[dontrellzmommii]

I hate this so much. I want my baby. He\'s already 5 days old and I\'ve held him like twice. I hate seeing all the wires on my bubby.He has an IV through his belly and it looks so awful. I almost cried when I saw it the first time. And they shaved his head so they could put another IV through it. Theyre always pricking the heel of his foot so that they can check his blood sugar every hour. He has an IV in his arm that looks kinda swollen. I feel like such a horrible mother. I can\'t believe I\'m putting my poor baby through all this. I wish I could have kept my blood sugars under control more. Well I\'m going to go to the hospital soon and hopefully alot has changed.

[beckii]

I'm sorry that you both have to go through this Mikayla wasn't a preemie, but I couldn't imagine what it would be like. I hope that Dontrell is progressing, keep us updated.

I'm so sorry, Nadine !

It is NOT your fault ! Please don't blame yourself .

[~*kath*~]

I'm so sorry you and your baby have to go through this,, but it's not your fault! I hope things are better soon. . .

[August2006Mommy]

i'm sorry you feel that way...but i guess you need to look at the plus side of things...all these things happened for a reason...maybe Dontrell came early for the better of both of you...now he needs that extra help to get him better..its better he gets what he needs in the outside world...than inside your womb which doesnt have everything to heal him....hope everything works out well hun..and u get to bring him home soon...your in my prayers...goodluck..and keep us updated

Your not a horrible mother… its not like you choose this to happen… everything happens for a reason.. And a least your little boy is being looked after.. I know its hard but youse will get through this… you are a great mommy… you are worrying like all mommys do .. Just look after yourself.. Then you will be healthy and ready for your buba to come home… your just a mommy who gets there baby before a few other of woman.. But you will get to take him home earlier or at the same time as anyone else..

Sophs had to go through the same thing as you…not being able to have there baby home for a few weeks…

Have you been to the premmie board… talk to other moms who are going through the same things or other then you

[Mom2DyJessAva]

im so sorry u have to go through this...just remember one thing its NOT your fault and your NOT an horrible mother...i hope he gets better really really soon so u could take him home...please try and keep us updated on how u both r doing as much as u can

[Banned-*~Sarah~*]

I'm sorry you have to go through this.

Like the others said, this is not your fault & your not a bad mother.

[jayjay]

aw, hunny, it's NOT your fault!! i'm sure it's realy horrible and i know you hate seeing hinm like that, but ... its not your fault and he'll be all better really soon!!!

[skitterbug]

Popping in from Jan. PR...

Just want to say major {{{HUGS}}} to you and I know very much what you are going through. I had to be induced at 35 weeks because of high blood pressure, my blood was too thin (I was on blood thinners), and right after my baby was born they whisked him away to NICU because he was having trouble breathing. I didn't get to hold him until the next day, and that was incredibly difficult for me. Seeing all those IVs in him just tore me apart, and I felt it was all my fault. My fault for not being able to carry him longer. I finally got to bring him home when he was 9 days old, they were probably the longest 9 days of my life though.

It is definitely not your fault, just try to look at all the positives! For example in my situation, instead of thinking "aww, he has to stay at the hospital for a week", I tried to think, "great, just a week! That's better than the 3 weeks they were predicting!" It does get better, but I'm sorry you have to go through this because it is very hard.

[ShortiMom]

I feel for you girl, I cried reading this. I don't know what I'd do or how I'd feel if I had to go to the hospital to see my baby. I just know it'd hurt like anything. But don't feel like a horrible mother. You'd be a horrible mother if you insisted on taking him home. But one thing moms do is get their little ones to the doctor or even the hosipital when they need to. And even tho it's hard now, just think how good you'll feel when you get to bring Dontrell home.
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[momma06]

I'm really sorry you have to go through that. It must be hard seeing your baby like that, I couldn't imagine. I hate going to the doctor's office for Breanna's immunization shots because she gives me the why are you doing this to me look and cries. Before you know it your baby will be better and you'll be able to take him home and hold him all you want!!

oh honey, I am so sorry!!! everything will get better.

[stacy19]

im so sorry you and yur baby have to go through this but he will be ok and healthy soon. this in no way makes you a bad mother. your soon just needs a little help right now but i hope he is in your arms and home soon.

[dontrellzmommii]

Thank all of you for your kind words.