Back to the drawing board.

alicenwonderland · #1 June 29th, 2009, 06:09 PM

I went to the bathroom this morning and found blood on the TP. I decided to take my last FRER to see what was going on. It was stark white negative. I guess this pregnancy is over. I cried and screamed this morning.... so now i'm just kind of numb. However, I am confident that we will get pregnant faster this time. We plan on trying again immediately. Matt just breaks my heart. He has these silent tears. He ended up coming home early from work and crying silently next to me. It was my SIL's bday today, and we still went. Matt had called ahead to tell his family not to mention it. I saw my MIL go to the kitchen frequently to blot her eyes. I think what makes this the hardest, is that I have to relive the sadness everytime I tell someone it's over. I wish it hadn't gotten out so quickly. (My sister announced it on facebook and I just went with it) I'm just wondering when it's really going to be over. I'm still barely spotting. I have an appointment on wednesday to check and make sure my assumption is right. (only i was so in hysterics on the phone that i'm not sure if i got the date right.) They told me wednesday, and I assumed this week, but that doesn't give very long for nature to take it's course. She was talking about doing an ultrasound to make sure everything had passed.

HopeWishWait · #2 June 29th, 2009, 06:12 PM

Oh no..Alice, I am so sorry hun.

Mod-LadyCoconut · #3 June 29th, 2009, 06:14 PM

Oh I am so sorry to read this! :grouphugs:

LaLaRose3 · #4 June 29th, 2009, 06:20 PM

I am so so sorry, sweetie.

We are here for you.

~*Bethy*~ · #5 June 29th, 2009, 06:25 PM

were all here for you, I hope it was just normal spotting and a bad test!

szczepanski · #6 June 29th, 2009, 06:32 PM

Oh Alice. I am so so very sorry. My heart breaks for you and Matt....I am just so very, very sorry.

I hope it was just a dud test.....if anything, the line should just be faint. You will still have the HCG in your system to make a line appear until everything has passed, in case you are indeed miscarrying. I really urge you to go get another pack of FRER's and see if there is a line...I was still testing positive two weeks after I thought my miscarriage was over - and I still got a pretty dark line. Thats how I knew I hadn't passed everything and the baby was just at right where we are now - 4/5 weeks developed.

Please let me know if you have any questions about what is going on, what you can expect, or if you need someone to talk to or cry with or anything. I can PM you my cell # if you want and you can just text me or whatever.

I am so so very sorry you have to go through this. It is just so unfair.

*krista* · #7 June 29th, 2009, 06:39 PM

Oh Alice!! No no no no no! I'm so sorry. I wish I could give you a real hug, though I know it probably wouldn't make you feel any better.

I'm just so, so sorry.

KatiInCT · #8 June 29th, 2009, 06:44 PM

Oh Alice! *sending you lots of hugs* I know it's not easy.

alicenwonderland · #9 June 29th, 2009, 07:02 PM

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Originally Posted by szczepanski

Oh

I hope it was just a dud test.....if anything, the line should just be faint.

unfortunatley i very much doubt that. I've had 3 negative or VERY lightly positive tests today. The FRER was just the clincher. My tests have been getting lighter since 15dpo. I was just hoping it was a fluke. I think i actually lost the baby way early. Most of my symptoms did disappear. Nausea is the only one that remains.

szczepanski · #10 June 29th, 2009, 07:11 PM

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Originally Posted by alicenwonderland

unfortunatley i very much doubt that. I've had 3 negative or VERY lightly positive tests today. The FRER was just the clincher. My tests have been getting lighter since 15dpo. I was just hoping it was a fluke. I think i actually lost the baby way early. Most of my symptoms did disappear. Nausea is the only one that remains.

I'm so sorry.

Nausea was my last symptom to hang around as well....I remember waking up every morning and bawling because I was still had morning sickness. Its such a cruel process.

Again, please let me know if you have any questions about what to expect or what is going on....it can be so scary.

I think its great that you guys are going to try again soon. You are most fertile right after a miscarriage - I guess its Mother Natures way of attempting to apologize.

Please keep me posted on how you are doing. I'll be thinking about you.