I'm going in for my first ultrasound at 6 weeks, 5 days. Well for some reason, I went back and looked and that is when I went for the first u/s with Thomas...the one where we didn't see anything a baby or heartbeat. We went back and saw the heartbeat at 7 weeks, 5 days.
The timing is just so similar. Plus it is right before my niece's birthday party AGAIN. It's just freaking me out how all the timing is lining up almost exactly the same and it makes me feel like the same thing will happen again.
I KNOW logically that when we go in has nothing to do with whether the baby will be viable and that most likely everything will be fine this time. The reason we didn't see his heartbeat on Thomas' first u/s is probably because there was something wrong all along. My RE also insists that we should see a heartbeat by 6 weeks, so I think 6 weeks, 5 days is giving it some good leeway.
I don't really want to re-schedule my appointment any later for various reasons. I'm trying really hard to be "mind over matter" about this and tell myself that it being on the same gestational date doesn't mean anything. It isn't some sign. But it's hard when those thoughts pop in my head.
I've been doing okay, and just praying every time I get fearful, that God would take away my fear and that He would take care of me and the baby. And that has helped tremendously. But this is still hard.
Any reassurances out there? I'm trying to figure out how to deal with this fear and these feelings.