[Misty_X]

I hope it's OK if I join. I don't know why I have never stopped by before.

I'm Misty, and we've been TTC#3 for almost 18 months. Over that time I've had 4 losses, 3 were chemicals and one was at 11w6d. I have endometriosis, one damaged tube and LP defect.

It took a long time to have our first. I had 4 m/c and a chemical before we got our sticky one. Our youngest came along so much faster, I still can't believe we were able to have her so quickly.

At the moment I'm feeling very low. I feel bad for complaining when I know some people have been trying for longer or have suffered more losses or are dealing with more issues, but it's starting to really get me down.

I'm looking forward to getting to know you better x

[MamaAnna]

I'm so sorry Misty. I knew you were having trouble, but didn't realize how bad.

[Misty_X]

Thank you for the welcome x x it took a long time TTC our first as well. I was diagnised with endo at 20 and I know I am very lucky to have my girls, but I have been starting to feel really down about it the last few months.

I co-host AIP but I'm feeling less and less able to talk about my own cycle and TTC on there. I've been hosting for about the same length of time I've been TTC and I have seen so many girls come and go and many have their babies in that time. It's started to really get me down.

I'm looking forward to talking with you here

[MamaAnna]

I can understand moving away from posting personal stuff on AIP. The longer it took us the less I wanted to talk about it with people that haven't gone through the same thing and when I found out about my PCOS I dropped off the TTC boards almost entirely. It's one thing to give somebody else some help and encouragement, but another to share something that most of them just aren't going to understand. That's part of why I love this board so much. There was one... I can't remember which... it felt like because I'd already had kids I didn't deserve to be there and my infertility didn't count. You don't get that here though. It's been quieter lately, but I'm sure it will pick up again. It always does.