 mg Clomid, progesterone on day 23 - 8.4
6. 150 mg Clomid, progesterone on day 23 - 4.4
7. Unmedicated, progesterone on day 22 - 16.4 (I Oed late on CD 15 or early on CD 16 & we DTD on CD 12 so I could have gotten pg but we didn't... AF showed this past Saturday).

[Vicki...]

Maybe being on the clomid jump started your hormones, I know that I usually don't O at all on my own, but will sometimes ( like once a year or so) maybe this will happen again this month for yoy, fingers crossed for you girl

[Mommy2Dakota]

Hey! I replied earlier but the board decided to go down for maintanance! lol...I don't have much luck with your posts do I?

Anyhoo...great news!

Maybe its a sign from above that you will and can get pregs with or without medication ...you just STILL have to wait right now and keep your faith!

[~InHisHands~]

Originally Posted by Mommy2Dakota

Maybe its a sign from above that you will and can get pregs with or without medication ...you just STILL have to wait right now and keep your faith!

See that's what I was thinking maybe too... that's why I am so confused right now. I thought I knew what was going on... I wasn't Oing properly & would need MA but the Lord sure decided to throw me for a loop, that's for sure! Now I'm wondering if I shouldn't just stop & wait on Him, ya know. It's just so hard to know what to do. I've been praying for guidance for Mike so I'm going to just let it go for now... we had planned to wait till Jan anyway & then talk to Mike about it & I'm still determined that whatever Mike says goes... if he wants to quit MA, we quit... if Mike wants to continue but not do injectables... that's what we'll do. I've quit fooling with it... I've had to for my sanity AND I also think that I may have been standing in the Lord's way so that's why I'm trying to give it to Him so He can take care of it but the only way I know how to give it to Him & quit obsessing is to basically follow whatever Mike decides & in the meantime pray like crazy that the Lord gives Mike guidance & wisdom.

[Mommy2Dakota]

I am SURE you would get pregs waiting. But I also know its hard to sit back. But my cycle has NEVER had an OK-can-get-pregs-length (in the time I've charted) so I think I am a little different.

It also came to me last night about your numbers...with only one ovary do you think your numbers switch depending when you would normally ovulate from the other ovary? I mean, you can't always have a strong release from one side only?

Not that I'm an expert of course! Just speculating!

As for waiting...? Well, take advantage of having to wait anyways. And if you need more time (to save for treatment) then you can do so knowing that you still have a chance in the meantime.

[~InHisHands~]

Originally Posted by Mommy2Dakota

I am SURE you would get pregs waiting. But I also know its hard to sit back. But my cycle has NEVER had an OK-can-get-pregs-length (in the time I've charted) so I think I am a little different.

I so know how you feel but let me also say, from my Bible study that I am doing...

God wants you to be you & let Him do through you whatever He chooses. When you believe that nothing significant can happen through you, you have said more about your belief in God than you have said about yourself. You have said that God is not capable of doing anything significant through you. The truth is He is able to do anything He pleases with one ordinary person fully consecrated to Him.

But I know how you feel thinking that yeah, it happens to other people but it could NEVER happen to me...

From my blog (Galatians 4:22-23: So Tired of This)...

I still have hope. You know I am starting to believe that a divine miracle can even happen to me! You see miracles happen to others but you think, "Yeah, it happened to them but it could NEVER happen to me." There are 2 in particular, a friend from church had very similar issues as I do now & she got pregnant TWICE with no help at all & another friend, L, who couldn't get pregnant without the aide of Clomid... well, she recently got pregnant with low progesterone & no fertility help of any kind & is now due in June. Well, I'm beginning to feel like a miracle can & might happen to me.

It CAN happen to you too ONLY if that is God's plan. See that's the tricky part to me... knowing God's plan & if He wants me to stop MA or to keep going.

Originally Posted by Mommy2Dakota

It also came to me last night about your numbers...with only one ovary do you think your numbers switch depending when you would normally ovulate from the other ovary? I mean, you can't always have a strong release from one side only?

Not that I'm an expert of course! Just speculating!

You know I have actually heard something VERY similar from my OB. That b/c of me only having 1 ovary that sometimes the ovary responds stronger than other times... kinda like maybe it needs a resting break or something.

[Mommy2Dakota]

I am sure thats it with your numbers!

As for:
When you believe that nothing significant can happen through you, you have said more about your belief in God than you have said about yourself. You have said that God is not capable of doing anything significant through you. The truth is He is able to do anything He pleases with one ordinary person fully consecrated to Him.

I do actually believe I WILL get pregnant in the future even if I do nothing. Its not that I think never. But its the idea of 10 years from now compared to Now now, you know. But if thats His plan? Well..I don't know what to do cos I don't think my mentality (or marriage) could take such a wait. I know that is wrong and I just hope that He understands and doesn't make me wait that long!

I have a strong feeling that if I just gave up and 'forgot' about ttc it would happen. I know this but I cannot do it. *sigh* We sure are put in tricky situations aren't we? And it certainly does seem alot to do with Faith.

As for your choice.......I would listen to yoour instinct about what God wants from you. Is getting MA a step forward on this journey? Or by giving faith fully to Him will the reward be the goal of that journey whilst standing still?? It looks like neither choice is wrong and both should get you what you want so it is a choice of what will bring you the most fulfilment whilst you wait???