[Banned-ZoesMom]

In March of 2007, I gave birth to a very beautiful 6lbs 6.5oz baby girl, Zoe. In May 2007, we decided to start trying again. In June 2007, we got our BFP on hpt's, but our blood tests kept coming back negative. The obstetrician ordered an ultrasound and it turned out I had a rare cyst on my left ovary that produced the hcg hormone. I had that cyst removed on September 11, 2007. On October 3rd, 2007, just 2 weeks later, we got a positive on an hpt..and on 4 more. The doctor concluded that the cyst was preventing me from becoming pregnant because it was producing the pregnancy hormone, thus tricking my body into thinking it was pregnant so I couldn't get pregnant again. My beta levels started out at 80. The following Sunday, I began having sharp pains in my right side so I went up to the hospital. The doctor told me I may have an ectopic pregnancy and did my blood levels again. They also did an ultrasound, and no sac in the tubes or uterus could be seen. My levels came back at 112, just 5 days after the first set. 2 days later, they came back at 163, so I thought there might still be some hope. 7 days after those levels, my new set came back at 206, and two days later, 90. I miscarried baby Rice on October 25, 2007. His due date was June 18, 2008. I got my first post-miscarriage period just 19 days later. It came just 7 days after ovulation. My next cycle was very screwy. Going by the cycle I had, I was late on December 10, 2007. A blood test came back negative. They told me if I still didn't have my period by December 17, 2007, come back for another blood test. I did. It was negative too. Going by the cycle I should have had, I was late as of December 20th, 2007. As I was still in pain from my miscarriage, I was scheduled for a diagnostic laparoscopy on January 7, 2008. I went in for my pre-op on December 19, 2007, and it's mandatory to do a blood pregnancy test on a woman before a surgery, even though my test had been negative just two days earlier. I received a phone call the next afternoon from the doctor's office, telling me I was "barely pregnant". My levels were 23. Well, this time, my levels doubled. My next blood test, they were 219, then 500-something, and finally, on January 4, 2008, they should have been 4000-something. On Monday January 7, 2008 (my surgery had been cancelled because of the pregnancy), my DH went to the hospital because he had a bad case of the flu. While there, around noon, I felt wet, so I went to the washroom, think it was just CM, and there was bright red blood. I registered at triage and they told me it would be an 8-hour wait. An 8-freakin-hour wait for a miscarriage. I called my doctor's office, and my levels on January 4, 2008 were only 1128. The bleeding stopped around 3pm when Mike finally went home, so I thought that perhaps it was a result of stress. I told the nurses I was going home and I'd come back when I passed clots. At 9pm, I began spotting again and at 9am, I went back to the hospital. They put me on an IV, did an ultrasound and bloodwork. My bloodwork came back at 424, but my cervix was still closed and there was still a sac (empty) in the uterus. They sent me home at noon, and at 2pm and 3pm, I passed clots. My OB's nurse told me not to bother coming in, but I did anyway. I saved the clots in a jar and gave them to my doctor who sent them to the lab. January 8, 2008, I lost baby Bean. My first post-miscarriage ovulation was January 29, 2008. My surgery had been rescheduled for February 11, 2008, which was also the same day I was due for AF. I began spotting that day, and did end up bleeding that week, but was told that I should expect to bleed after that surgery, so I was never really sure whether that was AF or if it was a result of the surgery. After the surgery, the obsterician came in to tell me that I had endometriosis. At the age of 21, I had endometriosis. What kind of cruel joke is that? He said it was mostly on the left, but beginning to grow on the right, which would explain why I was in such pain after my miscarriage. On March 8, 2008, the day AF was due, I got a stinkin' evap!! March 9, 2008, AF reared her ugly face after a week of pregnancy symptoms. On March 17, 2007, I saw him again, and he told me that it appears my endometriosis is rapidly progressing, which could affect my fertility. The obsterician who performed my cyst removal in September noticed some endometriosis, but not enough to warrant a diagnosis. I went from Stage 1 to Stage 3 in 5 months. He didn't want to discuss treatment plans. He just wanted to try birth control. A type of birth control that when taken a certain way, actually suppresses ovulation AND menstruation. I was due to begin the birth control starting the first day of my next period. As much as I didn't want to, I decided it was for the best. If it would suppress the progression of the endometriosis long enough to give me a healthy child, I'd do it. It was only for 82 days anyway, right?

April 1, 2008. I made a thread, asking people to check out the faint BFP I had gotten that morning. When they clicked the link, a new window opened up that said: OMG APRIL FOOL!!. I joked that it would be funny if I did get a BFP that week, and lo and behold, I was the April Fool. On April 3, 2008, I got another evap. April 4, 2008, a faint BFP on an FRER and a bright, no questions asked BFP on a digital. I went into the doctor's office the same day and had blood work done. My levels came back at 17. The next day, just 29 hours later, while at emerge for cramping, my levels came back at 47. My levels seemed to progress well. On April 10, 2008, my levels, which should have been 282, came back at 589. I married on Saturday April 12, 2008, and when I got back on April 16, 2008, I had my levels done again. They should have been 4712, and they were 8140. My levels the following Sunday were 28, 583.

Now, that same Sunday was the beginning of an emotional roller coaster for me. I went up to emerge becasue I fainted in the shower and again in the waiting room. The emerge doctor did a bedside ultrasound and told me all he could see was a gestational sac, but no yolk sac or fetus. He told me it was in the uterus, but there's still the chance of an ectopic. Given my high levels, he said it could also be a blighted ovum, molar pregnancy, or best case scenario, I'm not as far along as I thought I was, or it's a really crappy machine. I cried for 3 hours. My obsterician got word, and ordered an emergency ultrasound for the following afternoon at 2:30pm and wanted to see me at 6pm. I already had an ultrasound scheduled for the Tuesday at 4pm. The ultrasound technician told me she saw a gestational sac measuring 6w2d, just on schedule, and a yolk sac, but no fetus. I saw my doctor that night who advised me that since the sac was that big and we hadn't yet seen a fetus, I should prepare to miscarry, and to schedule a D&C. I refused. I hadn't seen my daughter on an ultrasound until 6w4d, so I knew there was still a chance. I begged him to schedule one more ultrasound, and he did, reluctantly, for Friday April 25, 2008 at 12:30pm. As my Tuesday ultrasound had not been cancelled, I went. The tech told me he didn't know what he was doing, as he was just the janitor. When he was done the abdominal ultrasound, he asked me to get changed for a transvaginal, while he got a female tech to be in the room. The female tech came about 10 minutes later, as she was doing an x-ray. The male tech started the transvaginal and the female tech said "What do you see?" I said "I see a sac and a yolk sac". "Anything else?" she asked. And right beside the yolk sac was the tiniest little flash. A beautiful fetus with an even more beautiful heartbeat of 102bpm. By my ultrasound on Friday, the heartbeat had picked up to 122bpm. The same night as my Friday ultrasound, my doctor shook my hand, said "congratulations, this is a viable pregnancy" and apologized for his comments made the last time I saw him. He asked if I'd like to continue my prenatal care at that office, and I told him I was still deciding. I made an appointment anyway, just to be safe, on May 28, 2008 at 11am, and if I stick with him, I should be having another ultrasound around then too.

Anyway, our precious wedding gift and Christmas miracle, Pebble, is due on December 13, 2008.

And here he/she is...

[Jodi Dawn]

CONGRATS. Sending sticky dust your way.