[Bre*n*Will=Reid]

I'm leaving for Seattle in 2 1/2 hours...for 4 days...without Reid or DH. My sister is 33 weeks pregnant and I'm going up for her baby shower, to see their new home and to take her maternity pics. I have been looking forward to this for MONTHS, but now that it's actually here I'm freaking out.

I feel so much more connected with Reid since I've been home with him these last 3 weeks. I just enjoy his company so, so much. My heart aches thinking about being away from him (and so FAR away) for 4 days. The longest I have ever been away from him was a day and a half and that time I was only 2 hours away. This time I'm two states away. Also, the last time I was away, I woke up in the middle of the night and nearly had a panic attack. I was on a houseboat with no cell reception and would have had to take a 30 mins boat ride to shore plus 2 hour drive and I didn't even have my own car (rode with friends). It took everything in me to not freak out and to go back to sleep. The next day all I could think about was getting home.

Don't get me wrong, I'm very much looking forward to having a solo trip, being able to sleep in, do my own thing and hang out with adults. I'm just scared that I'm going to have an anxiety attack or something I'm literally shaking right now and feel like I can't breath right. It's kind of crazy. I feel like a total freak!

I just wanted to share with you guys because I figured that if anyone would understand it would be you guys I don't want to tell my sis and DH thinks I'm being silly (although I know he would totally miss Reid if he was away for this long too)

[greeneyes]

I totally know how you feel. I'll be in Chicago next week for five days, I've never been away from my babies for that long! I have every faith in Lee but I know I'll still worry about the girls the whole time I'm gone.

I'm going to bring my laptop so we can video chat at night - is that an option for you??

[Angelaosaurus-rex]

((HUGS)) for both you and Kate! Video chatting is a good idea! You can also call him, speaker phone works best for this. Reid is going to have good male bonding time with daddy!!! I know its hard but I really hope you have a good time!

I know how you feel. I get all weird after an hour away from Jack. I miss him so much when he is asleep, that I sneak in and stare at him or secretly hope he will wake up to eat. It actually doesn't bother me when he wakes in the middle of the night other then lack of sleep. Now that's sick! I hope the feeling eases up some

[bittersweet]

Awe, I can understand how you feel. My DH has been gone for 2 weeks now (comes home tomorrow, yay!) and it's been miserable for both of us. He misses her so so much and has a hard time sleeping.

This is just you being a good mommy and it is natural. I would just try to enjoy your trip as much as you can. You are not being silly as all though.

[midnight_starr]

(((HUGS))) Everything will be ok!!! You will get through it!!!

[amazing_love]

Awww, i can imagine how hard that would be! Camden isn't here yet but i guarantee i'll have a really hard time being away from him for even just a little while, let alone for several days. You'll get through it though!!! I hope you're able to have a good time!

Bre!! I hope you are able to enjoy your vacation! Is video chatting an option?

[ANGWife]

I don't have much advice, only that I understand. I have no issues leaving Hank with family for a few hours to get things done, but much longer than that and I get really anxious to get back to him. He's 10 and 1/2 months and I still can't spend the night without him.

[Resi]

Your going to do fine and have fun. The great thing is you have so much time now to spend with him that a little break will be just fine. It sounds like you are really enjoying being home with him. I've been wondering how things are going for you.

When I'm gone for a couple hours to do some shopping I always feel so rushed to get back to Oliver. I can understand how your feeling just like all of us moms can.

[faith*hope*love]

I couldn't even begin to imagine how you are feeling, I hope that you make it through your vacation and enjoy a little of it.

[ShannonMVT]

I can understand how you feel. I've never been away from Matthew more than about 3 hours and even at that I get anxious and wonder how he's doing. I've found it helps if I allow myself to call if I start feeling too anxious. Even if my mom or Dh thinks it's silly, it still makes me feel better to hear them say he is fine.

I'd also suggest staying busy while you are there, spend all your time with your sis or other family so you don't have to much time to just sit and think about it, kwim? And the video chatting others have suggested or speaker phone is a great idea!

I hope you are able to enjoy your visit without too much worry. I guess this is part of being a mom!

[freesiangel]

I'm sorry sweetie! I totally get it, I haven't been away from Xander yet, but just the thought freaks me out. But I'm sure you're going to do just great! You've already had a trial run and it's gotta get easier each time. Right?

[*Anna*]

I totally understand how you feel Bre... today I was away from Alexa for the longest time ever for us... 1 hour 40 mins!!!! Eeeee! I was sooooo happy to see her when I got back home... and I had tears in my eyes!!! But I couldn't imagine days.... but you can do it! Sounds like you will be very busy to keep your mind off of worrying... and DH and Reid will have good bonding time... and video chatting sounds fun!!!

How fun to see your sis preggo and do her maternity pics

[Chelnae6]

((((HUGS))))) I'm pretty sure it wont b as bad as u think. Just b sure to call often. I'm pretty sure Reid will miss you and if he could pick up the phone and dial you himself, he would.

[ScottishBrit]

Im sorry Bre I dont know how I would do it either. Ive never been away from Cambria and Im with her 24/7! It will be a nice get away for you though and at least you know Reid is in good hands! There gonna have so much fun together.

[LisanAndy]

I understand how you feel. I've never left either of them (other than to have Rylie and I called to talk to Taylor all through my labor because I was worried about her LoL) for more than 4 hours each year of their life! Try to enjoy the vacation! I'm sure you'll have a good time

[Mars]

Hugs to you. Everything will be fine. I like the video conferencing idea. That would help a lot.

[.Brandi.]

I understand your anxiety....I've never been away from my boys that long (well, I was away from Edward for 4 days after having Preston....but I saw everyday when I was in the hospital...so not the same!) or that far away!! But I had anxiety when I went back to work full time and left Edward with my grandmother and then again when I started working part time and I had to leave both the boys.....I called every hour making sure they were okay!

[Frozendesire]

Oh that would be hard! I understand your feelings for sure!

Just try hard to focus on having some well deserved me time and focus on your sister! Do lots of calls and video messaging!!!