I figured I'd spare the pregnant girls my b...itching and anger. 15 months now we've been at this game and I feel stupid for still being so hopeful. I feel like we WILL need IVF and we had agreed to wait until we were both 25-- Mike turns 24 in 2 days to explore IVF. I'm considering using NY's Assisted Infertility fund like Sam did. But like I said, Mike really wants to wait another year.

Another year? How many friend's pregnancies will I have to sit back and watch? I want my kids to be close to their cousins, and the only ones they are going to have {Unless my 28 yo brother who DOES NOT WANT CHILDREN changes his mind} are already almost 10, six, and well, Nicky.. Nicky is just over 2 weeks old.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I'm so tired of this. I know it's passing and by the time I should O I will probably be back in the game but every 28 days these horrible feelings come and I'm just supper pissed and frustrated.

I found this PostSecret and while I feel horrible, it's true!

[ANGWife]

We've talked, and you know I'm always praying for you and Mike.

[Mod-LadyCoconut]

[A*LOT*OF*HOPE]

You are also in my thoughts Michelle!!!! On a lighter note though, we are both CD 1 so you know what that means.........CYCLE BUDDIES!!!!!! But seriously if you ever need to talk I am here for you, ok??? Seriously!!!!!

Thanks girls! I stopped by my family home, by that I mean, where my mom, sister, and the rest of the fam {even my dad is moving back in soon} live, and I didn't even hold my baby nephew, just looked at him, and played with his hair, and I feel better. Most people would prob. be upset by that, but babies somehow restore my faith..

I that little guy and I'm so glad his heart is all better.. His hand and feet are warm, he's normal colored, and I just can't get enough!! I want to give him a cousin soooooo badly, but for the moment-- maybe it's the ice wine talking, but I'm feeling better.

YAY for CBs! Now there are 3 of us on the exact same CD!



Lauren {Lash} and I seem to be pretty close most cycles.. I wonder where she's at!

I wish I were a doctor and could give you free IVF

[*JenJen*]

I feel your pain. I'm here if you ever want to talk.

[alicenwonderland]

I'm sorry Michelle. TTC sucks when you aren't getting any results. I'm glad that NYS at least has that fund available. I have this blinkie in my photobucket, but i would feel too guilty to use it. But it's how i've been feeling. (especially now that AF is starting and I'll be on cycle 5)



love ya girl! I hope it happens for you soon!

[midnight_starr]

I love you and I am always crossing my fingers for you Drop me a line whenever you need to vent, I'm always here!

I'm sorry Michelle. TTC sucks when you aren't getting any results. I'm glad that NYS at least has that fund available. I have this blinkie in my photobucket, but i would feel too guilty to use it. But it's how i've been feeling. (especially now that AF is starting and I'll be on cycle 5)



love ya girl! I hope it happens for you soon![/b]

I really feel for all you girls TTC. I remember when I was TTC, and I started about a month or two after Breanna. The cycle she got her BFP, I thought I would get mine, and I was crushed when it didn't happen. Then I thought that I would surely get pregnant by the time she had Reid, and when that too didn't happen I was pretty frustrated. I would get upset becuase the forum seemed to be all about pregnancies sometimes, and that was when we had a lot less preggos then we do now. We have both a lot more preggo ladies and pregnancy related topics now, and I know that must suck butt sometimes for the TTCers. For me, of course I am going to talk about being preggo a lot since it took me a while, and I really worked my butt off to get pregnant--so it is an issue of pride, like I finally conquered PCOS. But that doesn't mean I still don't like to hear all about the TTCers. And I think it is natural for all the preggo talk to be annoying at times to the TTCers, no matter how long it took some of us to conceive. TTC just stinks!

I for one don't mind hearing about TTC, including all the ugly parts, and I am seriously rooting for all of you to get a BFP soon.

[ShannonMVT]

I would get upset becuase the forum seemed to be all about pregnancies sometimes, and that was when we had a lot less preggos then we do now. We have both a lot more preggo ladies and pregnancy related topics now, and I know that must suck butt sometimes for the TTCers. For me, of course I am going to talk about being preggo a lot since it took me a while, and I really worked my butt off to get pregnant--so it is an issue of pride, like I finally conquered PCOS. But that doesn't mean I still don't like to hear all about the TTCers. And I think it is natural for all the preggo talk to be annoying at times to the TTCers, no matter how long it took some of us to conceive. TTC just stinks![/b]

I remember too, it freaking sucked. The only thing that cheered me was all of Michelle's crazy bacon posts. Just know that you are in my thoughts and I am rooting for you and hope that it happens for you soon.

[Lash]

Thanks girls! I stopped by my family home, by that I mean, where my mom, sister, and the rest of the fam {even my dad is moving back in soon} live, and I didn't even hold my baby nephew, just looked at him, and played with his hair, and I feel better. Most people would prob. be upset by that, but babies somehow restore my faith..

I that little guy and I'm so glad his heart is all better.. His hand and feet are warm, he's normal colored, and I just can't get enough!! I want to give him a cousin soooooo badly, but for the moment-- maybe it's the ice wine talking, but I'm feeling better.

YAY for CBs! Now there are 3 of us on the exact same CD!



Lauren {Lash} and I seem to be pretty close most cycles.. I wonder where she's at![/b]

I"m here, I dont check this section much so I totally missed this post. As far as in my cycle, I'm in day 9 today
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1479e3

I can post a million times that I get it, and I do get it but never in the same way you will or have the same experience you do. Punch as many walls as you need to, its an emotion that is indescribable, its beyond words.

[*Mrs.J.2011*]

I'm sorry Michelle! I know I havent been TTC as long as you, but you know that I feel for you. Like Michelle said, I wish I could give you free IVF too! You and Mike deserve to be mommy and daddy.. and I cant wait until it happens for you!