[MountainMomma]

I thought I would take a minute to stop and update you all. AF did arrive right when I thought she would. No surprise there. I haven't made the appointment for the IUD yet. Partially because I just am afraid I will break down and start crying in the doctors office and that they will refuse to give me one! I am preventing though. Sort of. We never have sex anymore, and without sex...well, you can't get pregnant that way! lol

I am working on losing weight and getting healthy again. I've gained way more weight that I ever should have. There is no excuse for this except laziness. I'm determined to lose a big portion of my weight before my cruise at the beginning of May. After the cruise we are going to re-evaluate the situation. Depending on where we are, and where my weight is we will then decide whether to try again, NTNP or to continue preventing.

I am much more at peace with this decision now. I know that mentally I need a break. 4 years of this crap (with 7 chemicals in there not to mention the death of my father, my great-grandma and a couple of other family members too) has just been way too much. It's time for a break.

I am going to be stopping by from time to time to check on you all. I want to see some BFP's ladies! You can keep up with me on facebook or on the Mommy Weightloss and Fitness board here on JM. I will confess though. I am bookmarking that board so that I don't even see the main list of boards. It's just too tempting any other way.

Good luck ladies! I love you all and I miss you tons!

[Mommy2Dakota]

Hey! I hope I don't confuse you or upset you saying this...but I'd forget about the IUD.
Do all those things, trying to get healthy, slimming, forgetting ttc, but don't deliberatly prevent iykwim? Cos you never know...having your mind in 'the right' place might just be the key. And at the same time you can not care about b'ding right time, or b'ding at all and counting days and all that crap.
If things don't get anywhere with me and Clomid next year I'll be following your footsteps! 3+ years will be just too much for me and as heartbreaking as it is...well...you know as your there now how maybe we have to accept that actually ttc is NOT the only important thing and we need to move on and live our lives with the people/children we have already.

Sory for posting and making you come back to this part of the board! I'm glad you will still join us in the weightloss section! Certainly need LOTS of support there after New Year...I've eaten sooo much choc and rubbish!!! lol

[~InHisHands~]

So glad you dropped in to update us! & continued prayers!

[BornAgainRenee]

Steph you are definitely in my prayers sweetie. Im sorry this has taken a tole on your marriage, funny how bding causes problems.
If you need to talk or anything at all, you know where we are!!

[trying41more]

I wish you the best.. and i hope you can find something that works.. i have set my motto..: "Seeing results is my motivation" I and working out like everyday..I was right there in the same boat.. I had gain way to much weight.. I was weighing MORE then I did when I was pregnant with Grace.. and I thought.. man.. i had a hard time when I was pregnant with Grace and I weighed 20lbs less.. how would I even be able to do it 20lbs heavier not pregnant.. I am actually taking a break for a few months too after this cycle if i am not pregnant this cycle.. I want to finish getting my body in shape.. and finish losing weight..so if i gain the normal weight durring pregnancy with our 2nd one it will not kill my back like it did with Grace.. I will be happy if i am pregnant this cycle.. however.. I will not be crushed if I am not.. this was my 27th cycle TTC#2 and I will take a break until atleaste summer probably.. That probably how much time I can guess it will take to lose another 30lbs (since i have already lost almost 50lbs) But I have you on my Facebook.. and I would love to keep in touch and talk about our weight loss.. I am in the same boat as you right now.. so feel free to shoot me an facebook email .. meanwhile.. take care of yourself.. and dont worry about pleasing ne one.. except for yourself BIG

[MamaAnna]

I hope everything works out in the long run. If you do get an IUD please watch yourself. It seems like women either do really well or go crazy with those things.