[trying41more]

Af showed up today.. however i am ok with it.. I am actually (now that i started workingout) trying to focus now on getting my body back in to shape..a few months ago.. i realized how much heavier i had gotten.. i was weighing in 20 lbs heavier then i even was pregnant with Grace.. and i had a ver bad pregnancy towards the end with ack and hip aches.. and not eatting healthy.. i could not even begin to think about how it would be on me this time.. with all that extra weight.. now i am going to be putting TTC on hold atleast til june or july.. and allow myself time to finish losing the rest of the weight i want to lose..(which is another 20-30 more lbs.. from the 40+ lbs i have already lost) and also i need to get my body into shape.. and ready for another pregnancy.. i want the next one to be a healthy one and a better experience, too.. I will still be hanging around here.. but i not be trying right now.. in stead i will be trying to stay focused on getting where i need to be.. and hopes that summer comes around fast..so dont feel sorry for me that AF showed.. b/c i am not upset about it (in fact i knew she was coming.. b/c i had a dream that i always have before af shows up) i was kinda hopin not to be pregnant this cycle ne ways b/c i want to really reach my goal now that i have my mond set on losing weight and getting in shape..

soo.. i am now on my ttc break and i am not leaving y'all.. just on a break

[~InHisHands~]

You should join us in the Healthy Living Lounge then! But I will admit... I may not be very active for the next month or so b/c of the pg loss study going on on the CP board. But it'd be great to have someone else in there to help spur me & Jo along!

[trying41more]

i might try and head over there later on.. its harder for me to keep up with to many boards..but i'll check it out.. i really need to stay focused on getting my goal met by summer.. so i am limiting myself 15mins total a day for computer/internet time.. so i just jump on for a little while each day.