[*Crystal*]

When I was TTC DS no one knew about it. We had been WTTC but decided we didn't want to wait anymore and just did it. We got pregnant the first month trying. This time around though, I have been waiting for a while and when friends started asking me when we were TTC I just told them. There are maybe 8 people who know we are TTC when this cycle is over. I don't know why I told them... Maybe because I am so excited, maybe because it was just easier to give them an answer then trying to avoid the question but now I am feeling so much pressure.

I feel like I have jinxed myself. I was already feeling nervous TTC this time around because it just CAN'T be as easy as it was last time.... can it? I need it to be. If it's not then we waited for no reason. All the months of waiting in order to get the due date that gave me the maximum maternity leave... and if I don't get that due date the wait was for nothing! I could already be pregnant and avoiding all the pressure.

OMG I sound like a crazy person. I wish someone could just tell me when I am going to conceive so I could relax and enjoy it.

[Mars]

I can't offer any great advice or comfort. I just hope it works out for you and you get pregnant this cycle.

[~Caroline~]

Of course there are no guarantee that you will get pregnant on the first try again, but I think there's a good chance it could happen again. Some couples are just super fertile and get pregnant very easily every time (oh how I envy them ).

I'm crossing my fingers for you!

[*krista*]

I agree with Caroline. But I will also say I think you are putting a lot of extra pressure on yourself.

We have plenty of Fertile Mertyl grads who get pregnant quickly each time. Don't count yourself out yet, you haven't even started.

[*Crystal*]

It's true. I shouldn't be putting stress on myself. I am dealing with stuff with my son's health. He has been having issues with his stool off and on for a year and a half now and we just started seeing a GI doctor.. his pediatrician had us do loads of other things first. They are testing for some scary things and I feel completely scared and out of control right now. I think those feelings are effecting in all aspects of my life.