Pictures and update

ANGWife · #1 April 13th, 2009, 02:09 PM

So I'm having very mixed feeling as this pregnancy is ending! I'm hoping at least a few BTDT moms can relate. Blame it on hormones I suppose...

On one hand, I want this boy to come TODAY! I wake up everyday, and for a brief moment I forget I'm pregnant. Then I try to get out of bed and struggle with this pumpkin belly. I'm still not getting much sleep, even though I try to rest as much as I can. The swelling hasn't been as terrible since I'm avoiding alot of salty foods. I know you're going to say you can't see them in the pictures, but I have stretch marks under my belly button area, and they are growing in amount. I am SO ready to meet this baby and start our family. Everything is pretty much set for his arrival, now it's up to him.

But then I'm not so sure I want him to come. For almost 9 months, it's been me and him. Sure, DH has been supportive, helping me whenever I need anything. But our baby boy has relied solely on his mama. I think my parenting definitely has already begun. He just relies on me to eat the right foods, to take the right precautions, and to do my best for him. After he is born, it won't just be me anymore. His daddy can change his diapers, his nana can rock him to sleep, and his grandma can read him books. It's not that I don't have confidence in DH or our mothers/etc. I realize they can and WILL do things differently than I do. I'm going to try to breastfeed. But other than that, he tecnically doesn't need his mama anymore. Does that make sense? Sure right now, he's digging his foot in my ribs and causing me alot of pain. But I think I will miss his little movements that he shares with me. I'm never going to be pregnant with our first child again. And these things make me very sad.

Anyways, only 20 days to go!

36 weeks

37 weeks

Frozendesire · #2 April 13th, 2009, 03:07 PM

Hun, nothing and no one will be able to replace you!!! Even if his Grandma can rock him to sleep or Daddy can read him a book... when he's sick or extra clingy or even in just the right mood, the ONLY person that can help him or make him feel secure is you. Even with Curtis who is 2 years old... he wants me at times and ONLY me. You will have an incredibly strong bond still with him even when he makes his wonderful debut!! You are already on the right track to being such a wonderful mother. Plus watching your mothers and your hubby take care of him will actually melt your heart. Seeing those bonds is amazing

You look so beautiful. Pregnancy is so very amazing but mother hood is too

It's a whole other step in this journey.

midnight_starr · #3 April 13th, 2009, 03:15 PM

You look great Morgan!!! I can't believe its almost time for you!!!!

IamMom · #4 April 13th, 2009, 03:52 PM

OH Morgan that was neat reading what you wrote - your thoughts about your baby boy and your bond with him

But just like Steph said - motherhood is even more amazing....you will continue to share special things with him that no one else will. Like when I go get my little boy in the morning and he says "Mommy - you look like a princess"...it melts my heart.....he never tells his daddy that! And you know what - your future pregnancies will give you special feelings as well....I am amazed at the different feelings I have with this baby and how it feels like the first time all over again sometimes. I am getting sad about this being the LAST time I will feel a baby moving inside of me ever again...how's that for not wanting it to end!

I'm sure our parents still say there are special things and moments they share with us!

I cannot believe its almost time - and your right I see NO stretch marks girl.....you look cute as a button!

#5 April 13th, 2009, 04:09 PM

Holy wow there he is!!!

Looking good Mama!

HopeWishWait · #6 April 13th, 2009, 05:13 PM

I felt the same way, like I just wanted Conner to want me because I'd been the only one taking care of him for so long. But guess what? After he was born....he really did only want me

Nic can do all the things you mentioned but there are a lot of times every day that the only thing that calms him down is being with me. So I dont think you have anything to worry about!

You look fantastic by the way

I can't believe it's here already!

#7 April 13th, 2009, 05:30 PM

Aww, Morgan

You look beautiful!

And you are wrong about him not needing you after he is born.

He will be tired and fussy, but the second he is cozy in your arms, he will be content. He knows that you are his mommy, and even though Reid is 7 months old, we still have that womb-like connection. There is no one that he will feel safer or happier with than YOU.

**Jenn** · #8 April 13th, 2009, 05:47 PM

Aw Morgan, I get everything that you're feeling. I struggled with that with each pregnancy, especially my first. It was really hard to share once the baby was born. Maybe its selfish but I really liked being the only one that could take care of him and feel him moving all the time. As painful as it was toward the end and as much as I couldn't wait to meet them its also a feeling that I wanted to last forever! Its a feeling I can't wait to feel again! And you will have a special connection with each baby. Its funny how you think your heart can't possibly hold anymore love but then you have another baby and the love is just there.

He will still need you once he's born. Both my boys would only go with me for a very long time. Even now at over 3 years old there are a lot of times that Liam only wants me and Lochlann is very much a Mommy's boy too. They go for walks outside with Grandma and specifically pick flowers just for me. It is an amazing experience to be a Mommy and you're going to be a great one! Just enjoy and savor these last few days having him all to yourself and when he's ready to meet you, you will fall even more in love with him.

*krista* · #9 April 13th, 2009, 06:25 PM

Morgan, you look absolutely gorgeous! Your belly is perfect!

soImarriedAnerd · #10 April 13th, 2009, 10:58 PM

You look great! Hang in there your almost done baking that little man!

#11 April 13th, 2009, 11:11 PM

I KWYM about the pregnancy thing... I've had my one and only pregnancy, I'll never experience a baby moving inside me again or giving birth. That saddens me a lot as I enjoyed my pregnancy so much, however I just have to concentrate on Kirsty being with us.

Ditto all the other posts. I'm having SUCH a hard time letting kirsty go with MIL or SIL for even an hour, in my mind I have all the "they wont hold her like she likes to be held, or talk to her how she likes to play & talk"... but then again, you know the phrase what you don't know, wont hurt you? I think like that... I wont know what she's up to when at their house but I know she is safe, fed, warm & loved with them.

Only you can give your baby "mummy cuddles" and only you can talk to your baby how you do. And 100%, whole heartedly... only you can comfort him at certain times, not daddy, not grandma, no one else but you

You look fabulous! I can't believe you're almost fully baked! It's so excited!!

freesiangel · #12 April 14th, 2009, 08:02 AM

You look amazing!! I can't believe it's almost time!

freesiangel · #13 April 14th, 2009, 08:48 AM

Grrr. Double post.

#14 April 14th, 2009, 08:56 AM

You look great! I can't relate to your feelings, but it all sounds like special mommy love feelings to me. A baby in my belly is too abstract for me to really "get it" half the time

I feel more squishy feelings when I see his pics, so I cannot wait until his birth day! I think it is great how you are treasuring this expereince.

Mars · #15 April 14th, 2009, 02:43 PM

You look lovely!!

I can understand what you mean about being pregnant but I was one of those persons who, though I had a great pregnancy, did not really "love, love" it. I loved creating the miracle and the knowledge of growing a little persons inside me but I was always worried about the unknown. Worried if the baby was alright, worried if she was growing well, worried if I was doing all that I could to ensure that she would develop into a healthy baby.

As for someone taking care of the baby, I too feel like if no-one will be able to take care of her like I will but I'm trying to learn not to bother about it.

ShannonMVT · #16 April 16th, 2009, 09:12 PM

Awww, you look great Morgan!

I have mixed feelings about having my baby too. I really think I am going to miss feeling him move around inside and miss my belly. Even though I feel huge and ready to have him, I know I'll miss being pregnant. It makes me sad to think there is no way I can ever "relive" what it's like to have him moving around inside me.

Resi · #17 April 17th, 2009, 06:07 AM

It sounds like all normal feeling to me. I personally was in no hurry to have my baby when I was pregnant because I knew I would miss being pregnant. I wanted to treasure every moment of it becaues I knew it might be my one and only. The first few months I wanted to be the only one to care for him and hated leaving him for any amount of time. I felt like I knew what he liked best and it bothered me when others didn't. I would want to take him back in my arms when he started to fuss.

I think I know what you are saying about him not really needing you once he is born. Do you mean he can go on and survive without you if he had to? Right now he is in your belly and you supply EVERYTHING to keep him going. Once he is born he could get by without you to live. As the others said you will continue a very special bond and it will become stronger and stronger.