[BornAgainRenee]

my chart is just crazy! I have the feeling af will be here in the next couple of days. I don't feel her coming on, but my temps just don't say anything good at all. No more twinges, breast tenderness is basically gone.

You know I have to admit, Im getting kinda tired of trying. I want to get pg, but Im tired of all the effort involved in trying. I know that maybe selfish, but its true. I thought I would be devastated this month but Im not.

dh is still on board, and Im going to pick up some vitamins for him. Maybe that will help, course from what I have read, it wont help until may. But oh well.

Anyway thanks for letting me vent a little.

[Mommy2Dakota]

Heya! I came here just to check your chart out and see how it was going! Still looks OK to me! I hope you get a surprise and AF doesn't show. *hugs*

I so know what you mean though. We've b'ded well but we should b'd again today just incase but I'm not sure I can push hub again! The last two times were a bit stressy as is......but then we just want that BFP so all this ttc-so-hard is over and done with!

Oh well.....what can we do but try and try again?

[BornAgainRenee]

Exactly, and well now look at the chart, its nasty!!

the witch is following me and she is gaining ground!

I know what you mean about the bd thing, I get tired of it, I get really tired of it not being fun since everything under the sun affects sperm. I just am ready to get back to having normal fun sex again. kwim? How come so many foolish kids do all kinds of foolish things and get pg when they have done everything to ruin the environment? It aint fair! LOL

Oh and on another note, not downing anyone, I was one of those foolish kids that got pg when the environment wasn't good!

[Mommy2Dakota]

Seems an early dip for Af? But have ta wait and see I guess. I've seen charts with a dip like that more than once that are bfp...but I understand that it's hard to think that way . That's why I'm glad I'm not charting anymore as you want to read into it. Really you only need to know when you O'd if your lp length is pretty standard. And if you O around the same every cycle then I guess your don't even need to chart for that anymore either.

Sorry if that sounds like a lecture! I just do believe that If you have a pretty regular ok cycle then 'sitting back' might be beneficial. If my cycle was normal I definitely would have tried a few months of 'not trying' to see if that worked!

[BornAgainRenee]

I get what your saying, my problem is being frugal, I paid for the ff membership and I hate not taking advantage of it.

Ok so here is the update, Im spotting. Well I was spotting. Then nothing. If I check my cervix, I am spotting, but if I don't then there is nothing at all on the toilet paper. Maybe that dip was a good thing? Maybe implantation? Who knows. I guess we will see. I think my chart could be wrong too since I had some issues with getting my temp this month and I missed the day after what i think was my first temp shift day.

I guess tomorrow will tell the story.

[Mommy2Dakota]

Hey! That sounds good! My fingers are definitely crossed for you!

[BornAgainRenee]

Save your fingers....af came on strong this morning.

[Mommy2Dakota]

oh, sorry Renee. Your lp was pretty short then too? Though 11 is not as bad as my 9. Were you still taking the B6 like last cycle?

Sooo frustrating to start over.

*hugs*

[BornAgainRenee]

Actually it was 12, which is normal for me, I go between 12 and 13. Its ok! Im fine. dh started taking vits so hopefully eventually that will help.
I was reading and although I really want to get pg the odd's are stacked against me. I guess I have less then a 15% chance every cycle due to my age. IM glad I didn't wait until now to have kids.

Thanks for your support my friend. I appreciate it!!

[Mommy2Dakota]

Ah yes, your chart is 12 day lp with the 12th being the spotting? I get confused with yr charts cos of our time differences I think?

Anyways....yeah, hope the vits help for both our hubs. I'm not sure how regular my hub is taking his but he is supposed to be taking vit c, zinc and even some maca. Sorry it's just me here responding too!

I read something a while back that made me think I was practically passed it fertility-wise (which is why I did a fsh test) and I felt so down! But then you only have to look around to see lots of women in their forties, late forties even, seemingly getting pregs easily enough so I don't think these articles are all that helpful really. Certainly not from the emotional aspects that can hold one back from concieving.