[Lash]

I'm seriously done with my body and TTC now. 19 days?? are you KIDDING? I've never had a cycle this short, and no its really bleeding, I've been bleeding all day. Its not spotting, it requires tampons, its not implantation. Its AF, fully here at 19 days. I"m done with TTC, I just am done. I'm done with my body and I guess we have to just wait it out

I dont even WANT to keep trying, but we have to to reach the magical 12 cycles of TTC to get into someone. I just dont even want this anymore

[Mars]

[alicenwonderland]

I'm so sorry, Lauren. I hope medical assistance will help you.

[Lash]

^ I just dont even care about meeting the criteria to get into to see anyone anymore.

That year rule is only meant for people that have no known issues. If we had followed that, we wouldn't have been able to see anyone until my preggo cycle. But it was very obvious we had issues, just as it is that you do. I hope you can just say "It has been a year" and get the help you need if you want to continue TTC right now. I know how frustrating it all is

[Lash]

I dont even know that I want this anymore. I just dont even want lots of doc visits and all that jazz. Maybe we just save to adopt and do this later-- Clint mentioned that today after I started. I just dont know that we'll even do the medical stuff. Maybe its just not our time

Dont most people finally get pregnant when they quit trying? Well these last 2 months should have been it, but no, not us. We've broken all the pregnancy myths now, the fertile after loss one, the using methods/lubes/herbal supplements, pregnant after waiting, pregnant after stopping, or I guess PREGNANCY AFTER TRYING TO GET PREGNANT!!!

None of them fit. I dont want sonograms, tests, medications, I dont want any of that right now. I guess I'm the reluctant one now Michelle

[lauren in hi]

[LisanAndy]

Praying for you Lauren ((HUGS))

[soImarriedAnerd]

I just don't know what to say, I have so many thoughts about this... here is a list please pick the one that makes you feel the best...
That SUCKS big time donkey balls.
Don't give up.
It will happen someday.
Take all the time you need (but don't leave us).

{{{{{{{{HUGGLES}}}}}}}}}}
I want to come over and slap around your girl parts to get then to straighten up!
I'm so sorry to hear about this.


Hope one of those helped. But here is one I want you to definitely take with you....I'm here for you if you need to rant or chat or anything!

[~* Helen *~]

Aww hun, I'm sorry

[*JenJen*]

I'm sorry hon. this whole TTC thing sucks #####. I hope you can find some peace and clarity and cooperation from your body soon

[lupti]

Hugs, Lauren! I am so sorry you are going through this. Know we are here for you, even if all we are able to do is listen!

[*Anna*]

I like what Angela said.

[petalfuzz]

I know exactly how you feel and I have "normal" cycles! So big-time huggles!!

thug: Im sorry sweetie

[*kyle*]

Ugh... efffffing body. I can't believe you have to go through this.

If it's not your 8-day LP, it's my 15-day-with-7-days-of-spotting one. Sometimes I hate, I just HATE mother nature.

Yes, you have broken all of the pat answers people normally have... and we all know that "relaxing" and "not thinking about it" can be just as arbitrarily futile as "trying" and "timing your BD."

I don't honestly know how much of your physical problems I share, at this point, all I know is that I totally empathize with how you must be feeling right now. Which is devastated and enraged. I also totally understand the urge to just give up TTC altogether because there are times it definitely does not feel like it is worth going through all of the frustration and heartache.

Please know I am here for you.

I'm right there with you Laur, I really am. I'm on Cycle 14 now. I know I haven't been on so regularly, but if you want to email me @ MichelleSchwinger@yahoo.com, I'm always around!!

[ShannonMVT]

That freaking sucks.

I broke all the pregnancy myths as well, none of that crap worked for me. More fertile after a loss, it will happen if I stop charting/trying, blah blah.

I just want you to know that I understand this is so frustrating for you. I can understand being reluctant. I really had started to gear myself up mentally for needing IUI, needing IVF, not having IVF work and going onto adoption. I know it gets to be too much to hope for, that it will happen. And maybe this isn't what you want to hear? but I really do think it will happen for you. I wish I could say when and how.

Lots of

[IamMom]

Lauren - this does suck. I feel so bad....I completely understand your feelings....TTC and having a baby is just one of those weird mysteries in life. People who want children so badly have such a hard time getting pregnant or lose children and then 12 years olds are out there getting accidently pregnant - it just doesn't make sense. I have to go with Angela's "donkey balls" personally....that one hits the nail on the head. Just know we are here for you - please don't leave us cause we all want to celebrate with you when you get that glorious BFP - cause you will girl!

I know what you will do. You will take it all one step at a time, reluctant as you may be, towards that sticky BFP. And if you do seek MA, just look at it as one step at a time

I'm sorry your TTC journey is a big horrible drag right now. I really wish I could wave a magic wand and make you pregnant. That would be so awesome. I dunno if it helps or not, but I started to feel a lot less reluctant mid treatments once my RE said IVF may be our only hope. I decided I could wait quite a while for it all to come together since IVF was completely out of the question for us. Just hold onto that hope. You know you can get pregnant, and it will happen again! Tons of hugs ((HUGS))