[JustBreathe]

So, I believe I have updated that I returned home to living with Mike 8/11. It was NO PICNIC. The house was still not what I expected, I felt overwhelmed, and I cried a lot. It got better as we began to clean things together, and the fights lessened. Our home is still a huge mess by most standards, but it's sanitary, and I can live in it-- and we work each day at it.

What HAS changed hugely is our attitudes towards each other. We are SO much kinder to one another, more thoughtful, more considerate. I guess I see what we almost let slip through our fingers. Sure it's not always sunshine and butterflies, but I am very happy with where we are right now. We are still following advice from my therapist, and her techniques helps a lot, and I am in treatment once a week. It's amazing to have her guidance and reassurance that we're going for "progress, not perfection."

My surgery consult looms at a month and 2 days away. I am so afraid the insurance will back flip and decide not to approve it but they keep telling me it's all set. I'm nervous for such a HUGE hospital and what the tests may be-- they vary case to case.

I'm also working in physical therapy 3x a week for my neck and back, which has now developed scoliosis from the right side of my back/neck pulling over so much. I'm trying to remain active and focus on posture. Additionally, 2 weeks ago, my extreme muscle tension contributed to an anterior shoulder blade subluxation {it sort of dislocated}. That hurt like a MOTHER to get back in and I felt like someone hit me with a baseball bat for a few days.. Still healing.

Well, that's about it....

new blog:

~My Neck is Twisted, My Tounge Rarely Is...~

[Angelaosaurus-rex]

I'm glad things are going better for you two!!! I hope you can get your house back on track so your more comfortable soon. Sorry to hear about your back sounds painful!

[Mars]

It's great to hear from you and it's good to hear that things are improving. I hope you can get the house sorted out so that that part will be not be there as a focal point.

I hope that everything stays well with the insurance and the surgery will go smoothly. Also hope that the back pain eases soon.

[~Caroline~]

Thanks for updating. I'm happy things are getting better between you and Mike. It's clear you both love each other.

I'm sorry about all the health problems. I really hope surgery will go smoothly and that your insurance will pay!

[alicenwonderland]

glad to hear things are still going well with mike. hope everything goes smoothly going into your surgery

[LisanAndy]

I REALLY hope the surgery goes well and that it solves all, or at least most, of the issues you've been having. I'm so glad to hear things with Mike are still looking up, that's GREAT news. I miss you around here! Thanks for the update

[~*sierra*~]

i'm glad you two are working on things! you're such a great couple
i'm sorry your neck and back are so painful

[midnight_starr]

Glad to hear an update, I miss hearing from you on here... I will call you soon, life is very busy at the moment!!

[*kyle*]

Kindness is one of the most underrated relationship skills around. It is absolutely vital to keeping a marriage alive and healthy. I am so glad to hear that you and Mike have recommitted to being kind, understanding, and compassionate toward one another. Progress, not perfection is a great motto!! Try to apply that idea to the state of your home, Mike's issues, and your own health. You are on the path to wellness in so many areas of life and I couldn't be happier for you.