[Resi]

Someone in my playgroup posted this today and it really chocked me up. I thought it was perfect for my other post today.

*As I hold your hand*

As I hold your hand basking in the glow of our magical relationship,
I suddenly feel a kick from within,
as if to remind me that our time alone is limited.
And I wonder:
How could I ever love another child as I love you?

Then he is born, and I watch you.
I watch the pain you feel at having to share me,
as you've never shared me before.
I hear you telling me in your own way,
"Please love only me."
And I hear myself telling you in mine,
"I can't," knowing, in fact, that I never can again.
You cry. I cry with you.
I almost see our new baby as an intruder
on the precious relationship we once shared.
A relationship we can never quite have again.
But then, barely noticing,
I find myself attached to that new being,
and feeling almost guilty.
I'm afraid to let you see me enjoying him.
--as though I am betraying you.
But then I notice your resentment change,
first to curiosity, then to protectiveness,
finally to genuine affection.
More days pass, and we are settling into a new routine.

The memory of days with just the two of us is fading fast.
But something else is replacing those wonderful times we shared, just we two.
There are new times--only now, we are three.
I watch the love between you grow,
the way you look at each other,
touch each other.
I watch how he adores you--as I have for so long.
I see how excited you are by each of his new accomplishments.
And I begin to realize that I haven't taken something from you,
I've given something to you.
I noticed that I am no longer afraid to share my love openly with both of you.
I find that my love for each of you is as different as you are, but equally strong.
And my question is finally answered, to my amazement...
Yes, I can love another child as much as I love you--
only differently.
And although I realize that you may have to share my time,
I now know you'll never share my love.
There's enough of that for both of you
--you each have your own supply.
I love you--both
and I thank you for blessing my life

[~*Bethy*~]

that is amazing!

[.Brandi.]

Oh, Resi, I'm crying my eyes out!!!! This is so true!!!! Oh my goodness! I have two journals that I keep, and in them I write letters to the boys, one for Edward and one for Preston. I'm going to write this in Edward's journal......because this is exactly word for word how I felt and feel since having Preston. As I read this, I remember the moment I brough Preston home and how much Edward's little world changed. And I was so heartbroken because I was afraid that I had betrayed him, and......as the poem says..........I now see how beautiful they are together. How well they play together. And I truely do love them equally, but very differently!!!! Thank you for posting this.....I wish I could have read this before I brough Preston home!

[**Jenn**]

Originally Posted by Brandi84

Oh, Resi, I'm crying my eyes out!!!! This is so true!!!! Oh my goodness! I have two journals that I keep, and in them I write letters to the boys, one for Edward and one for Preston. I'm going to write this in Edward's journal......because this is exactly word for word how I felt and feel since having Preston. As I read this, I remember the moment I brough Preston home and how much Edward's little world changed. And I was so heartbroken because I was afraid that I had betrayed him, and......as the poem says..........I now see how beautiful they are together. How well they play together. And I truely do love them equally, but very differently!!!! Thank you for posting this.....I wish I could have read this before I brough Preston home!

Word for word!

It's amazing how in an instant you can go from uncertainty and guilt to joy and amazement. No my relationship with Liam will never be the same as it was before Lochlann came into the world, it has changed, and I think it has changed for the better. It's an incredible thing just how much love we are capable of. It's never ending.

[KellyJ009]

I'm sobbing!!! Oh my goodness. This is kind of in response to your other thread as well, Resi, but here is my struggle--I am an only child, so I realize how wonderful it is not to have to share my parents with anyone. But I also missed out on having a sibling (which others tell me is wonderful, I guess you can't miss something you never had). I feel quite sure we will have at least one more child (biological or adopted), but sometimes when I am nursing Hallie or rocking her to sleep, I feel real pain thinking she will have to share me and thinking how when another comes along, there won't be days of just me and her. This poem made me realize that I will be able to love another child as much as her, and that she will be okay as well. Thank you so much for sharing it!

[Mod-LadyCoconut]

[Mars]

[Trannyfromtheuk]

OMGosh, that is a wonderful poem, so touching