Update on me

♥Ashley♥ · #1 November 4th, 2010, 10:03 AM

I feel like you guys are always the ones who knew what was going on with me first and now I feel like no one is ever over here anymore so I really dont post

Anyway, unfortunately but also fortunately....Jason and I are definitely moving onto IVF. There are a couple things I need to get done in December (blood tests and SHG) then I will probably start bcp with my January cycle and then I think I was told two weeks from then I will start stims. (Scary!) I am hoping and praying with all that I have that we get a miracle before then, I really really REALLY dont want to bring a debt on us before bringing a baby into this world...but unfortunately thats our situation and it is what it is. If we want kids we have to spend it

It depresses me that we have to do this, I thought when I finally came to this decision I would be so happy and want to move forward with it ASAP. But thats not the case, im sad about it and dread it. (the process of IVF not having a baby) And then on top of it all, im SO scared that I will get pregnant and then have a miscarriage. SO scared of that.

So, thats that. I will take all the "get pregnant and stay pregnant before January" dust I can take.

Seriously.

rubyredslipperz · #2 November 4th, 2010, 10:08 AM

Sorry it's come to this but YAY for having the courage to take the next step. I'll be praying that you get pregnant before then but if that's not the case that your first round of IVF would be successful!

~*Bethy*~ · #3 November 4th, 2010, 10:55 AM

I think IVF will work for you guys. I have a really strong feeling about it. Keep your chin up

Praying for you guys!!

LisanAndy · #4 November 4th, 2010, 11:25 AM

I really think IVF will work for you guys too! Praying you won't need it though. I love reading your updates so thanks for posting this

CandaceDianne · #5 November 4th, 2010, 12:16 PM

I agree, I think IVF will work so well for you guys too!! Of course, I am sending all the super duper sticky, stubborn BFP dust I can in the meantime!

ShannonMVT · #6 November 4th, 2010, 12:20 PM

I'm sorry you are having to resort to IVF, I know it's scary and costly too.

But I do feel like you will get your miracle baby and in the end, everything you did will be worth it.

Lots of

and tons and tons of

for a super sticky wonderful much longed for baby!!! Please keep us posted, I know I'm not the best about posting these days but I do read and like to keep up with everyone and of course especially our long time TTCers, I want so bad for you and the others to have babies!

Resi · #7 November 4th, 2010, 01:14 PM

I'm not sure what to say except that I really hope that the IVF goes well for you. Maybe it will give you twins? It's been such a long hard journey for you and Jason. I hope next year is the best year yet for you. Oh and I stalk you when you don't post on wttc grads.

**Jenn** · #8 November 4th, 2010, 01:18 PM

Well you know I stalk you! lol I'm glad you posted an update over here even though its been kinda dead around here these days.

I can't imagine taking the steps you're needing to take now to get a baby and I won't pretend that I know what you're going through. I can imagine its so so scary though and not at all how you pictured conceiving your child. BUT, in the end, you WILL have your baby and I'm sure you'll look back on all this and think Wow, that sucked, but it was all worth it. Tons and tons of sticky baby dust before the end of this year and if that doesn't work, tons and tons of sticky IVF baby dust! HUGS

Oriyan · #9 November 4th, 2010, 01:38 PM

*hugs* Everything will be ok! I hope IVF works the first time for you

Just to let you know, when all is said and done, IVF is the EASIEST thing compared to pregnancy, giving birth and raising a kid.

Those are much harder.

If you ever have any questions, just PM me

sara~b · #10 November 4th, 2010, 01:44 PM

I still stalk you. I'm just busy with work, school, and kids. I can't wait for you to be too busy with your baby to be on here!

Speaking of which, when are you testing because your chart is HOT! Hoping you get a BFP and sending lots of sticky dust!

*kyle* · #11 November 4th, 2010, 02:15 PM

I stalk you too...

I am so thankful that you have the means and opportunity to continue on the TTC journey even when it means getting a lot of outside help. IVF is a true miracle of modern medicine and so many loved, wanted children have been able to come into this world as a result. I remember doing the IVF consult and hating the whole idea too. It is just scary sounding and you think of how freakin' easy it SHOULD be and you feel like it's a snap for everyone else on earth. But, in the end, what matters isn't how everyone else's kidscame into being, it is how YOUR kid(s) are going to come into being. I am sending you loads of fertility, sticky, twin dust (LOL)... both for now and, if necessary, for the future.

♥Ashley♥ · #12 November 4th, 2010, 02:37 PM

Thanks girls!

Yea, Kyle...I am very thankful that there are options but at this point im stubborn and dont see it that way quite yet. Believe me if and when I have a baby by IVF I will be so thankful that it gave us our miracle...but right now im just so bitter that WE have to go through this. I feel so broken and not like every other young healthy woman around me

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Originally Posted by sara~b

I still stalk you. I'm just busy with work, school, and kids. I can't wait for you to be too busy with your baby to be on here!

Speaking of which, when are you testing because your chart is HOT! Hoping you get a BFP and sending lots of sticky dust!

I know, isnt my chart weird? I dont know whats going on with that! We barely bd'd this month (jason was out of town a whole lot) and ive been so busy with other things ive barely thought about it. And its just odd, ive never had my temp go UP at 14DPO...ever. So im thinking I O'd on one of the days I have a missing temp? But then again I didnt have any fertile cm and not to mention the temps on CD15&16 were definitely post O temps for me. Who knows! Im not thinking anything whatsoever, like NOT AT ALL but its weird!

~* Helen *~ · #13 November 4th, 2010, 02:46 PM

Awww

I really think it will work .. you so deserve it sweetie!!!

Mars · #14 November 4th, 2010, 03:23 PM

Ditto what was said already. I am sorry that it's taken so long and the journey has been so rough. I'm confident you will become pregnant and have a full term pregnancy. I'll keep stalking you.

*krista* · #15 November 4th, 2010, 04:33 PM

I'm glad to see a post from you! I'm sorry you guys have to go through IVF. You know we have all the get pregnant and stay pregnant before January dust you can get!

~*sierra*~ · #16 November 4th, 2010, 05:24 PM

*hugs* & sending u mega babydust! i just know u will be preggers soon!!

alicenwonderland · #17 November 5th, 2010, 02:56 PM

I still stalk! Hoping and praying you get a bfp soon. Maybe the day before you start bcp? I got mine the day before my first RE appt.

sara~b · #18 November 5th, 2010, 03:04 PM

So what was your temp this morning? The fact that your 15DPO is driving me nuts! I think it was Fi that got pg from DTD one time 4 or 5 days before O. Your chart totally made me think of that! Please tell me you will test in the next day or two if the witch doesn't show!

♥Ashley♥ · #19 November 5th, 2010, 04:43 PM

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Originally Posted by sara~b

So what was your temp this morning? The fact that your 15DPO is driving me nuts! I think it was Fi that got pg from DTD one time 4 or 5 days before O. Your chart totally made me think of that! Please tell me you will test in the next day or two if the witch doesn't show!

I wasnt able to temp this morning

We had some guys coming to pick up this refrigerator that we had in our garage because its a piece of crap and we need a new one and it was free pick up and removal and they showed up at freakin 6:30am! So that was an hour before my normal temp time, and besides that I got up out of bed without even thinking about it. I will test if AF doesnt show, but I highly doubt it. I had some brown spotting this morning but ive been checking ever since then and nothing else. She's messing with me!

Babybear4 · #20 November 6th, 2010, 08:39 AM

I rarely come here anymore, but I stalk you, also. I hope you never even have to begin the IVF process and can get your sticky baby naturally before then, but if not, I just know IVF will work for you guys and you WILL have the baby that you deserve.

And, your chart still looks hot, lady!