Thanks ladies.. I'm doing ok. I'm kind of numb right now to it all

I'm trying to keep busy with wedding stuff but I get sidetracked because I have no idea how we are going to pay for the size wedding we are planning. We are hoping to win the lottery haha but I guess that would mean we needed to play the lottery and well we clearly aren't the lucky type of people. Thanks for checking in on me. It means a lot!