About 5 weeks after my last cystectomy, I was sure I had another cyst on my opposite ovary. I got in for a cooter cam, and I was correct. Plans were made for surgery for March 8th.
On 2/11, the pain became really bad. I couldn't eat, drink, or move without wincing, even with vicodin. The oncall GYN and my practice sent me to the emergency room. Did another CC, and there was now a cyst on each surgery!
The Dr. came to the hospital and said that she wanted to do surgery and take a better look at things because I was in so much pain and my BP was so high. So at 12:20 am, last Saturday, I went into the OR.
She said that it looks like I have adenomyosis {which I knew from the first surgery in Dec.} and that I had some extensive scar tissue and endo, which I knew I had some before, but on my bladder.
The next morning, propofol free, I spoke with her again and she stressed that if I myself am going to become a bio mom, she wants me pregnant within the next 6 months. The Dr. who did the first surgery said that my reproductive system looks 10-15 years older than I am, and early age hysterectomies are one by one for the females on my mom's side of the fam. My sister turned 34 today and still has her organs, but she also has endo and has had a few cystectomies.
That was beyond sombering. Not becoming biological parents. Mike was really angry at the world, and I just sort of accepted it, I had been sort of figuring on it since the December surgery.
Honestly, I'm not sure how I feel. We reaaaaaaaaallllly enjoy our child-free life, but reaaaaalllllllly want to be parents.
My MIL has made the offer to cover the cost of freezing my eggs to use for surrogacy, but I don't know if I want that. There are so many children who already need homes. Mike would prefer surrogacy.
So I'm at a stand still for now, waiting for this cycle to end and to get the clearence to DTD.
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Saw the Dr. yesterday for post-op appointment. She admitted saying that while pregnancy in 6 months would be her choice, there is still a lot of scar tissue, and my ovary is still stuck to it {explains while the pain has become managable but not gone}. We talked about "fertility preservation", and not wanting to send me into menopause at my age.
She referred me Western New York IVF {NOT for IVF just yet} but because the Dr. who runs the program is also an endo expert, and endo is just "not her specialty" FINALLY a doctor who doesn't have a God complex! She imagines that if I work with this Dr., it may take 1 or 2 full laparotomies to give us more time and better chances, and if nothing else, just to try really hard not to put me in menopause {risk of heart disease and other crap} too early. PLUS, it will put us front and center with the Director of WNY IVF to explore other options once my insides are more ready to be able to carry a pregnancy to term! So, as soon as I get my voice back {crazy cold/asthma flare and I have laryngitis} I will be calling the office the VERY second I can. Thank you ladies for your unwavering support, but deeply into year 3, we may be closer to a baby!!
