[alicenwonderland]

We will be preventing in Janurary then NTNP from then on. (Until we change our minds)
After that bloodtest, I find myself very apathetic about TTC. It was fun and exciting when I thought it would be easy. The reality of irregular and annovulatory cycles is making TTC more of an effort than I had hoped. I want TTC to be fun and right now I'm just stressed and tired. I'm going to let myself regulate a while. If things get more screwed up i'll probably go back on the pill until we are ready to put in some real effort. I'm 21 and I have plenty of time to try later.
I realize that I probably entered my REAL 2ww of this cycle, but I don't really care. It's like i've already decided in my mind.
(wow just had to take a break to puke) I think I need to get my health under control as well.

Don't get me wrong. This is not a melancholy "poor me" post. I'm happy to have my mind on something else for once.
DH and i decided to go to the Bahamas in February for my birthday! I am SOOOO excited. I plan to sun myself and drink a lot like a girl my age should. I also plan to give DH all the attention he deserves. I've been so distracted of late.

Of course, who knows how long this new mood will last ya know? I havn't decided if i'm going to chart or not.

[petalfuzz]

I can totally understand! I thought it'd be easy too, but when it doesn't happen you either get obsessive or you go with the flow. I'm lucky DH and I are just going with the flow and trust that it'll happen when it happens.

I hope you are still going to stick around here, chart or no!

[Mars]

Good luck with your plans. They sound great especially the trip to the Bahamas!!

Good luck with your plans sweetie I hear ya on the longgg cycles, its sooooo frustrating when it comes to TTC. Stupid uterus is that I say to mine

[Lash]

I 10000% understand what you are saying. I dont have pity me posts either, but more of a realistic "this sucks balls, its not fun, medical issues are involved and I cant invest tons of emotions into this all the time" type posts

I hear ya hon.... Big time... Right now, I keep telling myself, yeah, no preggo belly for me, I can go cruising and do whatever!! Charting ruined my mindset totally, it's way easier to deal without daily reminders! Please stick around!

[alicenwonderland]

Thanks ladies! I knew you would all be supportive. I dont' plan on going anywhere.

[bittersweet]

I sorry this has been so frusterating. I can only imagine. I havent decided if I want to chart at all while TTC b/c of reasons mentioned. I think giving DH more attention and going to the bahamas are great things to look forward to. I really hope NTNP results in an unexpected BFP for you.