Post a secret or a confession! It feels good to let it out

I used to be LDS, AKA Mormon. I converted when I was a teenager. At one point I was super active and I did read the Book of Mormon cover to cover. But after asking more questions, taking a trip to Utah (there is something different about Utah Mormons), and months of self loathing, it ended. I call it my teenage rebellion

Oh and technically I still am a member. You should see the looks on missionaries faces I meet on the street when I tell them I am already a member! Ha!

[*JenJen*]

I didn't know that Michelle! I'm Mormon but rebelled in my teenage years, lol. I'm active now though.

uhhh...a confession.......I ate an entire bag of cool ranch doritos for lunch the other day. AF was here and I was cranky and hungry.

[CandaceDianne]

If I didn't have an conscience (sp?) I would go off of bcps after AF comes this weekend so DH and I could BD and MAYBE get a ! BUT, I couldn't and wouldn't do that to him.

[KatiInCT]

Michelle can I steal your secret?

I attended the LDS church starting at age 9 (when my dad married my step mom in the Idaho Falls temple, dad is a convert). I went on and off and dragged my feet for most of my early teen years but went gung-ho in high school and decided to be baptized when I was 16 (the May before I left for college in Virginia). I was quite active all through college being a stake missionary, attending multiple institute ("bible study") classes per week, reading the Book of Mormon, traveling to all the church history sites, etc. When I graduated college I came back home and continued to be active in the church and at one point was even the Young Women's president (in charge of all 12-18 year old girls in the church). Then I moved, went to the church in my new area for 4 months and realized that I was going for all the wrong reasons. I haven't been back since February 2006. Has it really been 3 years?

In those three years I have not been approached by any missionaries but keep waiting for the day. HAHA. I see them walking on my street all the time but they never knock on my door. Every once in a while I get a ward newsletter so they do have my address.

So there is my big "secret".

ETA: ...and sometimes I wonder if my m/c was punishment for the last 3 years...

[Angelaosaurus-rex]

Haha I used to be a Jehovah's Witnesses when I was a kid.

Michelle can I steal your secret?

I attended the LDS church starting at age 9 (when my dad married my step mom in the Idaho Falls temple, dad is a convert). I went on and off and dragged my feet for most of my early teen years but went gung-ho in high school and decided to be baptized when I was 16 (the May before I left for college in Virginia). I was quite active all through college being a stake missionary, attending multiple institute ("bible study") classes per week, reading the Book of Mormon, traveling to all the church history sites, etc. When I graduated college I came back home and continued to be active in the church and at one point was even the Young Women's president (in charge of all 12-18 year old girls in the church). Then I moved, went to the church in my new area for 4 months and realized that I was going for all the wrong reasons. I haven't been back since February 2006. Has it really been 3 years?

In those three years I have not been approached by any missionaries but keep waiting for the day. HAHA. I see them walking on my street all the time but they never knock on my door. Every once in a while I get a ward newsletter so they do have my address.

So there is my big "secret".

ETA: ...and sometimes I wonder if my m/c was punishment for the last 3 years...[/b]

Your miscarriage wasn't punishment Kati. That was one of the worst things about religion for me--the guilt. I ended up second guessign everything and lost trust in myself.

But you were a hard core member huh!? YW President!

(Edited b/c for some stoopid reason I called you Alice. I guess you remind me of Alice in Wonderland lol)

Keeping the theme of religion....

My friend and I cheated during a game at youth group. We won a huge bag of skittles. We cheated AT CHURCH during a BIBLE TRIVIA GAME to win CANDY!

Another one...

My 18 year old sister says that she wants to wait until she's married to have sex. I secrely hope that she has already slept with her boyfriend. They've been together for a year! I feel rude asking her. haha.

[ShannonMVT]

My friend and I cheated during a game at youth group. We won a huge bag of skittles. We cheated AT CHURCH during a BIBLE TRIVIA GAME to win CANDY! [/b]

Omg, that is so funny! You bad, girl you! Hahaha.

I guess the best I can come up with is that I used to HATE my in-laws. My FIL is orginally from Iran, and although he is a Christian now, he had some very extreme views on dating, etc, because of his upbringing and culture. Dh and I started dating in high school. When I went to college and he was in his senior year of high school, his parents decided we were too serious. They told him he had to break up with me or else they wouldn't pay for his college and would basically disown him. It was really, really bad. We did break up for awhile, which broke my heart. We got back together once he got to college and just didn't tell his parents for awhile. When we got engaged, they finally dealt with it and started being nice to me. I really still hated them for awhile, I think understandably so. Eventually I got to the point where I forgave them and I do feel much better to not be carrying that hate around. I would have NEVER thought back then that I could have a good relationship with them, but I do now. (Minus the usual in-law annoyingness.) My faith was actually a really important key to being able to forgive them.

[soImarriedAnerd]

I converted to Bahai (leaving Roman Catholic) but haven't really told much of my family or his because I don't want to deal with them about it......it will be bad. The way I plan to tell them is when the little bug is here we will not be doing a Catholic Baptism, we will do a Lutheran (DH's is that) and a devotional service for Bahai....I figure they can't get as mad with a little one in their arms.

[alicenwonderland]

since all our secrets seem to be religious in nature....

I was in a cult in my mid teenage years.... I just didn't know it. My youthgroup leader held meetings at his aunts home telling only some of us, that we had been called specially by God because of our gifts and that he had been sent a message that we needed to witness to demons as well as humans. It was really twisted, lots of literal spiritual warfare, and people being possessed. A stop was put to it when I wrote a letter to a good friend, inviting him to join us. His parents had controls on his e-mail and found it. There was a meeting at the church, the leader was fired, and all of us kids ended up having several meetings with the pastor. I was a new christian and my youth leader was the one that told me... I just thought there was more to christianity than I thought. The only upside was that I met DH. Dh was not in the cult, he was a friend of the youth leader as a child. The youth leader was just smart and didn't tell him anything because he knew DH would disagree. We are still friendly with said cult leader, we just are careful around him and are convinced he's mentally ill. DH says he can't abandon that man that used to be his best friend. He is now divorced from his too young cult bride, unemployed, very ill, and homeless. He lives with his aunt who happens to live across the street from us.

I still consider myself a christian, but I have a really hard time being spiritual. When I try to get close to God it reminds me of that time in my life. It's a continuing struggle.

Religious in nature, I attempted to convert to Judaism this past fall, and was rejected because I married Mike while knowing my beliefs and he is not a Jew. Also, because we had already talked about it and agreed we wouldn't "push religion" on an future DCs.

The secret part is, since then, I have questioned my beliefs many time, have been reading through the New Testament and other Christian books/wesbites wondering if I could really believe that Jesus is the son of God, and I'm finding myself almost maybe leaning towards "yes" {Still not sure though}. I made fun of "those crazy Catholics" while attending Catholic university and being forced to take Christian/Catholic courses to graduate.

I have been talking with the woman who runs a program at the local Catholic church for religious ed. and fellowship {but not RCIA} for 20-somethings/ or newlywed Christians, and I believe the goals is to create some new Catholics. I asked Mike if he would be willing to go with me once, and he is. I was planning, yes planning to go tomorrow, but we are both feeling pretty cruddy. I haven't told anyone IRL about this because everyone has known what I used to claim I was sure. My major "problem" with the Church is some of the harsher Pre- Vatican II behaviors, and while I still don't believe that Jesus IS for certain the son of God, and cannot reconcile some things in my head and heart, I think I am almost ready to begin accepting the good with the bad, because the "Good" strongly outweighs the "bad".

ETA: Hi Amy and Jenn, if you read this {My college roomie/great friend and my BFF who are active members on JM}, you know my secret now. I realized I might as well say something so if you read this you don't think I was hiding anything major! I guess now's the point to bring it up in our next long conversations}

[Adriana's Mommy]

My confession is that I purchased Cucumber Melon baby lotion online today without telling my husband. It's not the J&J kind, but something much better and smells wonderful. He'll find out when he does bills tonight.. hehe.. I'm so bad..

I converted to Bahai (leaving Roman Catholic) but haven't really told much of my family or his because I don't want to deal with them about it......it will be bad. The way I plan to tell them is when the little bug is here we will not be doing a Catholic Baptism, we will do a Lutheran (DH's is that) and a devotional service for Bahai....I figure they can't get as mad with a little one in their arms.[/b]

My family (mom, dad, sisters) and I are Evangelical Christians.. But the rest of my family are Catholics.. We are the Black sheep of our family.. lol But it doesn't bother me.. But I totally understand why you want to wait..

[niknok]

I'm still extremely angry and resentful towards my parents for not being supportive during my first pregnancy. They have no idea......

[A*LOT*OF*HOPE]

Well, I have no religion secrets, but lets see if I can think of another one!! Oh.....I spent $100 online last night and ordered 3 shirts and a dress, and didn't and won't tell DH!!!!! I should have put that towards our furniture or something, but, I needed some cute tops for my trip!!

[.Brandi.]

DH is the only person I've had sex with. I'm proud and embarrassed to admit that!

[KatiInCT]

DH is the only person I've had sex with. I'm proud and embarrassed to admit that![/b]

:-) Although DH has been with other people... Sometimes I wonder how I compare.

[alicenwonderland]

DH is the only person I've had sex with. I'm proud and embarrassed to admit that![/b]

We have that in common.

[.Brandi.]

:-) Although DH has been with other people... Sometimes I wonder how I compare.
[/b]

You should ask. I did! My Dh also has been with other people.

Another for me: I feel guilty having two successful pregnancies when some of our WTTC grads have had miscarriages. I'm very thankful for my boys!

[bittersweet]

Well, I have no religion secrets, but lets see if I can think of another one!! Oh.....I spent $100 online last night and ordered 3 shirts and a dress, and didn't and won't tell DH!!!!! I should have put that towards our furniture or something, but, I needed some cute tops for my trip!![/b]

Ok...3 shirts and a dress for $100 shouldnt be a secret, you should be bragging about that one! What a steal.


My secret. We're moving soon and we briefly discussed what price rage to stay in for a new place. I have since ignored/selectivly forgot that conversation :biggrin:

[soImarriedAnerd]

You should ask. I did! My Dh also has been with other people.

Another for me: I feel guilty having two successful pregnancies when some of our WTTC grads have had miscarriages. I'm very thankful for my boys!
[/b]

Ok I say DON'T ask. One of my secrets---DH is the worst sex of my life, by a lot, and I Lie to him about that! You can't tell the person you love they suck or you've had much better. I'm not with him because of the sex, I'm with him because of the love