I have decided to embrace this pregnancy (Eeek!) completely even at this early stage I don’t really believe it, but my BFP is still there this morning, and is still dark if not ever so slightly darker. I mean, I am really really nervous! So much can go wrong. But even if it does, I will regret not embracing this fully and enjoying it because UI guess it is real. I am trying to fully wrap my head around this!

So I updated my siggy, and next week sometime I will add one with a picture! Annnnnnd, I started my belly pics at the DDC I am still so so nervous, but I am trying to shake of the doubts. It really is unbelievable though. I am still in shock. I am supposed to be infertile, IVF was mentioned a few months ago, I thought my eggs were not very good, I thought my body wasn’t good enough to get pregnant, or be a mom. I am afraid this is really just a dream and tomorrow I will wake up and it will all be gone, oh great now I am crying

[*kyle*]

You are going to make me cry too. You've been through so much more to get here than I have, and yet you are being more brave than me. I am going to work on this myself, and try to take inspiration from you.

After all, if our beans have some kind of cosmic deal going, then that means we're both probably in it for the long haul...

[~* Helen *~]

I'm so pleased for you hun !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[♥Ashley♥]

Yay!!!!!! What your doing is awesome, i know your scared, but I mean embracing it and just enjoying every minute of it and (hopefully) not always thinking about the bad things. I cant wait to see a siggy with a pic! What a treat! Ive never seen you have one!!!!

[misfitinmn]

Yes! Definitely embrace it! It is an amazing thing and I'm sending all of my sticky dust your way! Well, I'll split it between you and Kyle.


Any initial boy/girl feelings?

Can't wait to:


Okay, I'm going to end this cheesy post right now!

I wanna see today's test!!!!!!!!!

You are going to make me cry too. You've been through so much more to get here than I have, and yet you are being more brave than me. I am going to work on this myself, and try to take inspiration from you.

After all, if our beans have some kind of cosmic deal going, then that means we're both probably in it for the long haul...[/b]

I think we are Kyle Maybe after this weekend you will feel more up to showing that belly!

Yay!!!!!! What your doing is awesome, i know your scared, but I mean embracing it and just enjoying every minute of it and (hopefully) not always thinking about the bad things. I cant wait to see a siggy with a pic! What a treat! Ive never seen you have one!!!![/b]

Nope, I have always been shy. I think the belly pics are the only pics I have posted outside of a private forum. And in my bra to boot! What's funny is I didn't notice that until others pointed it out.

Yes! Definitely embrace it! It is an amazing thing and I'm sending all of my sticky dust your way! Well, I'll split it between you and Kyle.


Any initial boy/girl feelings?

Can't wait to:


Okay, I'm going to end this cheesy post right now![/b]

Awh, I like those blinkies!

I wanna see today's test!!!!!!!!![/b]

My battery died. I wonder why? Lat etonight I will charge it and post it. It is about the same though.

[*JenJen*]

woot! embrace it michelle! You worked your ##### off to earn this BFP. P.S. you should be on gtalk, woman!

[petalfuzz]

Congratulations! I didn't post on your other thread cause it's pretty crowded in there! Have a happy and healthy 9! Good luck with everything. Sticky dust

[Mjp121212]

I totally understand how you feel! After we had given up all hope and then I got my bfp we were so nervous! I came to JM in November but I was so afraid I wouldn't register until MARCH! I kept saying, "if I have the baby" and "If the baby is ok" I never could say WHEN! Even with the bfp I couldnt do, I had the blood test, still couldn't. I had to have an ultrasound before dh believed it!

so yes I think you should totally embrace it and love it and enjoy it to the fullest!

[Garfieldbear]

AWWWWW, Michelle, I don't think that you "were supposed to be infertile", I think that you just needed a little help, like me. You are young, in good shape, and you are well monitored by a doctor....you have a lot of great things going for you and your little one! I remember feeling exactly like you when I first found out I was pregnant....that it couldn't be real, and my husband and I couldn't get that excited about it for a few days because we were just so terrified that something would go wrong. Once you get those HCG numbers, you will feel a lot better. By the way, is this the first cycle that you started taking Progesterone supplements? Maybe that is all you needed for a successful pregnancy....but hey, I believe that your maternity clothes did bring you good luck, so start wearing them soon for further good luck!

[ShannonMVT]

So much can go wrong. But even if it does, I will regret not embracing this fully and enjoying it because UI guess it is real. I am trying to fully wrap my head around this![/b]

That is exactly how I looked at it. Even if something went wrong, you still want to look back and say that you enjoyed being pregnant as much as you could.

Now, the disclaimer is that I don't think anything will go wrong with your little one, BUT I completely get your fears. I think anyone who has to really TRY for a baby (whether because of infertility, miscarriage or even just planning and "overthinking" it) gets nervous when it is finally real. You've wanted this so much and now you finally have it!!! It's natural to fear it being taken away. But I think you have to face those fears (which I think you are doing a good job of) and move forward and let yourself be happy and joyful.

Now feel free to say all the same stuff to me the next time I get nervous.

You girls are the best It felt good to post the belly pics, better then I thought. It is starting to sink in a trickle at a time. It will be good to get tomorrow's blood test out of the way. I hope I feel better after that. I dunno, I am sorta gloomy today. That is, when I am not happy as a clam

So when should I be getting my blood drawn, I mean, like 3 days apart? And when should they be doubling/tripling. You can tell I never ever thought about this stuff LOL

[Garfieldbear]

Let me tell you something about HCG numbers...a lot of women get freaked out over that first number because it might seem "too low" for them....what matters, though, is that your HCG number is at least 25 or 30...as long as it is at least 25-30, then I think that it's a great sign. Everyone has different implantation times....my first HCG number was 31, and I was so worried over that number....I felt so discouraged, and I heard of many other women doing that as well. Now Michelle, if you are getting positive home pregnancy tests then your HCG numbers are most likely already in that range because the tests' sensitivity levels are about 25-30 (with some sensitive only at 50-100). Now what is important is the doubling of those numbers every 2-3 days....if you go in on Friday, then they should have at least doubled by Monday. Maybe your doctor will want to wait a little more to check your HCG numbers....just think of it as doubling every 2 days....I'm sure that you will get your answers soon Michelle, and I can't wait to receive an update on tomorrow's test!!!!

[BambolinaItaliana]

that is awesome congratz!!!!!! enjoy yourself and don't stress about it!!!!!!!! Congratz again!!!

[Mod-LadyCoconut]

DUDE... remember the whole... be positive... you get what you put into the universe bit?! Well don't focus on miscarrying! Don't focus on the negative... just like you said, embrace and positive! Try not to worry!


and a couple things... your bacon salute emoticon rocks! but your blinkie where the woman gets more and more pg freaks me out because you can watch her boobs sag!

[Mars]

Oh Michelle, you so deserve this and though you may be approaching it cautiously, I think it's great that you enjoy it from the beginning.

This is a great inspiration for so many others here that it can happen. The journey's not always easy but with a little persisitence, it can happen.

Oh honey! All I can say is that miracles DO happen, it happened for you, and you so very much deserve it. You're going to rock being pregnant, and you're going to rock as a mom!

[LisanAndy]

You DEFINITELY need to enjoy this pregnancy, you deserve it girl! I'm soooo happy for you We were just driving back from Wal Mart and I started thinking about you and was wondering how you were feeling. When the boards were messed up and I was a guest because I couldn't sign in and I saw you got your BFP I ran downstairs and told Andy LoL. I was like OMG, Andy there's this girl, Michelle, she's been trying for a 1 year and thanks to IUI she's pregnant!!!! He was like that's so awesome! I've never been so excited about a BFP in my life

Let me tell you something about HCG numbers...a lot of women get freaked out over that first number because it might seem "too low" for them....what matters, though, is that your HCG number is at least 25 or 30...as long as it is at least 25-30, then I think that it's a great sign. Everyone has different implantation times....my first HCG number was 31, and I was so worried over that number....I felt so discouraged, and I heard of many other women doing that as well. Now Michelle, if you are getting positive home pregnancy tests then your HCG numbers are most likely already in that range because the tests' sensitivity levels are about 25-30 (with some sensitive only at 50-100). Now what is important is the doubling of those numbers every 2-3 days....if you go in on Friday, then they should have at least doubled by Monday. Maybe your doctor will want to wait a little more to check your HCG numbers....just think of it as doubling every 2 days....I'm sure that you will get your answers soon Michelle, and I can't wait to receive an update on tomorrow's test!!!![/b]

Thanks for this Jen! You know I would have freaked with a lower then expected number too. I will update when I get the results

DUDE... remember the whole... be positive... you get what you put into the universe bit?! Well don't focus on miscarrying! Don't focus on the negative... just like you said, embrace and positive! Try not to worry!


and a couple things... your bacon salute emoticon rocks! but your blinkie where the woman gets more and more pg freaks me out because you can watch her boobs sag! [/b]

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Frickin hilarious! now I like the blinkie more

You DEFINITELY need to enjoy this pregnancy, you deserve it girl! I'm soooo happy for you We were just driving back from Wal Mart and I started thinking about you and was wondering how you were feeling. When the boards were messed up and I was a guest because I couldn't sign in and I saw you got your BFP I ran downstairs and told Andy LoL. I was like OMG, Andy there's this girl, Michelle, she's been trying for a 1 year and thanks to IUI she's pregnant!!!! He was like that's so awesome! I've never been so excited about a BFP in my life [/b]

Awh I tell Dustin all about you guys too even though he doesn't have a clue He just says, "that is great!" and gives me high fives. That was his exact reaction when I woke him up to tell him about Jen's BFP this morning